So it's almost been 3 months since my last blast off, and what a blast off it was. I have on 2 separate occasions, managed to dose a very small amount of DMT. The first was clearing the GVG chamber after someone else dosed, which would have equated to barely registering on my mg scale. This gave me a very light sensation that reminded me of the pleasantness of it all. The second time I placed two very small scoops, approx 10mgs or less, in the GVG and had a light and scary experience. Basically all the fears that I experienced/created during my last dose (which can be read HERE) came forward and manifested as absolutes. Upon returning to normal conscious understanding, I was able to comprehend what had happened and removed the feeling of belief about what I had experienced.
This has been a long and strong learning experience for me. I have been taking aniracetam recently, along with a new selection of vitamins ect. (Amino acids, krill oil, lecithin...). I am still noticing very slight changes being made over the course of time. At first (after the big DMT dose) I was experiencing a difficult time "being" in this reality without thinking to myself, "This is so unreal". Now the changes are so slight that I don't really notice the difference for weeks. I am becoming more me then I have ever been, or so it seems. I believe that I may be grounded in a more healthy way than I used to, less permanent yet controllable or automatic. Hard to explain.
I have taken this time to focus on more reality based thoughts and goals lately. Things with work and my current lifestyle; eating habits, hobbies, motivation towards doing things in a way that I should have been doing a long time ago. This large dose that I partook in has had more of an impact on my life than all my other DMT doses combined. It was difficult. and at first I wasnt so sure that there was a positive outlook to be seen from it. Yet it all seems to be coming together, and I have a much better outlook on myself, psychadelics, people, the world and so on, than I have ever had before.
I look forward to my next dose, although I now see that it probably won't be for quite some time. I do however plan on having a light mushroom experience in the near future. Which I am very excited for BTW. This place is amazing and I have some big plans ahead of me.
This has been a long and strong learning experience for me. I have been taking aniracetam recently, along with a new selection of vitamins ect. (Amino acids, krill oil, lecithin...). I am still noticing very slight changes being made over the course of time. At first (after the big DMT dose) I was experiencing a difficult time "being" in this reality without thinking to myself, "This is so unreal". Now the changes are so slight that I don't really notice the difference for weeks. I am becoming more me then I have ever been, or so it seems. I believe that I may be grounded in a more healthy way than I used to, less permanent yet controllable or automatic. Hard to explain.
I have taken this time to focus on more reality based thoughts and goals lately. Things with work and my current lifestyle; eating habits, hobbies, motivation towards doing things in a way that I should have been doing a long time ago. This large dose that I partook in has had more of an impact on my life than all my other DMT doses combined. It was difficult. and at first I wasnt so sure that there was a positive outlook to be seen from it. Yet it all seems to be coming together, and I have a much better outlook on myself, psychadelics, people, the world and so on, than I have ever had before.
I look forward to my next dose, although I now see that it probably won't be for quite some time. I do however plan on having a light mushroom experience in the near future. Which I am very excited for BTW. This place is amazing and I have some big plans ahead of me.
