Do you always feel nervous before vaping DMT?

[Davski]

If your doing low dose, keeping it mild then one a week is fine , but when going for the " main event " , on higher dose , then one or twice a month is enough.

To me DMT is like a Ferrari , it's great when pottering around in it , no worry's, , but it's only when you push it to what it's capable of , is when You see it in its true light .

I usually do 25mg on my emesh and I am gone, I would like to go higher but been stuck on this dose a while, I know more would be a greater and longer experience, well so I have read and been told.
I would love to visit more but very cautious of a hyperslap and also and more is MR Fear, I hope to move on from this, even twice a month would be brilliant. More meditation daily and on the day planned to visit just lay out everything, load up and sit with it.

I like your DMT is like a Ferrari expression very very true!

 

[Davski]

When there is nothing to hold on to, your mind stops thinking straight, and short-term memory is fried, you come down to absolute basics - willpower and faith in life.

Try asking yourself, "Why am I afraid to smoke?" Usually, your fear is about losing control. We are afraid of the unknown and what it implies. Consciously using the medicine is an act of absolute surrender and trust in life. Yes, you can brainwash yourself to a degree a few times, but then you know what smoking is deep in your bones. Any gaslighting would fall off like leaves in autumn. I feel one needs to acknowledge the courage it takes and see that the act itself, even if done through the ego, comes from a much deeper place. Basically, the universe itself puts a vape or a cup into your hands. I like this passage from Dune about fear:

Litany Against Fear

"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."

The phrase derives from William Shakespeare's Julius Caesar:

"Cowards die many times before their deaths;
The valiant never taste of death but once.
Of all the wonders that I yet have heard,
It seems to me most strange that men should fear,
Seeing that death, a necessary end,
Will come when it will come."

Screenshots taken! Thank you as this is helpful, it will go in my blast off folder on my phone hahaha.

 

[Davski]

I fully agree. That's why sitting on the floor is such a good practice (or lying down in a corpse pose). You're not going anywhere. It forces you to learn how to be with yourself and your thoughts. Just sit, meditate, pray, and smoke. Invite everything in and be open. Sit and see - that's the whole practice, and it can easily be brought back into everyday life.

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I plan on doing some changa soon as getting that feeling and I think i will do this.

 

[Davski]

Bigger doses yes

Low doses not much, usually just a bit before the first hit, then it mostly dissolves for further small hits, unless I'm doing other techniques to amplify it. I think I've smoalked low doses so much on LSD that on its own low dose DMT just feels very relaxing in comparison.

DMT and LSD is so fascinating and fun, such a great combo.

 

[reun]

@northape, "why am I afraid to smoke?" is actually a good question. And yes, loss of control plays a role here. Aside from that, I feel like I'm rolling a dice and playing with my sanity every time I pick up that vape. I guess I'm fearing the unknown -- I just don't know what I will see and I fear that it may scar me somehow.

@Voidmatrix as for becoming intimate with fear, I agree that it is actually a well-established practice in cognitive behavioural therapy. There was a time in my life when I battled with severe anxiety and suffered from regular panic attacks, but I worked through it precisely through acceptance of fear

 

[reun]

When you mention harmalas, are you referring to a Changa blend containing harmalas?

I have only taken harmalas orally so far, I haven't tried changa yet

 

[new_science]

I don't always feel nervous before vaping DMT. Sometimes I meditate or think on the experience beforehand for hours and have everything perfectly set up. However, what's interesting is when I don't have DMT, I might tell myself "Oh man, I'm so excited to extract and vape again, I love DMT, it's my favorite, blah blah blah, I'm going to really live it up in hyperspace when I finally have some again!" And then what happens is I vape once or maybe a few times, and then I don't hear the call to come back for some months. So for me, it's possible to be excited about DMT and experiencing it without being ready for it. I think my best trips are when both conditions are satisfied, yet sometimes I do recognize that the time is near and I still have to get over the hump of trepidation. Invariably, when that's the case and I finally find myself inside the space again, it's always the same reaction: "OMG, this feels like home, I sense love around me, this is really weird like it always seems to be, and I'm still enjoying myself. Why was I nervous? This is such a gift."

 

[TransistorBass]

The only times i don't have apprehension and a raised heart rate is when i Vape DMT during Yoga, that always feels like a merging or combining of two things to make a greater whole when done with small hits, breathing and control, it can sometimes be like one cancelling the other out with the energy put into Yoga being the control over how the DMT works.

Every single other time I sit down for a session my heart rate will be a bit too high and it takes my first few small hits and a bit of random phone scrolling to calm my system before heading deeper.