The Calling

[Wave Rider]

Greetings Nexus,

It has been a while since I have visited this forum, a few months at least, but I am back, for now at least. I know there are more than a few who have noticed something "calling" them back (to the place), which is what brought me back to the forum. I had a really strong experience a few months ago that left me completely satisfied as well as blown away. DMT has been there, in my posession, the whole time; I just chose not to use it. Couldn't use it.

It seems lately that "place" has been calling me back "home". Can anybody understand? I feel I need to go there again, and I am going to, it is just a matter of when. I mean, the spice is here and ready to go, but I am not ready. Understandable to most who read this, I cannot go if I am not ready. It is still calling me though. Weird huh? I know I need to get my shit together, and that is the only thing that is really stopping me from doing it. If I lived in a perfect world, I would have never stopped in the first place, but the fact remains, I got some shit I need to do.

Even though I have shit to do, the "place" beckons me. "We have much to show you, come back" it tells me. Not in so many words, you understand, but in feelings, if you can dig. I feel it calling me as if a part of me were still there; as if the "place" is not done with me yet. I feel the calling so strong and I am so certain that I will go back that it has already come to pass in my mind, I just haven't materialized it yet. I feel that everything I am going to learn has already been decided and is waiting for me in a nice, neat little package upon my arrival. The only catch is that I can't get it until I go back, and I can't go back until I am ready. Maybe they need to show me something that will help me on my path to getting my shit together? Who knows... but they are calling me.

I guess my post has a couple of questions: Does anyone else feel this calling/beckoning/summoning after a period of absence? Well, I know there are some, so for those who feel it, what do you think it is? Is it normal? How do you know when you are ready do delve back in to the place after a strong experience? I know my time to get back into it is soon, I feel it each and every day, but opportunities come and opportunities go, and I never get the feeling that "now" is the time. Does one know the right time or does one just dive back in at the first opportune moment that he/she is ready? Is there such a thing as a right time? Am I delusional? Others feel it, right? Please share any and all related ideas. You are the best forum in the world.

 

[kyrolima]

Wave Rider, this is a common phenomena, and many people seem to experience the "Call".
To me it expresses itself like this:
I get a stronger and stronger urge to get back into Hyperspace. It's like the idea gets more solid and solid the further the time passes.

ON the day itself, there isn't a question anymore, if I should do it or not.
I am almost compelled to do it. Once there even was a day, when I was sober and yet a part of me felt like tripping. And I just HAD to take the dose!

I hope I cleared up some questions, yes, and good luck with integrating the stuff. To me, it was quite a transformative force.

After all you will realize what kind of power you have!
Learn how to use it in your favour but be wise !

kind regards
kyrolima

 

[DoctorMantus]

i can agree when you when you have a great experience, yea you become satisfied and you just break from it for a while, i would say if its calling back then try to scedule yourself a time and place, you probably know the basics, mentally preparing and what not, and id say when the time comes if i dont feel right then hold out till it does.

now i have a question so i have myself had a great experience and since not really prepared for any deep journeying, in months bc i was infact satisfied, now this is the problem i am having, i deff feel as if its calling, but there is a part of me that is terrified of spice, i am not terrified of doing it, but of what it might reveal to me, like the spice realm is very large and can be scary to what can unfold in front of you, i feel as if this is my ego finding back with me, or the vaping may not be correct idk, can anyone help, any1 understand what i am getting at.

 

[Enoon]

yes the calling wow, it can get so strong sometimes. I waited 3 years after an intense mushroom experience which broke another 3 year break approximately. both times the strong feeling of wanting to dive into the psychedelic experience arose in me and became undeniable.

For me there is no certain day that I must take psychedelics but rather I try to set aside time for it when I feel it is calling me; I plan it into my otherwise rather busy schedule so I can relax in those hours.
Why do we get the calling? I think mainly for me at least it's about developmental processes that want to unfold and from experience I know I can respond to and facilitate these using psychedelics, so the urge arises. There's other ways, surely, and certainly psychedelics are only one of many methods I apply. But they have been very helpful for me and I'm glad I followed the call this time. I've surpressed it on occasion and I feel like it has only resulted in stalling growth processes. Best to go with the flow of what your true being tells you it needs.

cheers
Enoon

 

[Wave Rider]

Wave Rider, this is a common phenomena, and many people seem to experience the "Call".
To me it expresses itself like this:
I get a stronger and stronger urge to get back into Hyperspace. It's like the idea gets more solid and solid the further the time passes.

ON the day itself, there isn't a question anymore, if I should do it or not.
I am almost compelled to do it. Once there even was a day, when I was sober and yet a part of me felt like tripping. And I just HAD to take the dose!

I hope I cleared up some questions, yes, and good luck with integrating the stuff. To me, it was quite a transformative force.

After all you will realize what kind of power you have!
Learn how to use it in your favour but be wise !

kind regards kyrolima

Yea, thanks a million. A few weeks ago, I thought to myself, "Hmm, I kind of want to do spice". Now a few weeks later, I am thinking to myself, "Ok, it is going to happen, but when?". So, as you can see, your words hit home for me.

i am not terrified of doing it, but of what it might reveal to me, like the spice realm is very large and can be scary to what can unfold in front of you, DoctorMantus

I can understand this. I feel like my next launch is going to be an important step for me. A higher level or something that I can't quite put my finger on. I am scared of this like the first day of school.

I've surpressed it on occasion and I feel like it has only resulted in stalling growth processes. Enoon

Yea...Sadly I feel that if I stall much longer I will only stall the growth process as you mention. The messed up part about it is that I have no idea what the growth is going to be. I feel that it is something important, but I have no proof of what it is or of it even exists. It could all just be in my head for all I know, but something is telling me that it is not. Something is telling me that I should take the plunge... The calling.

 

[Enoon]

I think with the evolution of consciousness one can never fully understand or see the next level, the one that one is reaching for but has not attained. So it's only natural to not know how this growing will turn out. Important is that we do grow.
The whole idea, to me, about self development, has to do with newness and creativity. In that sense again it makes sense that we do not know of the next level, because it will be something new.

I wish you the best in your progressions!

much love
Enoon