Why DMT Scares Me

[Voidmatrix]

I had a feeling it was about oil burner after you shared more. Yes, those can stain with flame sources such as matches. Try using a torch. Let the flame get damn close, but not touch the bulb.

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[yatyas314]

This is part of my experience as well, though most often instead of skipping i just keep it lighter than what I deeply and actually want. Sometimes I will meditate beforehand, but I am bullheaded in many ways and want to brute force myself into the space. Since DMTx I've shifted that a bit and am now taking my time during the duration of smoalking. I find witnessing and allowing with acceptance and awareness of the changes taking place as they're taking place.

Having that conversation is normal and might be bivalent in that it's a response to the inclement intensity of the space as well as an input response from the body as it feels the the need to steel itself even upon our consideration of having the experience.

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Allowing yourself to experiment with low doses is a lovely thing, I've had some VERY therapeutic afternoons and hardly ever got close to the 'clicking over' point.

Thank you it's nice to know that I am experiencing the same things as you. I have tried with low success the lower doses I almost always go all the way if I decide to go at all. Maybe a function of my personality ? maybe an opportunity to work more in that space. Thanks again for the responses.
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[Voidmatrix]

Thank you it's nice to know that I am experiencing the same things as you. I have tried with low success the lower doses I almost always go all the way if I decide to go at all. Maybe a function of my personality ? maybe an opportunity to work more in that space. Thanks again for the responses.
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I encourage you to stay with the process, with curiosity, to see what in you leads you to go deeper if there was an intent to stay lighter. You may be surprised at what's there and what shows up.

I say this fresh out of a 10mg space. Hands were shaky for sure.

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[yatyas314]

Do you always weigh out your dose? I always optimize for hit quality and quantity and the better I get with the GVG the experience is almost different than the battery powered vaporizer. I would almost say that they are different experiences, something like cousins that are related but also very different. Listed by intensity~(in my humble opinion)
Changa
GVG freebase
Vaporized freebase
And a few other variations of oral harmline/Thh
Back to the original question do you weigh out every dose every time?
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[Voidmatrix]

I weigh my doses of freebases but not of infusions.

Have you compared changa experiences in a vaporizer, a gvg, and a bowl?

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[yatyas314]

No, I only have the GVG as far as pipes go. I had never considered putting infusions into the vaporizer. With the GVG and butane lighter I have I have been able to heat the diffuser nice and evely and achieved a cherry in the changa, I just can't take more than two good pulls in a row.

 

[Voidmatrix]

Okay, now, try it with a straight pipe, trust me. Ask @ommani


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[ommani]

Okay, now, try it with a straight pipe, trust me. Ask @ommani

Yeah, the harmalas and dmt seem to vaporize at different rates. However, if you’re getting a cherry/combustion with the GVG, then it’s pretty similar to just smoking the changa, I think.

Btw based on how long I’ve been on this forum, you’d think I was some kind of dmt master. However, that couldn’t be further from the truth, as the mere thought of smoalking makes me want to hide under the covers

 

[yatyas314]

Yeah, the harmalas and dmt seem to vaporize at different rates. However, if you’re getting a cherry/combustion with the GVG, then it’s pretty similar to just smoking the changa, I think.

Btw based on how long I’ve been on this forum, you’d think I was some kind of dmt master. However, that couldn’t be further from the truth, as the mere thought of smoalking makes me want to hide under the covers

I will find a straight one, although today after my earlier comments I checked and found that I am at the end of a jar and need a new one. Any and all recommendations for the leaf portion are welcomed.

 

[Voidmatrix]

Mullein, raspberry and marshmallow leaf.

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[Voidmatrix]

If anyone ever wonders, I wake up getting my ass psychologically kicked and it is good ground to do good work.

This morning, when I awoke in the usual state, I was thinking a lot about self-loathing. For one reason or another, I thought that self-hate and self-loathing would be more conscious and active than they likely are. Well, self-hate may be pretty conscious and active, but self loathing seems to be much more subconscious and passive. I bring this up in reflecting on the times I have been deeper and it was easier. The only difference each and every time was people. The right people in that moment. Because from them I felt, support, excitement, eagerness, etc from them, things that I don't feel for myself. So then while alone... we are where we are.

All that so say, the work is and has been a subtle working to erode my own self loathing.

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