I suffered from really bad anxiety for a decade.
My anxiety was so bad it landed me in the emergency room twice
ie: loss of breath, double vision, sweating, insomnia, panic.
Basically, feeling like I was going to die any second but lasting
hours or days without the contribution or aid of any drugs.
Regardless, I really wanted to try spice. I knew I was taking a chance
smoking "the most intense psychedelic" with a known mental malfunction.
Then one day I smoked 40-50mg in a couple of puffs after having
experimented with subs for a bit - and had the most awesome & terrifying trip.
That was half a year ago and I have not had any anxiety symptoms since I was squashed to pieces
somewhere out there in some dimensional plane in the Universe. My personal opinion is that spice
really is medicinal & therapeutic for anxiety & depression.
My shell broke and with it existential thought and anxiety. I realized for the first time, possibly,
that the core issue was how I thought. My inner dialogue. The spice never said to me, you are negative,
you think bad things, it occurred in the exponential vastness of the experience and mostly
certainly that carrier wave that just completely disassembled and crushed everything that I was and knew
(as well as being louder than any extreme metal band).
But, when they recreated the Earth for me they asked if I wanted to go back - they told me I was
lucky to be here and that I chose to be here. Which when I got back seemed empowering. Something
I would never have thought to be true, but when you hear come from someone else, out there. S^$&!
Like they say, "THE ULTIMATE CONVINCER".
There is not one specific thing that happened but the culmination of the experience seemed to shift my
consciousness completely. I am still the old me cleansed of mental baggage, I can't even really
remember what that baggage was - as coming out of the breakthrough and integrating the experience
put me on the same track but a better path along the track. I was focused on now, on change.
Really, only a couple of days after my breakthrough my life went through a smooth and completely
life altering path (ie moved to a new city into a huge house with a couple of friends, got an awesome new
job and band tours and is doing very well). Everything just seemed to fit into place quickly and the cherry
on top is not having anxiety and being able to have and share the spice!!
Now, I would never say to someone with anxiety issues (they could be far and broad depending on the individual)
to take DMT for this issue but as long as they treated it with respect, to get to know the
molecule lovingly and over time (ie not smoking a breakthrough right off the bat) I wouldn't
advise against it either.
It was like McKenna said after a breakthrough one says to him or herself "I got it, I got it."