Trouble with breaking through

[gooseisgoose08]

looking for some perspective on something odd. I've never broken through. I've gotte really close and had some really strong experiences, but never fully across the threshold. I'm pretty comfortable with DMT at sub-breakthrough levels, so the substance itself isn't unfamiliar to me.

Here's the issue: every time I set up for a real breakthrough attempt, I load the vaporizing setup, get settlled, and then right at the moment of inhaling, I stall. Something in me just stops. And it's not that I don't want to do it. I genuinely, fully want to. It's something I've been working toward for a while.
It also doesn't feel like fear in the usual sense. I'm not more nervous than you'd expect from someone about to step into another world. It feels more like a reflex, like my body is vetoing a decision my mind already made. Strange feeling.
Has anyone else run into this? And for those who've been through it, what helped you get past that last hurdle on a first breakthrough? Any advice on setup, mindset, or approach would be appreciated. Thanks

 

[northape]

Oh my, you're far from alone. You can actually feel right at home sharing these feelings here

Thread 'Why DMT Scares Me'

Mar 2, 2023

PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: Actually, very fine.
(physical condition) Set: Fit and healthy
Setting (location): My room at my altar.
time of day: Early evening. 1730
recent drug use: Cannabis earlier in the day, was on my microdose, harmalas 15min prior to changa.
last meal: Jumbalaya- 1630

PARTICIPANT
Gender: M
body weight: 63.5kg
known sensitivities: Sensory Processing Sensitivity
history of use: Seasoned (15 years)

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[bezevo]

nobody seems to be able to define "A BREAK THREW no clue what it is

 

[brettsta]

We all experience that same apprehension and fear when attempting to
push past the threshold, it's normal to fight it , it's not easy .
I will sometimes talk myself out of it right at the moment of breakthrough . I experience the same when kayaking down a rapids or of a waterfall,
Sometimes I need to shout at my self and psych myself up .

To be honest I've been experiencing that recently, it can be frustrating because I know 95% of the time it's pure bliss, and I know there is good there ready to welcome me.

I'm not advising this for others , I'm not saying this is what others should do , it's one of those situations that only you can work it out !
But I know what it is with me , it's a blinding fear and the lack of courage.

So I've increased my pre meditation / breathing to a good hour before , and that is helping a great deal ! I also Have a good word with myself and psych myself up like I do when kayaking. After all the negative of kayaking is drowning, the negative of DMT is just a illusion.

Good luck, there is no right or wrong way to enjoy life

 

[iownme]

as was said yesterday on another post.

"your taking a break from yourself"

relax and enjoy

 

[gooseisgoose08]

as was said yesterday on another post.

"your taking a break from yourself"

relax and enjoy

Thanks that’s really good advice when you put it like that it makes it feel way less intimidating. I think pre trip I’ll sort of say that to myself

 

[iownme]

when you put it like that it makes it feel way less intimidating

i felt the exact same thing

I think pre trip I’ll sort of say that to myself

i said the exact same thing

and what better gift and vacation can one give oneself ?