Need some advice please

[spicentheogodmt]

Ok so here i am with my dmt and my year's worth of knowledge of what may happen when i undergo this beautiful molecule that sound absolutely amazing but terrifying at the same time. I'm a little drunk right now and alone i also have salvia as well. I'm wondering if i should do either of these to push past my limitations and personal insecurties that i feel everyday that drive me nuts. Ive done a low dose of mushroom after smokeing several blunts with a pill of mdma and alcohol in the same session that i had an ego death and am still integrating it as of today or at least i remember it like it just happened which was 2 or so years ago. I'm just absolutlety afraid of salvia and dmt for some reason but i guess you could say it's a healthy fear of it i dont know the idea of totally replacing reality in seconds lol. I really don't have any friends cuz i've moved a lot but i'm generally a very nice person and open to most situations but have terrible anxiety and a hard time connecting with people and that if i open up to them they wouldnt understand me and that get's me a little depressed but i'm by no means suicidal and i meditate and use hynosis cd's constanty and have really grown spiritually so much. I also believe that life is eternal and the next stage of live after the physical is just like a game, you keep getting more advanced and so on and that everything is right here right now its all about accessing it. I'm just afraid i guess of dying or and leaving my family behind and think about how they would feel and how it would affect their lives. Just let me know what you think...

 

[spicentheogodmt]

The only time i feel like i'll be alright is when im tipsy. I've always had alcohol to assist me growing up i guess you could say.

 

[spicentheogodmt]

The only time i feel like i'll be alright is when im tipsy. I've always had alcohol to assist me growing up i guess you could say.

 

[new_science]

I would highly recommend not taking DMT (or any other psychedelic for that matter) while under the influence of alcohol. Please consider the scope of the spice, and evaluate whether or not it is for you at this time. Here is a great post on the subject.

Why you should NOT take DMT - First steps in Hyperspace - Welcome to the DMT-Nexus

 

[Compound37]

I agree with Slane on this one, alcohol doesn't tend to mix well with spice. Your nervous for a reason, heed the inner guidance. Hyper space will always be there. No point in rushing off to it, especially during times when the results have a higher chance of becoming negative.

 

[spicentheogodmt]

Wow, exactly what i needed to read. How does salvia differ will it answer my questions or help me to breakthrough. I try on a daily basis to truly love myself and sometimes i just cant except myself only when i'm around other people tho. I have been addicted to porn and am finally excepting myself for that. I just think anal sex if just so sexy for some reason i sexually complex i'm a man and am attracted to women but am sometimes confused as to whether i like men or not which i know in my heart i'm sexually attracted to women but want to connect with guys you know in a fun way without being too serious or wierd if that makes sense. This is what i deal with on a daily basis.

 

[spicentheogodmt]

And to connect with women you know. I can act like everything is fine but deep down it really affects me and i just feel like i dont belong for some reason and feel like i'm gay or something cuz i try to be nice and stuff. ramblin' sry. and i totally except gay people and understand them now.

 

[changalvia]

I would suggest the DMT before the Salvia. Salvia is A LOT more uncomfortable and can be quite torturous if you are feeling uh, whats the word, vulnerable or nervous. Dmt first will give you an understanding i think of just how hectic these things can be and prepare you for whats to come with salvia. Thats just my opinion though, i smoked salvia way before dmt and i loved salvia for a long time. Each is just as important as the other if you wish to use them as tools for mind expansion which is what i do. well, psychedelics in general. Anyway ya dont drink with such a spiritual thing, I have nothing against alcohol, i drink myself, but i feel it is a very depressing thing and i am half convinced the governments of the world are using alcohols legality as a way of keeping humanities brain diluted and staying non-the-wiser. Once again just my opinion.

Pleasant journeys through what none of us understand (even though sometimes we think we know it all)

Ciao