Is my meditation improving?

[autumn287]

Hi people,


I just joined the forum a couple of mins. ago.I have been meditating for about a year now and had no progress so far. I have never had an unusual experience NEVER. My meditation is totally DIY without a guru and it is all about lying down with a blindfold and trying hard to avoid thoughts. I have been doing this for 2 years now but I know I have not progressed at all, NOTHING whatsoever.

But, last week I felt as though something plugged in. The usual darkness that I always saw with closed eyes sort of grew ... not in size but it kind of grew on Me. Seamless thoughts continued doing their business but I was no longer bothered with them. I was fully aware of me lying down in meditation and my daughter in the other room walking about, but this time it was not the usual lying down and looking at the darkness. It was like the darkness was in control of me or something, some tingling or maybe numbing was happening, especially around my head. There was some buzzing like feeling too. Hard to describe.

I tried it again a couple of times that night and it worked each time .. only with slightly less intensity.

Next day I went on Youtube and played the following clip on regular TV volume on my computer (no headphones)...


And within 20 mins time I was engulfed by this darkness, I was tingling, buzzing and extremely scared. I felt being in no control of this yet was fully aware of me meditating. I just remember the continuos Om sound in the clip got to me and was no longer playing on the computer, it was playing in my head. It was like I did not do this, the sound did the job. Again very hard to explain. I was very very scared. I pulled away my blindfold to stop this. My heart was racing like anything. I have always tried binaural beats to no avail in the past 1 year but this one hit me hard. I chickened out really quickly and main element of fear being that such sound can harm the basic working of my brain. I felt I might go crazy or something. My entire body was tingling and the heart was pounding towards the end. Perhaps I was scared of the unknown.

This put me off that clip and meditation. I was scared of trying that out again, but I gathered courage and kept giving it more tries. Each time I became more relaxed about my fear and now I am very used to this 'stage'. BUT, I do not go any further than that now. It is like old times, only this time I get to the point when the source of the sound seems to be in my head and I am in control yet in that scary dark void.

Question no. 1. : Will I ever get delivered from this really scary darkness that to the promised bliss during such a session?

Question no. 2. : Since the past 3-4 days I have been feeling a slight, soothing pressure between my brows and on my nose bridge. This pressure kind of breathes although in a slow motion. What does this mean?

Please help
Hugs
Autumn

 

[sidefx]

Kia Ora,
Welcome to the Nexus.
You have come to the right place.

Love meditation, i am not too skilled in it but have done much reading on topic.

Sounds like you are on the wright path with meditation, also i think you maybe on the verge of deep meditation.

The feeling you are getting sounds normal, 'the letting go'

or you could be entering a trance state, i have done this once.

I think from what i have read that basic meditation is the shifting of ones consciousness and it goes from there to infinity.

This feeling is strange and can be scary but should pass once you get used to it.

The TONE you mentioned i have heard this a few times, i always hear it when in the country, it is supposed to be the Universal vibration and can be controlled to enhance meditation.

Here is a clip to watch on the TONES. Interesting theory.

http://www.higherbalance.com/3-meditation-secrets-discover-the-tones/

If you sign up with these guys they will send you lots of tips and interesting stuffs on meditation.
I want to subscribe with them for more, but it costs money so one day i will, if you do you should tell us if it is worth it.
Check their web site out though.

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[cosmic butterfly]

HEy congrats on ur advancement in meditation, ive been practicing for a few years and know exactly what ur talking about. That darkness is u passing the first stage of meditation into the second, not many people get there. The first stage is just the usual relaxing ur body and mind, but the second stage is where the mystical happens. Ur kundalini energy arised and u had awakening which caused the tingling, reminds me of very lite doses of dmt I believe its u disconnecting from ur psysical body into ur astral body, and as a result u panick and try to hold on, which brings u back and heart racing..I did the exact same thing when first started also fearful of the unknown. It is in this stage that one is able to astral travel, obe's, meet spirits...but to do those u need to learn to relax, when u cross over just continue what u were doing like nothing happened, self awareness and thought is what will hold u back, so yeh mantra, breath..help a lot. n that sensation around ur eyebrows is ur third eye. Most of ur life its been sleeping and now awake. Its like a muscle, the more u work it through meditation now the more it will open and the more u will see.

 

[Eliyahu]

Hello,

What you describe sounds very similar to a low threshold DMT experience,,,
low dose DMT experiences usually produce for me strange vibratory buzzings in my head and what not. I don't certainly do not thing that it is anything that would be physically harmful, it's just a little shocking is all...

When I first smoked DMT I had a real hard time controlling my fear during my experiences ,,,
but eventually I came to understand that it is a lot like learning to scuba dive or snorkel and getting used to breathing underwater.....
I just had to allow my physical body some time to adjust to the strange sensations associated with having an intense mystical experience


Sounds like you managed to release some endogenous DMT...8)

 

[autumn287]

Thanks everyone for their responses, I have read them all, some actually twice. It helps a great deal.

I am here because I read somewhere that Pineal gland secrets DMT under certain circumstances which is responsible for out of ordinary experiences during meditation. I was in the chat and some people suggested I post my query here so I could get some help from the pro meditators here, something that I can already see. Thanks a bunch guys.

Sidefx : I can not thank you enough for that clip you sent. I will also watch other videos by that same person. The instructions are clear cut and I meditated last night based upon what he said. Sadly, I had a splitting headache (nothing to do with my practice lol) and could not 'relax'. But, it did help with the headache. I was not listening to any binaural beats, I was just listening to the internal tinnitus like sounds. I am worried though that I should not end up like Beethoven lawlz.

Cosmic Butterfly : You have described exactly what I have been thinking, it is like crossing over. The past entire week I have been doing this sort of meditation a lot, I put that binaural clip on and just lie down with my blindfold and around 15-20 min mark I am in that 'state'. Only trouble is that I stay in that state for about 3-4 mins and then I am back to that same old me lying in bed like always, trying, hoping and assuming something is happening lol. But those 3-4 mins. are definitely something powerful. Let us say it 'peaks' for those 3-4 mins. OK, now I did some investigation after finishing my meditation. I listened to the clip (fast forwarding) again, this time without meditating and noticed that the tone changes at about 15ish mins. And then it changes again, the tone keeps changing every few mins. or so, that is how it has been recorded. Could it be possible that I am 'connecting' during a particular kind of tone? Oh and about the brow chakra, it has been 'breathing' for about 4 days now, what should I do next to proceed towards opening the Third Eye? I am continuing to meditate though.

Eliyahu : Yes exactly why I came to this forum. DMT must be responsible for this. Endogenous DMT hmm ... could you throw some more light on it? How can I ensure a bit more of it being released? lol I guess I know the answer but would still let the pros comment. I am getting used to the void now, I am no longer scared as much, no heart racing or me buzzing etc. But, I kind of remain in that stage, not budging from there. And it only lasts 3-4 mins. beyond which the binaural sound IS playing in my head rather than the computer, I AM seeing dark ... pretty much everything remains similar to that 'stage' but something inside me knows Its not that stage lol. So I conclude that the 'stage' lasts 3-4 mins. Whats strange is that it starts typically at about 15-20 min mark in that clip and ends at say 22-25 min mark where a certain tone has been recorded in the clip. Thanks for your reply

Hugs everyone.

 

[cosmic butterfly]

Thanks everyone for their responses, I have read them all, some actually twice. It helps a great deal.

I am here because I read somewhere that Pineal gland secrets DMT under certain circumstances which is responsible for out of ordinary experiences during meditation. I was in the chat and some people suggested I post my query here so I could get some help from the pro meditators here, something that I can already see. Thanks a bunch guys.

Sidefx : I can not thank you enough for that clip you sent. I will also watch other videos by that same person. The instructions are clear cut and I meditated last night based upon what he said. Sadly, I had a splitting headache (nothing to do with my practice lol) and could not 'relax'. But, it did help with the headache. I was not listening to any binaural beats, I was just listening to the internal tinnitus like sounds. I am worried though that I should not end up like Beethoven lawlz.

Cosmic Butterfly : You have described exactly what I have been thinking, it is like crossing over. The past entire week I have been doing this sort of meditation a lot, I put that binaural clip on and just lie down with my blindfold and around 15-20 min mark I am in that 'state'. Only trouble is that I stay in that state for about 3-4 mins and then I am back to that same old me lying in bed like always, trying, hoping and assuming something is happening lol. But those 3-4 mins. are definitely something powerful. Let us say it 'peaks' for those 3-4 mins. OK, now I did some investigation after finishing my meditation. I listened to the clip (fast forwarding) again, this time without meditating and noticed that the tone changes at about 15ish mins. And then it changes again, the tone keeps changing every few mins. or so, that is how it has been recorded. Could it be possible that I am 'connecting' during a particular kind of tone? Oh and about the brow chakra, it has been 'breathing' for about 4 days now, what should I do next to proceed towards opening the Third Eye? I am continuing to meditate though.

Eliyahu : Yes exactly why I came to this forum. DMT must be responsible for this. Endogenous DMT hmm ... could you throw some more light on it? How can I ensure a bit more of it being released? lol I guess I know the answer but would still let the pros comment. I am getting used to the void now, I am no longer scared as much, no heart racing or me buzzing etc. But, I kind of remain in that stage, not budging from there. And it only lasts 3-4 mins. beyond which the binaural sound IS playing in my head rather than the computer, I AM seeing dark ... pretty much everything remains similar to that 'stage' but something inside me knows Its not that stage lol. So I conclude that the 'stage' lasts 3-4 mins. Whats strange is that it starts typically at about 15-20 min mark in that clip and ends at say 22-25 min mark where a certain tone has been recorded in the clip. Thanks for your reply

Hugs everyone.

Looks like the you tube video u posted is no longer active so cant hear to say about the tones, but my guess is each of those tones is for a different chakra, they say each chakra vibrates at certain frequencies, and those are prob activating them. I used to meditate with recordings of tibetan singing bowls and it would be like 7 sounds/frequencies,and this recording made reaching the state much easier n quicker. So ur video could be very similar concept. about what to do to, just continue meditating the more you do the better and deeper ull be able to go. First thing now is getting comfortable with this new experience, you keep coming back after it happens because of your self awareness, like you thinking its happening, this is scary..All reactions of your ego trying to hold on. Need to continue to let go n let go n let go. Same thing with dmt, Terrence Mckenna used to say never give into astonishment, i think its exact same concept, happy journeys