Gary the Guppy
Rising Star
Hey all,
The last few trips I've taken have had some... odd sensations. This last trip I loaded up 25mg of pure white crystals and 25 mg of yellow crystals. I had taken ~100 mg of MDA I had sitting around (at least that's what I was told it was) which is always a decent way of preventing pre-flight anxiety imo. It was my first trip in a bathtub (probably not safe) but the water was only a couple inches deep so it would've been tough to drown in. I light a couple candles and had some shpongle playing in the background.
So I lit up my VG and took a hit, which led to the normal slight change in perception. Took a second rather large hit and suddenly I was overwhelmed with the intense geometric patterns and body load. I couldn't convince myself to take the third hit because I was already starting to feel slightly dysphoric and confused. Not taking that third hit was probably the issue. Anyways a minute or so into the trip I started to get the feeling that something was physically pinching or poking me with a needle on my left side. This continued to happen every few seconds or so and I couldn't make sense of it, at all.
I was surrounded by what seemed like the outlines of jester-like entities watching me and laughing at me. They were pointing and reaching into my body but my ego was fighting the experience and still trying to make sense of the pinching feeling I was getting. As it went on I started to get this pulling feeling, like something was trying to pull me out of my body. This led to my vision ending up.. split. I guess? On one side I had the beautiful greens, red, and orange shapes and on my right it was all dark and ugly. This splitting brought even more anxiety and I started to think I must be having a stroke or something. Then the colors all got muted like on my right side and I felt very uncomfortable, though putting my arms into the warm water felt amazing.
Afterwards I just sat there and tried to make sense of it all, more so than ever before. So I guess I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced sensations like this during a sub-breakthrough dose? Could this have any subconscious importance that I'm just not able to understand? Was mixing it with MDA a bad idea and could that be the reason I felt these things. Oh and of course, if I had taken the third hit would I have avoided all of this entirely? I have yet to breakthrough, mostly because I can't get myself to take that third hit (even though I took more than 3 hits the last time I rolled a month or so ago and I had a similar experience.) Anyways, I appreciate any replies and I hope you're all having a fanntastic week!
The last few trips I've taken have had some... odd sensations. This last trip I loaded up 25mg of pure white crystals and 25 mg of yellow crystals. I had taken ~100 mg of MDA I had sitting around (at least that's what I was told it was) which is always a decent way of preventing pre-flight anxiety imo. It was my first trip in a bathtub (probably not safe) but the water was only a couple inches deep so it would've been tough to drown in. I light a couple candles and had some shpongle playing in the background.
So I lit up my VG and took a hit, which led to the normal slight change in perception. Took a second rather large hit and suddenly I was overwhelmed with the intense geometric patterns and body load. I couldn't convince myself to take the third hit because I was already starting to feel slightly dysphoric and confused. Not taking that third hit was probably the issue. Anyways a minute or so into the trip I started to get the feeling that something was physically pinching or poking me with a needle on my left side. This continued to happen every few seconds or so and I couldn't make sense of it, at all.
I was surrounded by what seemed like the outlines of jester-like entities watching me and laughing at me. They were pointing and reaching into my body but my ego was fighting the experience and still trying to make sense of the pinching feeling I was getting. As it went on I started to get this pulling feeling, like something was trying to pull me out of my body. This led to my vision ending up.. split. I guess? On one side I had the beautiful greens, red, and orange shapes and on my right it was all dark and ugly. This splitting brought even more anxiety and I started to think I must be having a stroke or something. Then the colors all got muted like on my right side and I felt very uncomfortable, though putting my arms into the warm water felt amazing.
Afterwards I just sat there and tried to make sense of it all, more so than ever before. So I guess I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced sensations like this during a sub-breakthrough dose? Could this have any subconscious importance that I'm just not able to understand? Was mixing it with MDA a bad idea and could that be the reason I felt these things. Oh and of course, if I had taken the third hit would I have avoided all of this entirely? I have yet to breakthrough, mostly because I can't get myself to take that third hit (even though I took more than 3 hits the last time I rolled a month or so ago and I had a similar experience.) Anyways, I appreciate any replies and I hope you're all having a fanntastic week!
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