WoundedHealer
Rising Star
Hello and how to begin? Better yet, how do I introduce myself while maintaining my anonymity? I'll try.
Years in recovery from drugs and alcohol , a near life accident, and many miracles had put me in a place of amazing joy and acceptance of some physical limitations while comfortably living a spiritual life. This spanned over a decade until a series of unfortunate events over the past few years had cost me most of my material possessions, my self esteem, and my connection/acceptance of source. As the friend that suggested the Nexus to me pointed out, it was as if I was almost forced to mentally evolve into a victim to survive. I maintained my sobriety and "continued through prayer and meditation to increase my conscious contact with god as I understood him" hoping to be relieved from the depression, pain, (physical, mental, and spiritual) and anxiety that came with my new role as a victim. The problem or paradox was that, I'm continually led back to the spirituality of my understanding, the truth I had glimpsed while using hallucinogens in my youth, and probably the only one that doesn't fit into a typical 12 step mold. I was stuck and isolated.
I had heard and then read about Dimitri on and off over the years, traveling in circles of visionary artists it became a common topic but was I fearful of relapse so never gave it any opopportunity. I had begun using mj for my pain and anxiety a few yrs back and this helped me look past the stigma placed on spiritual medicine. I began to say that if I were in the right setting, and I could see it was syncrodestiny and not me chasing the high, I would consider certain hallucinagins again.
In a nutshell that's where I find myself now. I met an individual in the most unlikely spiritual settings that, after hearing struggles asked if i had considered meeting Dimitri? I asked him to clarity and he told me if it were something I were interested in could arrange a meeting, free of charge of course, but wanted me to do some research before making any decisions. He pointed me to the Nexus and after a night of hopping between reading the forums and Terrance McKenna lectures on YouTube I find myself a member here with a renewed hope, feeling a bit less isolated. I'm definitely hoping to experience this but need to research some obstacles (tramadol used for chronic pain) and some of the mental risks before surrendering. At least I finally feel I have some direction. Thanks for your time and consideration, love and light.
Years in recovery from drugs and alcohol , a near life accident, and many miracles had put me in a place of amazing joy and acceptance of some physical limitations while comfortably living a spiritual life. This spanned over a decade until a series of unfortunate events over the past few years had cost me most of my material possessions, my self esteem, and my connection/acceptance of source. As the friend that suggested the Nexus to me pointed out, it was as if I was almost forced to mentally evolve into a victim to survive. I maintained my sobriety and "continued through prayer and meditation to increase my conscious contact with god as I understood him" hoping to be relieved from the depression, pain, (physical, mental, and spiritual) and anxiety that came with my new role as a victim. The problem or paradox was that, I'm continually led back to the spirituality of my understanding, the truth I had glimpsed while using hallucinogens in my youth, and probably the only one that doesn't fit into a typical 12 step mold. I was stuck and isolated.
I had heard and then read about Dimitri on and off over the years, traveling in circles of visionary artists it became a common topic but was I fearful of relapse so never gave it any opopportunity. I had begun using mj for my pain and anxiety a few yrs back and this helped me look past the stigma placed on spiritual medicine. I began to say that if I were in the right setting, and I could see it was syncrodestiny and not me chasing the high, I would consider certain hallucinagins again.
In a nutshell that's where I find myself now. I met an individual in the most unlikely spiritual settings that, after hearing struggles asked if i had considered meeting Dimitri? I asked him to clarity and he told me if it were something I were interested in could arrange a meeting, free of charge of course, but wanted me to do some research before making any decisions. He pointed me to the Nexus and after a night of hopping between reading the forums and Terrance McKenna lectures on YouTube I find myself a member here with a renewed hope, feeling a bit less isolated. I'm definitely hoping to experience this but need to research some obstacles (tramadol used for chronic pain) and some of the mental risks before surrendering. At least I finally feel I have some direction. Thanks for your time and consideration, love and light.
