it seems schizophrenic is just a code word doctors use when they need to shut someone up
and make him worry about speaking on certen subjects
luckly a friend ive met in south africa befor i was about to go for my first round at the mad house
introduced me to tree resin and told me about how it can restore old memories
now i realise that it was not related just to how certen smells can trigger some old power lines in the mind
she knew about how burnt resins are offering to spirits
and many times when i would throw some crushed resin powders on coals i would think of that
bringing in that intent
one night i was outside playing some guitar for the trees and doing some drumming on it to
go into a higher state
as i sort of drifted out , not to the point whered id partly see spirits
tho to some kind of higher state
then i closed my eyes for a moment cant really say how long you know time
time left for a vacation back then
this was a few months ago i think i had disscussion on it on chat
it was like i was sleeping and i got woken up with smelling salts
as if by a spirit or ?
that smell was something else
after that i kept hitting the strings looking around as if my mind was completly blank
till max shows up (one of the dogs who lives in my house) standing infront of me strangly i dident recognize him at the moment there
it was one of those launch moments i recall from LSD trips where nothing exists but the moment itself everything past as if never been
then i look at this gray hound staring at me while i sit by some trees hitting the guitar
no idea whats going on as i start to realise thats max i know him and he wants to go back to the house
tho in that moment that dog was an alien who followed the sounds to me and that house was a figment of hes imagination or something like that
that dog is partly jedi he plays mind tricks on me all the time im sure of it since then
i drifted on this wave to far yea then followed from there
lots and lots of old memories leading me again to the same realisation that always slipped from me
them damn whitecoats
im not insane
this shit is more real than anything or anyone i ever saw in this damned country
and even if by any chance they ment good and to play the heyoka's and be arr no your just crazy haha spirits and belif in the unknown haha
they went a bit far and brought in too much brain washing mechanizems
how does involvment of the digital play part of it ?
must be the 2019 fix they released Anti virus for the mind
Install for the removal of eye-mosquito's who dug up into brain
and send em flying into the zapper
must of been waiting on this update for 18 years
cant really tell
ever noticed how fly's seems to be present every time the thougt line start to drift into negative places ?
one night i had the a strange dream i remember waking up in a rage punching the air and a fly got zapped a second after
might be connecting strange things here
life is getting stranger every night
or im just starting/returning to notice it
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But, I did use WAY TOO many psychedelics between the different MRI images. Maybe that caused new growth and bridging? I dunno. I would not recommend trying it unless you're willing to potentially go "crazy."
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could be
theres some wacky flow in the mind while on psychadelics
wouldnt be hard to imagine that old broken unpassable roads in the mind can get replaced
with psych trips the mind would be more creative and build new roads to places
i can see that
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Allowing a little time to reply and consciously being aware of my thoughts has helped.
I feel like this has improved over the past 5 years. (Or gotten worse!!!! Hahahahaa)
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nothing suprising there
got to get mind into idea's mode chill or such
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What if - you are a visionary? And the reason you have your experiences as such is due to being tied into the cosmic weirdness?
But, i am no doctor. So, I do not recommend taking my words as truth.
Did you ever suffer any extreme head trauma?
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not really
one day i got knocked to the ground by a flying Barbary fig leaf to my head

, calling it a leaf is strange
it was without the spikes luckly :d
first time i got to madhouse was litterally because i was talking about strange stuff nonstop
was lots of cosmic weirdness back then
in most cases is not enough to take someone in there
so they had to use the he could be dangerous to himself card to bring get me inside
Thanks for offering again ACY
Its being going better
i think i know the deal not too sure honestly
if it comes to that ill try again without really knowing what im doing
things work alot better like that some times
or ill talk with ya
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