Why DMT Scares Me

[yatyas314]

I appreciate that and don't disagree, but at which point I feel kinda dumb, for why does it seem others are less inhibited than myself? Why am I unable to manage these as well as some others? That's why I try to keep the comparison out of it, because it's inaccurate, and when used to bolster, it's biased.

And thank you. It's not easy talking about this.

I would say its a miscalculation to think others manage these things better, maybe different but better is subjective. I often see people just move right past the harder work that we are speaking about and really never unpack it or understand it and maybe that's a great strategy for some, just not me and from the sounds of it you either. It isn't easy speaking about these things nevermind in a public forum, the anonymity here is key but I never go to use any plant medicine anymore without thinking of the dialogue here on the nexus and more specifically this exact thread. I encourage you and others to be more open this really is he purpose of a discussion board based on entheogens.
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[Voidmatrix]

I would say its a miscalculation to think others manage these things better, maybe different but better is subjective.

I would say how it's managed may be subjective, and how it is experienced is subjective, but there's an observational ostensibility that lies behind my statement. For example, say there are those that perhaps have the same degree of fear of anxiety, but by virtue of having deeper experiences (and by deeper I mean more immersed in hyperspace, more visual, etc) more often than I, have an observable way of getting themselves where they're going better subjectively for themselves than I subjectively do for myself. Another example is in redosing. For those that redose with seemingly no problem, provided they have the same degree and intensity of inhibition that I feel, they manage it better by virtue of allowing themselves to redose when I don't. Does that make sense?

It isn't easy speaking about these things

No, it's not. I have had plenty of people that seem surprised by this fear. Such that they say silly things like, "just do it," or flame me like that one guy did.

I never go to use any plant medicine anymore without thinking of the dialogue here on the nexus and more specifically this exact thread. I encourage you and others to be more open this really is he purpose of a discussion board based on entheogens.

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[yatyas314]

I would say how it's managed may be subjective, and how it is experienced is subjective, but there's an observational ostensibility that lies behind my statement. For example, say there are those that perhaps have the same degree of fear of anxiety, but by virtue of having deeper experiences (and by deeper I mean more immersed in hyperspace, more visual, etc) more often than I, have an observable way of getting themselves where they're going better subjectively for themselves than I subjectively do for myself. Another example is in redosing. For those that redose with seemingly no problem, provided they have the same degree and intensity of inhibition that I feel, they manage it better by virtue of allowing themselves to redose when I don't. Does that make sense?

Yes it makes sense I feel like this will be a two part reply, the one that it my initial reaction and the one a few days from now when I digest it all. When the appearance may not reflect the true reality is almost exactly what I was saying, I mean I have almost zero experience doing these with other people, literally 3 times in my life so personally speak from a place where I only infer or imagine how others manage the situations or depth of experiences that I have. I just think that because its voluntary stress and we have signed up for what comes as in we voluntarily partake in these medicines its a spectrum and evermoving target rich environment, and at least in the small time I have been gaining experience I will often redose pound my chest and look for god. At the same time I may more often take one hit and contemplate what in the heck am I doing and why am I here sucking on a vape/pipe.
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[ommani]

I have a project for work that is related to one of my hang ups and I think it'll be good way to cut the rope.

Overuse is a real thing and a real concern. It seems like the progression into overuse is abrupt. Naturally, it's good form to learn from the mistakes of others whenever possible. That said, all I want is to avoid this. This desire has transformed into a neuroses.

Overuse is the combination of dose and frequency. I dose often, so keep the dosage light as a means to avoid falling into the overuse category.

I am now tasked with writing a guide for overuse, listing different symptoms of overuse, with necessary descriptions of each symptom and steps to take to help remedy the situation. In doing this project, I plan to reflect deeply and see if I personally really have anything to worry about.

So called, “overuse,” only applies to those who are still living in the 3D matrix, and haven’t transcended to the 4th dimension.