Hey guys! I took a long hiatus away from the nexus for a while, but I used to be on here a lot in 2015-2016. My old account was @Lizz
Some of you from the chat may recognize me. Well over the years I’ve done a lot of growing. A lot of learning and a lot of exploring the inner reaches of my own mind. Lately I’ve been experimenting with Robert Monroe’s Gateway Experience tapes, as I have been curious about them since I first stumbled upon a VICE article on them in 2022. I remember listening to the first one and feeling an odd sort of buzzing vibration in my body which made me feel incredibly strange. I was in a bad state of mind back then and didn’t pick them up again, but they always called to me, and so I finally decided to give them another shot this year. I will say that since I’ve been doing the tapes, I feel so much more positive, life feels more meaningful, and that dead inside state I was in before has started to slowly dissipate, like a fog lifting from my mind. I will log my experience here if anyone cares to share in the experience with me; here we go…
And if anyone wants to try them for themselves; here is the link;
Gateway experience log
Began 1/15- two tapes; approx 9:30 pm
Wave 1-orientation, introduction to focus 10
Notes: didn’t feel much during the first tape, a pleasant buzzing sensation in the brain after resonant tuning. Then immediately did the second tape after; during the waves portion I had faint visions of ripples in a dingy green color, like raindrops falling on the surface of the water. Then they turned into bubbles. Fell into focus 10 pretty easily, body completely relaxed, no desire to move. Felt strange vibrational sensations throughout my body as well as small patches of a numbing cold in places. My energy conversion box is a heavy metal artillery can in the middle of a forest for some reason? Brief flashes of other things but they were hard to focus on.
1/16- wave 1-advanced focus 10: approx 9:30 pm;
Notes: still feel like I reached focus 10 pretty easily. Tried my best to envision REBAL, practiced envisioning the 10 in my mind to induce focus 10, while sitting with the feeling I began to have nonsensical visions, my eyes were twitching as though they were in REM sleep, but I was completely lucid and aware. The visions were like surreal dreams, but instead of me being an active participant in them, they were like I was watching a movie on a screen. There was a weird looking girl, who looked like an anime character if it were real, and she was telling what I assumed to be a story, but the words had no meaning to me, they made no sense. And then it flashed to these strange little cartoonish creatures who appeared to be going on some kind of adventure, there were other flashes of things that I couldn’t quite process, but I know I felt completely relaxed and calm throughout. Also had the twitches and twinges and vibrations again.
1/17: wave 1 track 5-exploration sleep; approx 9:30 pm;
Notes: Skipped track 4 because I wanted to try and lucid dream and thought this might help. Everything proceeded as usual, had trouble remembering full affirmation, just kept repeating ‘I am more than my physical body because i am more than my physical matter.’ Saw strange blueish light towards the top field of my vision during Rebal. As meditation progressed I felt the vibrations on my body, felt a strange sort of… pulling away? Sort of like a piece of my head was trying to separate from the whole and float off to the right. Felt kinda similar to the sensation I got on my DMT trip. No complete seperation yet however. Felt like weightlessness during the period where he says float, but turning over kinda broke my focus 10 concentration, still my muscles sort of autosomallly felt like they started lifting me up as meditation progressed. No actual floating, however. Felt very relaxed and peaceful afterwards, no dreams however.
1/18: wave 1 track 4-release and recharge; approx 9:30-10 pm
Notes: tried track 4, went through the preparatory process, got into a good relaxed state. Opened my energy conversion box and found the ‘fear’ it appeared as a shining white light. I think my first fear was ‘my physical body and it’s health issues’ went through the process of letting it go and removing the negative emotions, the second was “the state of the world"which has been weighing heavy on my mind. After doing those two I fell into a deep trance. My mind was clear, my body relaxed, no thoughts just a deep sense of peace and relaxation. I was simply existing. A state I never thought I’d be able to reach. Felt vibrations and the cold.
1/19: wave 1 track 5-exploration sleep; approx 7:30 pm
Notes: revisited track 5 because it’s had the most profound affects on my mind so far. My body was sore and my mind was turbulent so I did it in a warm Epsom salt bath in the darkness. Made the heat too high and got very hot because this particular tape makes my heart rate spike for some reason, so had to adjust temperature of the bath and try again. Being in water helped the floating sensation and definitely got more flashes of visions. Again my muscles autosomally seemed to push me upwards but still no complete seperation. Maybe I’m not in focus 10 enough? Felt vibrations upon waking the next morning
1/20: wave 1 track 3- advanced focus 10; approx 10 pm
Notes: practiced advanced focus 10 again to see if maybe I wasn’t getting it right. No visions this time, seemed a lot less intense than previous experiences. Drank a beer this time so maybe that’s why it didn’t work as good. Did feel like I reached focus 10 this time but it didn’t last the whole session. Tried to practice visualizing the 10 entering my body.
1/22: wave 1 track 6-free flow; approx 9:00 pm
Notes: Didn’t get much progress this time, but I took some molly that day and I’m attributing it to that. Had about the same kinda effects as each previous time. Very relaxed and peaceful,twitches and twinges vibrations, and flashes of visuals but otherwise not too dramatic an effect.
1/23: wave 1 track 5-exploration sleep; approx. 9 pm
Notes: can’t remember much of this one, I must’ve ‘clicked out.’
1/27: wave 1 track 5- exploration sleep; approx 9 pm
Notes: wanted to try floating again, as I’m determined to feel myself separate from my body, like what I did when I smoked DMT. I notice that after resonant tuning, during REBAL, some hazy cloud like shapes began appearing behind my closed eyes. They were dark purple and dingy mustard yellow. They formed a pattern of concentric circles, the yellow outside of the purple. The purple would start large and shrink, dilating and then contracting. It seemed like the purple was traveling away from me, and the yellow was a tunnel. This happened for a few seconds. Once it got time to try the floating again I did achieve a feeling of weightlessness, but I still don’t think I fully got there. My body felt like an afterthought at the very least.
1/28: wave 1 track 5- exploration sleep; approx 9 pm
Notes: I started to see these purple cloud like shapes swirling behind my eyelids during the REBAL segment, just like the night before. They gradually turned into the purple and yellow circle again. It was contracting and dilating just like before, but I started to notice the squiggly lines of electric light included in the shapes. I remember thinking it reminded me of a pupil and then the image faded into this gorgeous purple eye. It started out unclear at first and then the shapes converged into the final eye shape. It started out kinda distant from me and then got closer and closer until it was huge in my field of vision. Is this my third eye? The physical effects afterwards were about the same as I’ve been getting, weightlessness, relaxation and peace but still not a feeling of float just yet. I made an animation of a rough version of what I saw….
View attachment Untitled_Artwork.mp4
1/30: wave 1 track 6-free flow; approx 10;30 pm
Notes: took two ‘micro dose’ gummies that contain some sort of unknown tryptamine (possibly 4ho-det??). The effects of the gummies by themselves weren’t strong, I hardly had any visual disturbances while my eyes were open, maybe everything had that 3d glasses look to it, and my body had a small load, got the yawns… closed eye visuals were very lively, but a dull grey, not the beautiful colors you would expect. But once I put the headphones on and started meditating everything changed. The purpose I set was ‘visions’ and boy did I get them. The CEVs became a kaleidoscope of colors and images, the most notable one I hastily scribbled the next morning (see below). It looked like a kaleidoscopic angel, all wings and eyes and so many different colors, it was shifting and morphing and there was a crystalline structure in the middle with a central eye. It felt like it wanted to communicate with me. I tried asking it questions but got no response. I asked if the purple eye could come back, and the cevs turned into hundreds of just eyes. The word ‘mosaic’ caused it to turn into a swirling mass of tiles. Thinking of an animal caused the animal to fold out of every facet in fractal patterns. I was controlling the visions with my thoughts. This continued until the meditation ended, and my mind was buzzing the whole night. I couldn’t sleep so I tried to draw what I saw, didn’t do it much justice, every time I laid down and closed my eyes I saw galaxies.
01/31: wave 1 track 5- exploration sleep, approx 10pm
Notes: saw the purple circle again during REBAL, it looked very scribbly and jagged this time it was dilating and contracting over and over just like all the other times. couldn’t really concentrate on the whole thing however, as I was in mental turmoil from an argument. Things wouldn’t stay in energy conversion box. Stopped it early.
02/01; wave 1 track 4-release and recharge, approx 9 pm
Notes: felt some negative emotions still so I decided to do another r&r. The purple circle came right after resonant tuning during the REBAL segment again, dilated and contracted a bit, but then it got very close to me, was very intense and filled my whole field of vision. It looked like an iris with an incredibly contracted pupil but not the whole eye this time. Once we got to the exercises of releasing the fear I fell into another trance, where I was just completely blissfully relaxed. No thoughts, no worries, just existing. These tapes definitely produce consistent results.
02/02; wave 1 track 5- exploration sleep;
Notes: this time the purple circle started contracted and grew dilated instead of the other way around. And stayed illuminating my closed eye field for a lot longer than the last few times, well into the part where bob starts talking about sound vibrational energy. Entered focus ten pretty easily, felt disconnected from my body, very weightless but still no actual ‘float.’
02/04: wave 2 track 1- intro to focus 12; approx 10 pm
Notes: started a new wave with a lot of enthusiasm. Saw the purple eye again as REBAL segment was happening, I guess it’s my new companion. Fell into focus 10 very easily, felt completely relaxed, no desire to move, small buzzing vibrations in my legs. Entered focus 12 almost effortlessly, felt like I…. Expanded, like I became a puddle or a pancake, I felt lighter and airier and just… more. My temperature got very warm during the second focus 10. Saw lots of different things flash into my vision including a very dull flower like shape. Hopefully if i keep working /at it it will become clearer.
02/05: wave 2 track 1-intro to focus 12; approx 10 pm;
Notes : my phone died and cut short in the middle of focus 12 before I could finish, but I had much the same experience as last time. Saw the purple circle/ eye, doing its typical pulsating. Still haven’t gotten the sort of clarity I had on 1/28, but I’ll probably try and go back to track five at some point. Focus ten comes naturally to me now, and expanded easily. Saw lots of flashes of colors and patterns almost psychedelic in nature. I like focus 12 a lot. Felt really off and de-real the next day however. Was able to get into focus 10 then 12 after it shut off without the tapes as well, using Monroe’s methods.
02/07: wave 2 track 1-intro to focus 12; approx 10pm;
Notes: about the same. Saw the purple and yellow eye, more yellow this time however. Felt expanded, then back to focus ten, even more psychedelic flashes, I’m seeing stuff with my eyes closed even without Listening to the tapes now too. The eye is there every night. Including a bright flash on 2/8 that looked almost like a crystalline, mirror edged dimension with a bright blue sky, a vast ocean and lots of prisms. It only lasted a second but holy hell. Am I going crazy? I love it.
02/09; wave 1 track 5- exploration sleep; approx 10 pm;
Notes: not too much happened this time, the color that mostly pervaded my visions was yellow this time. Bright undulating waves of yellow, much brighter than before, which then of course converged into the yellow and purple circles, which did their pulsating dance. Fell into deep focus 10 very easily, but I was very tired and I think I kept dozing off during the meditation, so I can’t say I felt and floating, but did become deeply unaware of my body.
2/11; wave 2 track 1- intro to focus 12; approx 8 pm;
Notes: ate 11 of the road trip gummies and tried to listen to the tapes. It was a whole different level! First the waves felt like they permeated me, like they were infiltrating every cell in my body? I could feel the sound. I tried the resonant tuning but the sensations it was giving in my body made me feel a bit insane. The way the tapes interacted with the visuals was incredible. They became so much richer, more deep and tangible. It was like I was physically inside a colorful acrylic pour painting, with all sorts of swirling plasticy colors and shapes. They looked like I could reach out and touch them, like I was tangibly in this abstract painting world, like I had become waves and colors. Focus 10 is an incredibly easy state for me to reach on psychedelics, because I get so focused on the beautiful visuals I often forget I even have a physical body. The vibrations around me were intense too, the strongest I’ve ever felt up until now. Well once he began counting to get me to focus 12, I feel like my concept of having a physical body dissolved completely and I… became the sound waves so to speak. I became an abstract concept. Every fiber of my being felt like i was the pink noise and tones I was hearing in my ear. Eventually my ego kicked back in and I got the thought that this was so intense and beautiful I wasn’t sure I’d ever come back. I feel like if I let it continue I’d go permanently insane. So I stopped it short. Tried the rest of it again later when I wasn’t peaking but it wasn’t the same. Also tried the wave 1 track 6 tape again to see if I could conjure up my angel again but it didn’t work. I also didn’t have control over the visuals this time unlike last time. A little disappointed, because while sober the tapes are so consistent, but my guess is psychedelics are just too unpredictable. [my boyfriend] gets recurring visions of some dark wolf entity, so I was hoping I could get the same thing, but unfortunately, I don’t seem to be there yet.
Some of you from the chat may recognize me. Well over the years I’ve done a lot of growing. A lot of learning and a lot of exploring the inner reaches of my own mind. Lately I’ve been experimenting with Robert Monroe’s Gateway Experience tapes, as I have been curious about them since I first stumbled upon a VICE article on them in 2022. I remember listening to the first one and feeling an odd sort of buzzing vibration in my body which made me feel incredibly strange. I was in a bad state of mind back then and didn’t pick them up again, but they always called to me, and so I finally decided to give them another shot this year. I will say that since I’ve been doing the tapes, I feel so much more positive, life feels more meaningful, and that dead inside state I was in before has started to slowly dissipate, like a fog lifting from my mind. I will log my experience here if anyone cares to share in the experience with me; here we go…
And if anyone wants to try them for themselves; here is the link;
Gateway experience log
Began 1/15- two tapes; approx 9:30 pm
Wave 1-orientation, introduction to focus 10
Notes: didn’t feel much during the first tape, a pleasant buzzing sensation in the brain after resonant tuning. Then immediately did the second tape after; during the waves portion I had faint visions of ripples in a dingy green color, like raindrops falling on the surface of the water. Then they turned into bubbles. Fell into focus 10 pretty easily, body completely relaxed, no desire to move. Felt strange vibrational sensations throughout my body as well as small patches of a numbing cold in places. My energy conversion box is a heavy metal artillery can in the middle of a forest for some reason? Brief flashes of other things but they were hard to focus on.
1/16- wave 1-advanced focus 10: approx 9:30 pm;
Notes: still feel like I reached focus 10 pretty easily. Tried my best to envision REBAL, practiced envisioning the 10 in my mind to induce focus 10, while sitting with the feeling I began to have nonsensical visions, my eyes were twitching as though they were in REM sleep, but I was completely lucid and aware. The visions were like surreal dreams, but instead of me being an active participant in them, they were like I was watching a movie on a screen. There was a weird looking girl, who looked like an anime character if it were real, and she was telling what I assumed to be a story, but the words had no meaning to me, they made no sense. And then it flashed to these strange little cartoonish creatures who appeared to be going on some kind of adventure, there were other flashes of things that I couldn’t quite process, but I know I felt completely relaxed and calm throughout. Also had the twitches and twinges and vibrations again.
1/17: wave 1 track 5-exploration sleep; approx 9:30 pm;
Notes: Skipped track 4 because I wanted to try and lucid dream and thought this might help. Everything proceeded as usual, had trouble remembering full affirmation, just kept repeating ‘I am more than my physical body because i am more than my physical matter.’ Saw strange blueish light towards the top field of my vision during Rebal. As meditation progressed I felt the vibrations on my body, felt a strange sort of… pulling away? Sort of like a piece of my head was trying to separate from the whole and float off to the right. Felt kinda similar to the sensation I got on my DMT trip. No complete seperation yet however. Felt like weightlessness during the period where he says float, but turning over kinda broke my focus 10 concentration, still my muscles sort of autosomallly felt like they started lifting me up as meditation progressed. No actual floating, however. Felt very relaxed and peaceful afterwards, no dreams however.
1/18: wave 1 track 4-release and recharge; approx 9:30-10 pm
Notes: tried track 4, went through the preparatory process, got into a good relaxed state. Opened my energy conversion box and found the ‘fear’ it appeared as a shining white light. I think my first fear was ‘my physical body and it’s health issues’ went through the process of letting it go and removing the negative emotions, the second was “the state of the world"which has been weighing heavy on my mind. After doing those two I fell into a deep trance. My mind was clear, my body relaxed, no thoughts just a deep sense of peace and relaxation. I was simply existing. A state I never thought I’d be able to reach. Felt vibrations and the cold.
1/19: wave 1 track 5-exploration sleep; approx 7:30 pm
Notes: revisited track 5 because it’s had the most profound affects on my mind so far. My body was sore and my mind was turbulent so I did it in a warm Epsom salt bath in the darkness. Made the heat too high and got very hot because this particular tape makes my heart rate spike for some reason, so had to adjust temperature of the bath and try again. Being in water helped the floating sensation and definitely got more flashes of visions. Again my muscles autosomally seemed to push me upwards but still no complete seperation. Maybe I’m not in focus 10 enough? Felt vibrations upon waking the next morning
1/20: wave 1 track 3- advanced focus 10; approx 10 pm
Notes: practiced advanced focus 10 again to see if maybe I wasn’t getting it right. No visions this time, seemed a lot less intense than previous experiences. Drank a beer this time so maybe that’s why it didn’t work as good. Did feel like I reached focus 10 this time but it didn’t last the whole session. Tried to practice visualizing the 10 entering my body.
1/22: wave 1 track 6-free flow; approx 9:00 pm
Notes: Didn’t get much progress this time, but I took some molly that day and I’m attributing it to that. Had about the same kinda effects as each previous time. Very relaxed and peaceful,twitches and twinges vibrations, and flashes of visuals but otherwise not too dramatic an effect.
1/23: wave 1 track 5-exploration sleep; approx. 9 pm
Notes: can’t remember much of this one, I must’ve ‘clicked out.’
1/27: wave 1 track 5- exploration sleep; approx 9 pm
Notes: wanted to try floating again, as I’m determined to feel myself separate from my body, like what I did when I smoked DMT. I notice that after resonant tuning, during REBAL, some hazy cloud like shapes began appearing behind my closed eyes. They were dark purple and dingy mustard yellow. They formed a pattern of concentric circles, the yellow outside of the purple. The purple would start large and shrink, dilating and then contracting. It seemed like the purple was traveling away from me, and the yellow was a tunnel. This happened for a few seconds. Once it got time to try the floating again I did achieve a feeling of weightlessness, but I still don’t think I fully got there. My body felt like an afterthought at the very least.
1/28: wave 1 track 5- exploration sleep; approx 9 pm
Notes: I started to see these purple cloud like shapes swirling behind my eyelids during the REBAL segment, just like the night before. They gradually turned into the purple and yellow circle again. It was contracting and dilating just like before, but I started to notice the squiggly lines of electric light included in the shapes. I remember thinking it reminded me of a pupil and then the image faded into this gorgeous purple eye. It started out unclear at first and then the shapes converged into the final eye shape. It started out kinda distant from me and then got closer and closer until it was huge in my field of vision. Is this my third eye? The physical effects afterwards were about the same as I’ve been getting, weightlessness, relaxation and peace but still not a feeling of float just yet. I made an animation of a rough version of what I saw….
View attachment Untitled_Artwork.mp4
1/30: wave 1 track 6-free flow; approx 10;30 pm
Notes: took two ‘micro dose’ gummies that contain some sort of unknown tryptamine (possibly 4ho-det??). The effects of the gummies by themselves weren’t strong, I hardly had any visual disturbances while my eyes were open, maybe everything had that 3d glasses look to it, and my body had a small load, got the yawns… closed eye visuals were very lively, but a dull grey, not the beautiful colors you would expect. But once I put the headphones on and started meditating everything changed. The purpose I set was ‘visions’ and boy did I get them. The CEVs became a kaleidoscope of colors and images, the most notable one I hastily scribbled the next morning (see below). It looked like a kaleidoscopic angel, all wings and eyes and so many different colors, it was shifting and morphing and there was a crystalline structure in the middle with a central eye. It felt like it wanted to communicate with me. I tried asking it questions but got no response. I asked if the purple eye could come back, and the cevs turned into hundreds of just eyes. The word ‘mosaic’ caused it to turn into a swirling mass of tiles. Thinking of an animal caused the animal to fold out of every facet in fractal patterns. I was controlling the visions with my thoughts. This continued until the meditation ended, and my mind was buzzing the whole night. I couldn’t sleep so I tried to draw what I saw, didn’t do it much justice, every time I laid down and closed my eyes I saw galaxies.
01/31: wave 1 track 5- exploration sleep, approx 10pm
Notes: saw the purple circle again during REBAL, it looked very scribbly and jagged this time it was dilating and contracting over and over just like all the other times. couldn’t really concentrate on the whole thing however, as I was in mental turmoil from an argument. Things wouldn’t stay in energy conversion box. Stopped it early.
02/01; wave 1 track 4-release and recharge, approx 9 pm
Notes: felt some negative emotions still so I decided to do another r&r. The purple circle came right after resonant tuning during the REBAL segment again, dilated and contracted a bit, but then it got very close to me, was very intense and filled my whole field of vision. It looked like an iris with an incredibly contracted pupil but not the whole eye this time. Once we got to the exercises of releasing the fear I fell into another trance, where I was just completely blissfully relaxed. No thoughts, no worries, just existing. These tapes definitely produce consistent results.
02/02; wave 1 track 5- exploration sleep;
Notes: this time the purple circle started contracted and grew dilated instead of the other way around. And stayed illuminating my closed eye field for a lot longer than the last few times, well into the part where bob starts talking about sound vibrational energy. Entered focus ten pretty easily, felt disconnected from my body, very weightless but still no actual ‘float.’
02/04: wave 2 track 1- intro to focus 12; approx 10 pm
Notes: started a new wave with a lot of enthusiasm. Saw the purple eye again as REBAL segment was happening, I guess it’s my new companion. Fell into focus 10 very easily, felt completely relaxed, no desire to move, small buzzing vibrations in my legs. Entered focus 12 almost effortlessly, felt like I…. Expanded, like I became a puddle or a pancake, I felt lighter and airier and just… more. My temperature got very warm during the second focus 10. Saw lots of different things flash into my vision including a very dull flower like shape. Hopefully if i keep working /at it it will become clearer.
02/05: wave 2 track 1-intro to focus 12; approx 10 pm;
Notes : my phone died and cut short in the middle of focus 12 before I could finish, but I had much the same experience as last time. Saw the purple circle/ eye, doing its typical pulsating. Still haven’t gotten the sort of clarity I had on 1/28, but I’ll probably try and go back to track five at some point. Focus ten comes naturally to me now, and expanded easily. Saw lots of flashes of colors and patterns almost psychedelic in nature. I like focus 12 a lot. Felt really off and de-real the next day however. Was able to get into focus 10 then 12 after it shut off without the tapes as well, using Monroe’s methods.
02/07: wave 2 track 1-intro to focus 12; approx 10pm;
Notes: about the same. Saw the purple and yellow eye, more yellow this time however. Felt expanded, then back to focus ten, even more psychedelic flashes, I’m seeing stuff with my eyes closed even without Listening to the tapes now too. The eye is there every night. Including a bright flash on 2/8 that looked almost like a crystalline, mirror edged dimension with a bright blue sky, a vast ocean and lots of prisms. It only lasted a second but holy hell. Am I going crazy? I love it.
02/09; wave 1 track 5- exploration sleep; approx 10 pm;
Notes: not too much happened this time, the color that mostly pervaded my visions was yellow this time. Bright undulating waves of yellow, much brighter than before, which then of course converged into the yellow and purple circles, which did their pulsating dance. Fell into deep focus 10 very easily, but I was very tired and I think I kept dozing off during the meditation, so I can’t say I felt and floating, but did become deeply unaware of my body.
2/11; wave 2 track 1- intro to focus 12; approx 8 pm;
Notes: ate 11 of the road trip gummies and tried to listen to the tapes. It was a whole different level! First the waves felt like they permeated me, like they were infiltrating every cell in my body? I could feel the sound. I tried the resonant tuning but the sensations it was giving in my body made me feel a bit insane. The way the tapes interacted with the visuals was incredible. They became so much richer, more deep and tangible. It was like I was physically inside a colorful acrylic pour painting, with all sorts of swirling plasticy colors and shapes. They looked like I could reach out and touch them, like I was tangibly in this abstract painting world, like I had become waves and colors. Focus 10 is an incredibly easy state for me to reach on psychedelics, because I get so focused on the beautiful visuals I often forget I even have a physical body. The vibrations around me were intense too, the strongest I’ve ever felt up until now. Well once he began counting to get me to focus 12, I feel like my concept of having a physical body dissolved completely and I… became the sound waves so to speak. I became an abstract concept. Every fiber of my being felt like i was the pink noise and tones I was hearing in my ear. Eventually my ego kicked back in and I got the thought that this was so intense and beautiful I wasn’t sure I’d ever come back. I feel like if I let it continue I’d go permanently insane. So I stopped it short. Tried the rest of it again later when I wasn’t peaking but it wasn’t the same. Also tried the wave 1 track 6 tape again to see if I could conjure up my angel again but it didn’t work. I also didn’t have control over the visuals this time unlike last time. A little disappointed, because while sober the tapes are so consistent, but my guess is psychedelics are just too unpredictable. [my boyfriend] gets recurring visions of some dark wolf entity, so I was hoping I could get the same thing, but unfortunately, I don’t seem to be there yet.
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