You're perceptive. The power of suggestion is real in these parts.
There's a reason I haven't explicitly stated some of the more... "scary" things that I've seen in the space. While it's good to be well informed, there's a balance with the impacts of the power of suggestion.
However, one thing that may help is to normalize any fear or anxiety you may have. It's what the spice does, and for most, there's no getting around it, which only leaves to accept and normalize it.
Also, you don't have to breakthrough.
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