tezmckez
Rising Star
Hello.
I saw a lot of things with DMT changa between the three years before last and saw some very confusing things, things which I feel never consolidated. I was no longer able to bear what I was seeing, things such as unbelievable post death-and-back-to-3d-reality trips, watching various dimensions break into awareness, I stopped taking the substance and took to cannabis. I recently found ketamine to be an artificial replacement which seems to offer a numb psychedelic experience, alas it is not the same as walking in the sun on mushrooms fully aware and mobile and connected.
I feel the pull of ego explanation in natural psychedelics, specifically used in native rituals and tested by consensus if possible, known by confession of the Shamen to be tested by time and generations of shamen. If I went forward like this I don't think it could safely be without the trusted guidance of age tested magic men. I really want to see the extend of my psychic range and understand the correct way of using my energy to create peace of mind and eventually greater awareness and understanding of time and death and my place in all of it.
I also feel that my lack of control and ability is making my life into an ill mind body spirit. If I don't break through to another level of understanding, I may fall into disparaged loss of control and leave my desires unfulfilled or misunderstood. My being is too small and slow, too weak and confused. Would anyone consider this taking a shortcut, to ask for medication, to which I say I feel like ayahuasca is my human birthright and that anyone can and should at least try to seek out something of such basic merit. I ask for ancient wisdom to show me my ability to heal and bring about focussed yet loose control over my intelligence. so that I may do the dance with reality in multiple waking dimensions even without any brews inside my belly.
I wonder how one would get the real deal, perhaps not through any shamen that advertise on the internet or invite tourists for money, surely the best plant brew and the heart of wisdom is somewhere deep beyond my cultural membrane of accessibility. Not only overseas but through dense forest with no signs and no English.
Is there perhaps a network of westerners who are in communication with shamen and who give certain people boons in accessing their communication network, perhaps depending on how deserving and suitable a person is. And of course, how virtuous, reliable, ethical, right hearted a person is proved must factor in above most in such a society of ones of connections to sacred knowledge. Well, I would ask such a society the question: how do I know I am coming to the right place, that this is for me?
I saw a lot of things with DMT changa between the three years before last and saw some very confusing things, things which I feel never consolidated. I was no longer able to bear what I was seeing, things such as unbelievable post death-and-back-to-3d-reality trips, watching various dimensions break into awareness, I stopped taking the substance and took to cannabis. I recently found ketamine to be an artificial replacement which seems to offer a numb psychedelic experience, alas it is not the same as walking in the sun on mushrooms fully aware and mobile and connected.
I feel the pull of ego explanation in natural psychedelics, specifically used in native rituals and tested by consensus if possible, known by confession of the Shamen to be tested by time and generations of shamen. If I went forward like this I don't think it could safely be without the trusted guidance of age tested magic men. I really want to see the extend of my psychic range and understand the correct way of using my energy to create peace of mind and eventually greater awareness and understanding of time and death and my place in all of it.
I also feel that my lack of control and ability is making my life into an ill mind body spirit. If I don't break through to another level of understanding, I may fall into disparaged loss of control and leave my desires unfulfilled or misunderstood. My being is too small and slow, too weak and confused. Would anyone consider this taking a shortcut, to ask for medication, to which I say I feel like ayahuasca is my human birthright and that anyone can and should at least try to seek out something of such basic merit. I ask for ancient wisdom to show me my ability to heal and bring about focussed yet loose control over my intelligence. so that I may do the dance with reality in multiple waking dimensions even without any brews inside my belly.
I wonder how one would get the real deal, perhaps not through any shamen that advertise on the internet or invite tourists for money, surely the best plant brew and the heart of wisdom is somewhere deep beyond my cultural membrane of accessibility. Not only overseas but through dense forest with no signs and no English.
Is there perhaps a network of westerners who are in communication with shamen and who give certain people boons in accessing their communication network, perhaps depending on how deserving and suitable a person is. And of course, how virtuous, reliable, ethical, right hearted a person is proved must factor in above most in such a society of ones of connections to sacred knowledge. Well, I would ask such a society the question: how do I know I am coming to the right place, that this is for me?