Mindlusion said:
Trust? As in, assured that you know what it will bring, or assured that it will put you in the right place when your done with it?
I guess when I say trust I mean on the whole.
There are substances that can be a great experience but ultimately they leave you with a lie. Then there can be substances that give you a hard time, but benefit you in the long term.
I've found MDMA, LSD, MXE to be evil tricksters. When I'm up I am god/Jesus/The cure for cancer, then when I'm down... well I realise I'm not.
Mushrooms, DMT, Mescaline generally always give me what I need and not what I want. I did have one experience with DMT where I became delusional for a couple of months, but then long term realised I wanted one thing far too much and ultimately learned from it.
MDMA I've been a little hard on. It can be amazing with the right people, but it's the fact it's so easy to use among hangers on. Many nights of meaningless promises have ensued.
Mescaline watches out for me. I need this as I'm far too selfless, possibly from insecurity. In the best possible way, mescaline has a way of making me look out for number one. This may sound disrespectful, but in many ways it's like my cocaine. It's good to counteract the disolution of the self that I've found from DMT. DMT makes me attach others oxygen supplies first.
Mushrooms I find have been very much on the fence on a lot of matters, uncover my insecurities and at the same time I don't take it all as seriously as I do with DMT and LSD.
Mescaline's hardest on me physically, LSD's the lightest.