To me it seems your problem is in how you are approaching rue and not in some kind of tolerance. İt seems you are taking it out of habit and not with a specific purpose each time. Like your aim is novelty, and only through the plant itself. Make your life novel if you want novelty. Don't do the same things everyday, like taking rue. Everything gets old or loses its initial excitement when done everyday.
I pray specific intentions each time I take rue, and I focus on my intentions.
True, and i actually find that when i do something different, the effects are alot stronger, at first (maybe the first few months) my intention was to cleanse my mind and my body, after that the effects changed from a heavy sedative to a heavy stimulant, after that i would usually meditate the first 2 hours because before the peak its mostly still abit sedating, then by the 3rd hour i would feel very energetic and i would just take it to get work done, like go to the gym, run, study etc, it makes me alot smarter and also more compassionate with others, and it just became a habit at some point.
The idea of taking 10 grams of rue and running for miles is just incredible! That’s almost like a benefit itself.
It for sure is, ive never been as fit and muscular as i am now, but i do miss some parts of the experience that are gone now.
I agree with @dithyramb . What you're doing feels more like a diet, and you need a container for it (silence, isolation, right diet, etc.). The body can adapt to anything, and it's just a vehicle for this work in my view. Your inner alignment and intent play the biggest role here. Chase the dragon and you'll be bitten. Your doses sound insane to my ears, so maybe it has some strange effect. What are you after anyway?
what am i after? Nothing tbh, now it mostly feels like a very healthy psychedelic coffee that lasts the whole day, im taking only 5g daily now, and it somehow now gives me the a similar effect to 8g+, i think this is the reverse tolerance people are talking about playing its role.
What kind of effects do you get when laying down in silent stillness in the dark at these doses?
When i was taking 8-12g the first 2-3 hours i would stay in my room alone and meditate, feels exactly how you would expect it to be, deep deep meditative state where i would reflect and after the peak i would feel an amazing refreshed feeling and i would feel a massive energy boost the whole day.
