Lavos
Rising Star
Ok, a little more on my use. I used 4 days in a row, knowing that I was 'abusing' a little. I wanted to see how long it could be enjoyed for/how long before I started feining for it. After 4 days I was very tired, and it had much less effect on me. My sleep was so nice though. I cannot sleep usually for about 4 or 5 hours maybe more after using. No craving at all really. Some fresh toxin pimples on back and bum, nothing serious.
I'm not sure if you see how these thoughts affected me or not. What I mean is. It is so beautiful to just be alive. Do not fear the next day. Do not fear failure. Be glad to even want and try. I heard the words 'ordinary men' in a pink floyd song, and I tripped out, how could man be ordinary, we are so not ordinary in our design and place here. I get the exclamation point over the head thing, the energy, rising up, feel like they activate the crown a bit, as all is understood to be fine the way it is. I have grim thoughts, and so all those thoughts were somewhat alleviated, thinking, if you died in gross ways, so what, who could care or do anything to change or make it better?
Anyway, I got mine from one of the few trusted sources, as I saw it. I'm just not getting into the same mental space as some of you it sounds. I'm made very peaceful, and more open. Like ideas are accepted as good food. But the thought patterns don't really seem to last. I want to change, but not sure wtf I'm doing here. I'm working out no more no less than before. I found my initial 20mg dose and the dose of 60mg 4 days later to be most enjoyable. I would not just sit down with a new bag and hit 60 with no tolerance.
To those of you coming away with the most from this drug, do you meditate, just watch TV, lay back and listen to music, hit nature?. It sounds most effective when used once weekly, maybe once monthly? But it sounds like some of you guys have gotten real positive results with more? I initially planned on doing it less, but partner got away with little here little there and I said wtf-fuck it.
edit: oh, and for record, partners little here and theres were always like 8-12mg at a time, maybe another 8 an hour later. Not all day and never over 40-50mg over the period.
soulfood said:lavos said:I wrapped in a blanket on my lounge chair, and rolled back and forth to the music, with delightful peaceful thoughts, they had been building over the last few days, built on ideas like we are all gonna die, young and old, some will burn, some heads will roll, some will fall blah blah so it is here.
It's interesting to me that it caused these kinds of thoughts.
My first realisation with MXE was like an exclamation over my head, reminding me about how immensley humans beings are set up in their relationships with eachother to experience such immense emotional pain. Such darkness made the later revelations all the more bright.
I'm not sure if you see how these thoughts affected me or not. What I mean is. It is so beautiful to just be alive. Do not fear the next day. Do not fear failure. Be glad to even want and try. I heard the words 'ordinary men' in a pink floyd song, and I tripped out, how could man be ordinary, we are so not ordinary in our design and place here. I get the exclamation point over the head thing, the energy, rising up, feel like they activate the crown a bit, as all is understood to be fine the way it is. I have grim thoughts, and so all those thoughts were somewhat alleviated, thinking, if you died in gross ways, so what, who could care or do anything to change or make it better?
Anyway, I got mine from one of the few trusted sources, as I saw it. I'm just not getting into the same mental space as some of you it sounds. I'm made very peaceful, and more open. Like ideas are accepted as good food. But the thought patterns don't really seem to last. I want to change, but not sure wtf I'm doing here. I'm working out no more no less than before. I found my initial 20mg dose and the dose of 60mg 4 days later to be most enjoyable. I would not just sit down with a new bag and hit 60 with no tolerance.
To those of you coming away with the most from this drug, do you meditate, just watch TV, lay back and listen to music, hit nature?. It sounds most effective when used once weekly, maybe once monthly? But it sounds like some of you guys have gotten real positive results with more? I initially planned on doing it less, but partner got away with little here little there and I said wtf-fuck it.
edit: oh, and for record, partners little here and theres were always like 8-12mg at a time, maybe another 8 an hour later. Not all day and never over 40-50mg over the period.