apprehensive and nervous

[ancientwarrior333]

thank you Tat Vam Asi, that was very good advice.

i really want to do this, i want to break free of the hell that i am in, i just want to reach a place of love and happiness inside of myself, love happiness and higher awareness, you know, just feel connected to Spirit once again like i used to feel.
i don't want to be the living dead!

onward!

hi, and thank you for your advice, and thank you others for your advice as well.

Tat Vam Asi -- do you think that this will help me in any way? i need to reach a higher state and get my soul back, i need to "soul retrieve" myself in a really bad way

i heard another user describing it as "defragging". i hope that i can reach what i need to reach by embarking on solo journeys. I no longer want to feel the way that i feel. I hate it.

 

[Felnik]

Careful of expectation

Try to improve your state of mind in normal life as best you can before embarking with dmt . Things like
diet , excercise , sleep can do wonders
Also trying to resolve unresolved issues with friends & family . I've found dmt
to be part of a larger system of healing.

When your ready consider your setting
very carefully . Small shamanic ritual
can help to set the scene . Don't go overboard. Don't be too serious , the experience can be
absurd and funny at times

Start slow , go easy it's very weird at first
Observe , no judgement
stay grounded as best you can
breathe .

No expectation
Don't let it scare you it's an amazing
experience no guilt.
The revelations can arrive in strange ways don't read too much into whatever happens at first .
This takes a long time to learn how to get the best out of it . Be patient
have love for yourself

 

[Varox]

Tat Vam Asi -- do you think that this will help me in any way? i need to reach a higher state and get my soul back, i need to "soul retrieve" myself in a really bad way

You seem to be placing a lot of faith in DMT while in my experience if you rush into the DMT experience full of anxiety, expectations, impatience and maybe a little bit of fear then there's a big chance that the molecule will backfire at you and slap you really really hard. This is not a bad thing per se and in fact it might be exactly what you need. It is ok to be afraid, sick or broken at a certain level but are you ready to face these things on a DMT psychedelic experience? The chance exists that DMT may place you in front of your pains in a most terrifying way and that after the experience you do "win your soul back" but don't be a fool and think that it will be a ride through Disney's "it's a small world".

If you decide to go through pay attention to the pieces of advice you received and take it slowly!

Be safe!

P.S. have you considered other substances to help you with your troubles? I have found MDMA to be an excelent tool to connect me with my true self and find out who I really am. For me DMT connects you with the universe while MDMA connects you with yourself which might be what you actually need (LSD can help in this way as well) No wonder these substances are being used psychoanalytically and to to treat PTSD...

 

[ancientwarrior333]

would going into a beautiful forest at daytime during the spring be the right setting?

or would my sacred space, my bedroom at home during the nighttime be better?

i think i would feel more comfortable journeying indoors.

i'm really afraid in general of death. I never used to be. Someone told me that dmt could most certainly help with this, and i will be going via the changa route. I was told to simply relax, and not worry.

 

[DeltaSpice]

I think you should make Changa and stick to sub break through amounts . You can have meaningful experiences without the risk of hyperslapping death, gnashing of teeth scenarios.

I might be wrong but I think people with a lot going on inside their head are more prone to bad experience's.

 

[Varox]

The perfect setting is where you feel safe and relaxed, a sitter is also very recommendable. Try to remove from the setting anything that makes you feel uneasy, this includes any mess in the room where you will launch. Your five senses should be at ease.

 

[Tryptallmine]

would going into a beautiful forest at daytime during the spring be the right setting?

or would my sacred space, my bedroom at home during the nighttime be better?

i think i would feel more comfortable journeying indoors.

i'm really afraid in general of death. I never used to be. Someone told me that dmt could most certainly help with this, and i will be going via the changa route. I was told to simply relax, and not worry.

The right setting isn't what other people think. It's what is most comfortable for you. Where is a place where you feel relaxed and most comfortable? Away from distractions? or worry of someone walking in on you? That calm place.

I've read back through this thread and I'm worried that you're really investing a lot of faith in a DMT experience improving your life. The bottom line is - only you can Improve your life, it's a conscious decision and a long term commitment.

You're not going to smoke dmt and turn around and go, "well hey, I've smoked dmt - everything's are going to be A OK!" and high five your mom. You're probably going to end up a lot more confused than you are now.

Whatever a person gets from a psychedelic experience, they need to be able to work with those insights to facilitate positive change in their life. From what I've read, I honestly don't feel like you're at that spot at this point in time and suggest you maybe reconsider DMT until you're a little better grounded.

I think some of the answers you're after 'fast' are well outside the psychedelic experience.

 

[ancientwarrior333]

The perfect setting is where you feel safe and relaxed, a sitter is also very recommendable. Try to remove from the setting anything that makes you feel uneasy, this includes any mess in the room where you will launch. Your five senses should be at ease.

thank you for this Varox. This is how i feel about it too.

i love my bedroom at my parent's house, it has a good energy and i feel safe there.

but i cannot for the life of me do any spiritual exploration where i currently live, including deep meditation. I live in an assisted-living apartment where people knock on my door and come in and out all day and all night long. It is a very bad and intrusive environment.

i take abilify, and i read on the nexus somewhere several months ago that abilify especially blocks dmt from working properly in the brain. Its somewhere in the old threads. I don't know how true this is, but after just 3 days of stopping abilify i already feel better and was able to meditate somewhat more deeply than i ever could while i was on the abilify.

i am going to be moving back there eventually, hopefully i can continue my work with the sacred plants.
I also am looking into going to an ayahuasca retreat for an extended amount of time, i hope i can materialize that scenario. I truly hope i can find my way back into love, freedom, light and consciousness.

 

[humble bumble]

Hi, Abilify, as an SSRI will probably affect your trips, but more importantly, it might interact very dangerously with MAO-inhibitors, such as the alkaloids in ayahuasca.
I'm sure you know this, but I felt I had to state it explicitly here.

 

[ancientwarrior333]

hi again humble bumble

thanks for the info, but i'm pretty sure that abilify is NOT an SSRI. I researched all over the internet and I read on more than one website that abilify is not an SSRI, so there should be no problems. But just to be safe i stopped it anyway. It doesn't help me feel any better, not even a little. It actually makes me feel worse.

 

[humble bumble]

You're absolutely right, Ancientwarrior, my bad
I was mistaken with something else.

 

[Just.Ask.The.Axis]

Friend, my suggestion is to identify one small thing in your life that needs improvement before you try this. Make it a small goal, accomplish it and enjoy the satisfaction of self improvement. Now with a little weight off your shoulders you'll enjoy it a lot more.

Here is some good info

Dmt and Abilify - Welcome discussion - Welcome to the DMT-Nexus

Bipolar person seeks stories of people who gone bad (e.g. psychosis) on DMT - Welcome discussion - Welcome to the DMT-Nexus

Abilify discontinuation - Welcome discussion - Welcome to the DMT-Nexus

DMT + Psychiatric Medications - Welcome discussion - Welcome to the DMT-Nexus