Opiyum said:
Has anyone else noticed that the loss of coordination and diminished motor skills is only perceived to be so and not actually?
It's a very odd feeling that I have trouble describing but even though there is a drunkenness the fact is I have much better balance and stability while on methoxetamine. The most I've ever done was 90mg (3x30mg per hour) and even at that dose, and others below it, I was very capable of doing certain one-legged yoga positions and stretches that I am normally able to do but not with the ease that I am able while on methoxetamine.
Hopefully this is making sense.
So anyone else notice this apparent lowered center of gravity while on MXE?
Noticed the exact opposite, physical tasks were harder to achieve accurately, and mental clarity was diminished greatly. Seems to make it hard to convey ideas with language, seems to be causing certain short term memory issues as well.
For example, will learn that something is a certain way, like "don't have to go to the dentist today, that is next week", but a couple hours later will be in a state of panic because of missing the dentist appointment, must be reminded that already learned the appointment was next week. This has happened on more than one occasion.
Another example is having a routine that you follow weekly, like going to a meeting on a certain day, and has been the same for multiple weeks, but will show up to the meeting on a day that the meeting has never been on, even though it felt as though the meetings were certainly on this day since the meetings started.
Also, it seems to increase willingness to do things, like Jorkest said - increase productivity, but it seems to do so with a major decrease in the quality of work done.
It sometimes feels as though your thoughts have turned a corner two-steps ahead of you, and at times like this it is very difficult to use language. You have a very strong drive to do it though, this is a very social chemical, and the conversations can be quite insightful and broad if you manage to work around the weirdness.
Creativity with any level of complexity seems stilted and void of depth on this substance. Things like abstract painting, chanting, singing and playing guitar are enjoyable. Writing and character development and story development seem overwhelming, working with technology gets a bit frustrating as well.
Is reminded of the quote from Ann Shulgin from the Dirty Pictures documentary - "if we can't make love on a substance, we know something isn't right" - has yet to feel anything from this substance in this area - just does not seem conducive to intimacy - but would love to hear others experiences with this factor.
Would also like to hear oral experiences above 25mg, and any social situations experienced on the chemical, and what dosage level do you draw the line for going out - 20mg has been interesting for nights out chatting with friends and eating good food. One thing that is very positive is that it does not seem to decrease appetite in any appreciable amount.
Has anyone else experienced lingering mental effects or recurring brain farts after using this?