There's been a shift.
I've taken a few small tokes of changa this week and one run of 8mg that had been loaded before DMTx. Today I decided I'd do 10mg after guiding.
In some other thread (or a PM), a few weeks ago, I made mention of a new approach I going to take in the moment of smoalking. I typically want to get the come up out of the way with preferences like getting the whole dose in one hit. The desire to be over or passed the comeup is an area where we can see that I abandon myself. To augment that, I've decided to take smaller hits, realizing there's actually a decent window of time to get the full dose before needing to reattempt once one is versed with the smoalking process.
The shift in visuals is always both a trigger as well as an indicator. Regardless of the dose, it triggers that oh sh*t response, and indicates inclement depth based on how strong it comes on. So, I sat with that, with eyes open, watching the bubbles attachment morph and warp as well as other aspects of my room and the Gundams on a shelf across from my bed. I just reminded myself to stay present and with it, remaining open and unalarmed. The usual spikes of anxiety and fear never showed. If I would've ended up deeper, I was open and ready for that.
I am over some hurdle right now.
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