Why DMT Scares Me

[TransistorBass]

Cool, All Free-bases covered then.
So when's D-mt-Day?
Bon Voyage....

 

[Voidmatrix]

Cool, All Free-bases covered then.
So when's D-mt-Day?
Bon Voyage....

It might be next weekend... I won't know until maybe Wednesday if not the day of.



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[Voidmatrix]

Had a funny talk with my boss yesterday. After being informed about my new roles and duties, we talked about my potential for DMTx. While simply revisiting preparing for such an event, he mentions to probably not smoalk the day before...

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[yatyas314]

I am excited to read about the experience, Safe travels @Voidmatrix .
Y

 

[Voidmatrix]

There were unfortunately some hiccups picking up medicine so the foray is on hold. Will keep everyone posted.

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[Voidmatrix]

Alrighty, so it's looking like late February/ early March is when I'll get to go. So much busyness at the center until then.

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[fink]

And now, you enter the phase that shall be known henceforth as.... The Great Waiting

 

[Voidmatrix]

It's the self doubt the curtails and stifles my liberation. While I am the one self doubting, it ain't my self doubt. Shedding what's not mine, cyclically, burning and peeling layers away. The more it is acknowledged, the moar it is assuaged. Aligned and accessing my sovereignty and agency, I am pushing the periphery of comfort with my own choice.

I'm smoalking later!

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[Voidmatrix]

Hmm, another permutation that explores this fear.

Given that I had complex ptsd before doing DMT, that means I brought a traumatized and hypervigiliant nervous system into the space. I was predisposed to a trauma response. It put me on a pedestal the first time, which I am not cool with, and subsequently went back two more times. And now I am where I am. And that's okay.

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