First dmt experience - introduction

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There's also the possibility of various types of neuroreceptor polymorphism. I've a dopamine receptor variant which is strongly linked to autism and ADHD, for example - and there are those who have serotonin receptor variants that which lead to a reduced sensitivity towards serotonergic psychedelics, or it may be due to a reduced expression of a serotonin receptor gene causing a relatively lower density of the relevant serotonin receptor.

Food for thought at least - and having an atypical neuroreceptor profile can itself be traumatising through behavioral divergences.

Reading through your reply again makes makes me want to ask how do you know about your neuroreceptor profile is there a test of some kind for things like that? Forgive me if that's a dumb question

 

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There was one interesting part of my first dmt trip that I forgot to include in my report..

At one point I felt a bizarre pressure in my head... it felt very very localized, like my skull was made of rubber or something and someone's finger was poking from the inside stretching out one point of the rubber.. it came from the top of my head and then one side or the other..truly the strangest physical sensation I've ever felt. But it didn't scare me because I instantly remembered hearing that guy describing the same thing years before

It reminded me of the spirit molecule documentary that id seen 15 years or so earlier where one guy said he felt that pressure in the center of his forehead before he experienced what is colloquially known as breakthrough.

So the question is, did i experience that sensation because id seen it in a documentary even though i wasn't consciously aware of that memory before my trip?

That's kinda what scares me about dmt, either what's happening is some kind of phenomena unknown to science or it can cause things from your mind to manifest even if you have no idea they are in there.. or maybe both.

I like to think there's nothing hiding inside my own mind that can cause me real trauma but every once in a while something happens that gives me my doubts. Like a nightmare I don't remember that apparently terrified me awake

All I know is the idea of an OBE type of trip still scares me a bit if I'm being really honest with myself, which is why in all honesty I'm sincerely glad my first trip was not like that. .

It's like the dmt decided to teach me the meaning of the word "intensity" before getting to the real lessons lol

I'm about as square as it gets when it comes to believing in the supernatural but i can also completely understand why people are so quick to anthropomorphisze dmt and attribute it with supernatural power. It's heavy stuff

 

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I remember wondering is this the "oneness" people talk about? Simultaneously crushed by and spread evenly across, reality itself.. lol I closed my eyes and it was like I was seeing those red and yellow pillars they show in the artwork and I felt like reality around me was trying smear me across itself lol now that was quite intense.

But it didn't feel "more real than reality" it felt to me personally like a drug induced illusion. To be blunt. That's something I've only heard people say very rarely

 

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Speaking of OBEs though got me thinking about sleep paralysis maybe I should start a thread for those experiences if there isn't one already, I've had some interesting ones that include things I've never heard another person mention.. and one or two things that make me again question how much of it is in my head and how much may not be

 

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I've heard people talk about memory palaces and memory warehouses and such, wherein all their memories are neatly organized as objects they can examine and sort through.

Not me.. my memory does not work like that when I heard of that idea I tried thinking about it for about 5 minutes and realized better or worse that ain't me

My memory is more like the ocean. Or some presumably much smaller body of water but every molecule of water is information. When i need something i walk down to the beach and reach into the surf and there it is, right there washed up and ready to go... mostly

I like to joke yeah my memory is photographic but all the photos are blurry and the dates are mixed up

 

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Reading through your reply again makes makes me want to ask how do you know about your neuroreceptor profile is there a test of some kind for things like that? Forgive me if that's a dumb question

That's a quite reasonable question. One of my siblings has had a full genetic metabolomics profiling done. This showed up the genetic variant which I can validly infer that I share due to various behavioral aberrations I display which I've linked to my dopaminergic system, among other ways, through nutritional experiments. Particularly, tyrosine supplemation makes me irrationally angry. I'd get the genetic testing done myself but it's a tad expensive.

 

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I had another fun time with mushrooms last night.. I may be willing to admit dmt isn't my thing as a general rule but whatever it did to teach me to appreciate mushrooms I'm grateful for it

The shrooms turned on me, but in a good way lol they seem to have a kind of loving warmth i just haven't gotten from dmt.. one of these days I'll do some while I'm having a mushroom trip that's the time when I feel like I'm really in the mood for something crazy

 

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I tried smoking a little of the harmala freebase with some cannabis, really only 10mg just to see how i would react to it. I thought it was nice, I felt extra peaceful and calm. It's harsh on the throat to try and smoke it so I'm thinking to try sublingual one of these days I'm still nervous about it though I've heard when it goes bad you do a lot of "purging" never has been my favorite thing

 

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Try 40-60mg Sublingual Harmalas, that shouldn't cause any Nausea in my experience, I get a relatively brief period of Nausea on 100mg but only when the DMT is kicking in and it mellows out so long as you lay pretty still, no sharp movements.

 

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i am also somewhat new to this.

dose size is paramount and accurate measurement the same.

i had the same uneasy trips you had until i dialed in the "right" amount for me and suddenly at 25mg is where i fly, i started at 5mg and added 5mg each time until i reached 25.

this molecule is sooo crazy i believe its healthy just to play around with the workable dose without too much "intention" while getting used to it.
the initial pre flight anxiety happens to 95% of us from what ive read.

eventually i will up the dose and see where it will take me but for a good year or so i will be flying just above the clouds integrating what i see while learning where intention can take me when the time feels right.

the "more real than real" manifests itself for me in a visual clarity way, like real life is analog and dmt space is 8k digital, lines and colors are way more defined.

i also like to recommend the mindfold blindfold as it allows you to keep your eyes open while still being blindfolded. the effect is wild!

the taste... i can help with that but it'll cost a few more dollars.
purchase a device which has an attachable water bowl such as the puffco pivot. it has 2 different styles of water bowl available and reduces 80% of the taste and harshness and weird lip feeling. i highly recommend this!

 

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I was actually surprised the first time i tried some how smooth and not as gross as expected the vapor was, I figured it's the high ph of the free base that gives me a weird sensation in my mouth lol it's one of those things i suppose you get used to, kinda like how i fully enjoy the smell of skunk after smoking weed for 20 years lol

 

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I was actually surprised the first time i tried some how smooth and not as gross as expected the vapor was, I figured it's the high ph of the free base that gives me a weird sensation in my mouth lol it's one of those things i suppose you get used to, kinda like how i fully enjoy the smell of skunk after smoking weed for 20 years lol

Convection vaporised DMT freebase can be surprisingly smooth when the parameters are dialled in just perfectly. Some have reported thinking they've done a misfire, shortly before being teleported into hyperspace

I've heard people talk about memory palaces and memory warehouses and such, wherein all their memories are neatly organized as objects they can examine and sort through.

Not me.. my memory does not work like that when I heard of that idea I tried thinking about it for about 5 minutes and realized better or worse that ain't me

My memory is more like the ocean. Or some presumably much smaller body of water but every molecule of water is information. When i need something i walk down to the beach and reach into the surf and there it is, right there washed up and ready to go... mostly

I like to joke yeah my memory is photographic but all the photos are blurry and the dates are mixed up

Memory can be trained, and one of the tools for doing so is the visual imagination. Perhaps there are some surprises to be found at the bottom of your memory ocean?