Breakthrough was whilst on acid at about 3:30am and after 30 minutes meditating using holosync. The dose was about 35-40mg. I used my home made "machine".
The trip:
It was petrifying! So incredible but the scariest thing I have ever experienced.
I had arived in a big sphere of white and light blue kind of materials. Alone except for this strange cube shaped being thing with spindly legs and arms and a very smiley face. It had a child like sence of playfulness. Then my body I realised was no more, apart fromthe neck up. Then my jaw turned to nothingness and my tongue separated from me and jumped down my throat and then out through were my stomach should have been and then back into my mouth and just repeating and changing direction and dancing in front of me. This little playful being was the one causing it. Just taking me apart and showing me I didn't need a body. I couldn't open or close my eyes because I realised I had no eyes and that actualy I was now just pure conciousness in this space and this thing just laughing and smiling at me. I new I was dead and that I had gone to far and I thought I needed to go to the hostpital! But I couldnt ask to go because I had no mouth or tongue! Then I thought that it didn't matter because there was nothibg left of my body to take to the hostpital!
I was absolutely petrified and horrified at being taking apart just for fun but at the same time just so amazed and in awe of it all. It woulf have been such a beautiful and wonderful experience if I wasn't so distracted by the thought that I had actualy killed myself.
I started to hear people's voices that were in the room so I suddenly thought it's ok it will be over soon I must still have a body in the room! So I kept thinking and willing myself to say "can I talk". Eventualy I heard my voice out load ask it, but didn't still have a body or face and then heard my best mate say back "yes you can" so I kept trying to form words and eventualy started to feel my mouth again and said over and over "just talk, talk, talk" then I could feel I had a face and eyes and opened my eyes and didn't recognise anyone in the room but I recognised the voices and new it was my best friend next to me and I latched on to him and just hugged him so hard with shock and relief.
I was gone a total of 6 minutes.
Whilst I was gone, my body didn't fall back apparently, I was sat forward still and eyes wide open but not focused at all and had what was described as a look of pure shock and horror on my face for the most of the time.
Nothing could prepare me for that experience. When it happens again I will be ready and I will stay calm and embrace the fact that I don't need my body. I think that was what I was being shown by the funny little being... That the body is irrelevant. And it isn't required and not to be scared of what I thought was happening to it because really I wasn't in my body I was just spirit.
The trip:
It was petrifying! So incredible but the scariest thing I have ever experienced.
I had arived in a big sphere of white and light blue kind of materials. Alone except for this strange cube shaped being thing with spindly legs and arms and a very smiley face. It had a child like sence of playfulness. Then my body I realised was no more, apart fromthe neck up. Then my jaw turned to nothingness and my tongue separated from me and jumped down my throat and then out through were my stomach should have been and then back into my mouth and just repeating and changing direction and dancing in front of me. This little playful being was the one causing it. Just taking me apart and showing me I didn't need a body. I couldn't open or close my eyes because I realised I had no eyes and that actualy I was now just pure conciousness in this space and this thing just laughing and smiling at me. I new I was dead and that I had gone to far and I thought I needed to go to the hostpital! But I couldnt ask to go because I had no mouth or tongue! Then I thought that it didn't matter because there was nothibg left of my body to take to the hostpital!
I was absolutely petrified and horrified at being taking apart just for fun but at the same time just so amazed and in awe of it all. It woulf have been such a beautiful and wonderful experience if I wasn't so distracted by the thought that I had actualy killed myself.
I started to hear people's voices that were in the room so I suddenly thought it's ok it will be over soon I must still have a body in the room! So I kept thinking and willing myself to say "can I talk". Eventualy I heard my voice out load ask it, but didn't still have a body or face and then heard my best mate say back "yes you can" so I kept trying to form words and eventualy started to feel my mouth again and said over and over "just talk, talk, talk" then I could feel I had a face and eyes and opened my eyes and didn't recognise anyone in the room but I recognised the voices and new it was my best friend next to me and I latched on to him and just hugged him so hard with shock and relief.
I was gone a total of 6 minutes.
Whilst I was gone, my body didn't fall back apparently, I was sat forward still and eyes wide open but not focused at all and had what was described as a look of pure shock and horror on my face for the most of the time.
Nothing could prepare me for that experience. When it happens again I will be ready and I will stay calm and embrace the fact that I don't need my body. I think that was what I was being shown by the funny little being... That the body is irrelevant. And it isn't required and not to be scared of what I thought was happening to it because really I wasn't in my body I was just spirit.
