Why DMT Scares Me

[ommani]

@Jamie01 yeah, time is a major part of it for me too. I like the sound of the sublingual harmala/low-dose mushroom and DMT combo that you described. I have lots of experience with low dose harmalas and also mushrooms, but only a bit of experience combining them. Low doses of mushrooms with low doses of harmalas has been a consistently positive experience for me, which I’d like to get back to.

Mushrooms are a bit like DMT for me, in that I’ve been mostly avoiding them. Same as with DMT, I had limited access to mushrooms (now it’s unlimited) when I was younger, and would tend to overuse them when I had any. Now that I have way more than I need, I’m like, “mushrooms, who’s got time for that, I need to clean my place and prep food for the week.”

All that is to say that I resonate with the low dose titration of mushrooms/harmalas, plus adding a bit of DMT to push it into more of a transpersonal space, but not for too long, or to an ego-shattering/reality annihilating degree. That sounds like something that I could do once a month or so, which I imagine would give a boost to my mental health, and probably make it a little easier to stay connected, engaged, and moving forward.

 

[TransistorBass]

@Jamie01 yeah, time is a major part of it for me too. I like the sound of the sublingual harmala/low-dose mushroom and DMT combo that you described. I have lots of experience with low dose harmalas and also mushrooms, but only a bit of experience combining them. Low doses of mushrooms with low doses of harmalas has been a consistently positive experience for me, which I’d like to get back to.

Mushrooms are a bit like DMT for me, in that I’ve been mostly avoiding them. Same as with DMT, I had limited access to mushrooms (now it’s unlimited) when I was younger, and would tend to overuse them when I had any. Now that I have way more than I need, I’m like, “mushrooms, who’s got time for that, I need to clean my place and prep food for the week.”

All that is to say that I resonate with the low dose titration of mushrooms/harmalas, plus adding a bit of DMT to push it into more of a transpersonal space, but not for too long, or to an ego-shattering/reality annihilating degree. That sounds like something that I could do once a month or so, which I imagine would give a boost to my mental health, and probably make it a little easier to stay connected, engaged, and moving forward.

All that sounds nice to me, I really need to try growing Mushrooms again, my first attempt was just a multi-coloured-mould-fest! I quite fancy some small lemon-TEK doses of Mushrooms, I'm not interested in the heroic dose right now but I'm more looking at the health benefits and a bit of possible neurogenesis, and a vague hope it may help a few nerve connections around my back.

I struggle with time, I'm always at odds with not wanting to take 60-90mins out of my day to have a DMT session, then in the back of my mind I know i need to get some motivation back to tackle household jobs and gardening etc.... I could make a long list of tasks, Decorating, moving a curtain rail, putting a new curtain rail up, rebuilding part of our garden wall, re-doing the silicone in the shower, re-laying stone flags on the drive and paved area in the garden, the garden is a major mess albeit its meant to be 'for nature' it really could be made more useable to be enjoyed more, maybe clear some areas and grow some food in these high cost of living times! The list goes on! I need motivation.

All that said, I've kinda given up trying because it's not always easy to get support from my wife around doing any of these tasks, and after a week of my own work I really just want to relax when I have time off to let my body recover. *Clearly this is also a Me-Problem and these matters should be discussed more with my wife*

 

[Voidmatrix]

Timing and a sense of responsibility hinder me as well, though the realization of the hindrance isn't always at the front of my mind. It makes it harder to really let go when there always seems to be so many pressing matters to take care of, all the way to the point of feeling guilt or shame out of making the time to briefly lose one's mind. For me, time and responsibility hinder time in the space and depth.

One love

 

[Voidmatrix]

Another important note that I ought to share, otherwise I may lose it to the cosmic winds of my mind, but I have been loosening up lately, and it's only been good. Yesterday, for example, I smoalked three times. Once in the morning before doing yoga, once after dinner and before resting, and then for another yoga flow. Zero red flags.

One love

 

[Voidmatrix]

I have been reflecting on my own impressionability and suggestablitity as of late, especially with regards to my psychedelic hang-ups. While I am confident and firm in the ways in which I aim to be a free and sovereign thinker, such as with my own philosophy, being here (like many of us), etc. I have certainly been suggestible with regard to anything that highlights any negativity or caution with respect to the molecule. There is a graphic of drops that talks about safely doing DMT. That and content found in this link, https://wiki.dmt-nexus.me/DMT-Nexus_Wiki:Health_and_Safety , got to me early on without me realizing it. I took it all too seriously. I feel like I read these resources and took a sense of authority from them, but didn't notice, so didn't augment my response, as I often do with "authority." For example, there's mention of pausing DMT use if one is neglecting their life and responsibilities. I took this to heart because I haven't felt that I am where I am expected to be in my life, so didn't have the trust or the guage to assert myself and decide for myself if I have put too many pertinent things on the backburner in favor of DMT. That hasn't happened for me. I have maintained a high level of functionality and responsibility.

While I can't find the graphic, I am going to hunt for it, and when I find it, I want to reread it and the shared link, reflectively, and see how I feel about what's shared.

One love

 

[Transform]

This diagram?

https://www.dmt-nexus.me/users/house/DMTDiagram.png

 

[Voidmatrix]

This diagram?

https://www.dmt-nexus.me/users/house/DMTDiagram.png

Yep! Thank you!

Being so antidogma, and I treated both of the above sources as dogma. I ought to be ashamed.



One love

 

[bezevo]

the water drop format is very nice clever .....but...... kinda hard to read threw if your like AADD and so on ,, :0

 

[Transform]

the water drop format is very nice clever .....but...... kinda hard to read threw if your like AADD and so on ,, :0

Terrible on mobile as well

 

[yatyas314]

Just wanted to point out that this thread has so much value. Off to my retreat

 

[yatyas314]

I struggle with time, I'm always at odds with not wanting to take 60-90mins out of my day to have a DMT session, then in the back of my mind I know i need to get some motivation back to tackle household jobs and gardening etc.... I could make a long list of tasks, Decorating, moving a curtain rail, putting a new curtain rail up, rebuilding part of our garden wall, re-doing the silicone in the shower, re-laying stone flags on the drive and paved area in the garden, the garden is a major mess albeit its meant to be 'for nature' it really could be made more useable to be enjoyed more, maybe clear some areas and grow some food in these high cost of living times! The list goes on! I need motivation.

I really feel this, I thought about this post tonight and I wanted to share how i find/make time for my sessions. I take the tasks and just orient them in a way so I can use them as the motivation to get a session of DMT in. I manicure my outdoor space so it's all in order and my affairs are in as order as it could be and thats the bar for entry. This strategy has really helped me get deeper in my sessions because I do not bring in that weight of daunting tasks that feel undone, and I am free to explore. If this means that I don't get a session in for two months that's ok because when I do I will go hell bent for leather.
I wish you luck on your lists and hope you get a good one in soon.( it sounds like you should have a session in the garden once its all done)
Y

 

[TransistorBass]

I really feel this, I thought about this post tonight and I wanted to share how i find/make time for my sessions. I take the tasks and just orient them in a way so I can use them as the motivation to get a session of DMT in. I manicure my outdoor space so it's all in order and my affairs are in as order as it could be and thats the bar for entry. This strategy has really helped me get deeper in my sessions because I do not bring in that weight of daunting tasks that feel undone, and I am free to explore. If this means that I don't get a session in for two months that's ok because when I do I will go hell bent for leather.
I wish you luck on your lists and hope you get a good one in soon.( it sounds like you should have a session in the garden once its all done)
Y

I have been know to clean or tidy something before a session, because it felt right to do so.

 

[unisonruss1285]

Maybe fear is a natural thing. When you're being urged not to use it for a while. Sometimes I feel like psychedelics call you when it's appropriate. For example, I was scared of DMT and mushrooms for the last several months because it hasn't felt right. And I was having some bad experiences toward the very end. But after about 6 to 7 months off, I've suddenly been feeling a pull toward it again and getting excited about it.

 

[Voidmatrix]

Maybe fear is a natural thing. When you're being urged not to use it for a while. Sometimes I feel like psychedelics call you when it's appropriate. For example, I was scared of DMT and mushrooms for the last several months because it hasn't felt right. And I was having some bad experiences toward the very end. But after about 6 to 7 months off, I've suddenly been feeling a pull toward it again and getting excited about it.

I think fear, anxiety, apprehension, trepidation, etc, are all pretty standard for most psychedelics. The bigger or more intense the inclement experience, the greater it can be felt.

And I take my breaks, which doesn't change much. But that's because that's not where the issue lies for me.

And, it's always calling... Nature of my work.

One love

 

[Voidmatrix]

Had a beautiful moment. It was quick and fleeting, and I wonder how many times it has flown by and I haven't grabbed it until now. I made the decision to smoalk a small amount and to intentionally keep it light. I noticed the same feelings come up despite knowing the experience would be more than manageable. I could note the source. And it comes back to it's not so much the space but me...

Then I looked at myself in the mirror, and without any catalyzing thought, and stated, "I can smoalk all I want."

One love

 

[yatyas314]

With all the low dose chater that has been going on I went to go do exactly that. At first it was nice to take a big lung full and sit in it, then let it start to descend and get another onboard and again This took ~25 minutes. When I was done intuitively I went back inside loaded up again and kept doing it for another ~30 minutes. It was more emotional and stayed in that frequency of a few tears and emotion if that makes sense. I think I will just let my intuition guide me I normally like the switch all the way on but last night was just what I needed.
Y

 

[TransistorBass]

Then I looked at myself in the mirror, and without any catalyzing thought, and stated, "I can smoalk all I want."

So that's the intention set, a mantra of change and acceptance?

I've recently been thinking about a bit of manifesting, I'm pretty sick and tired of all my aches and pains with everything being recurrent it can border on depressing at times....

So I'm seriously wondering if repeating a phrase in my head daily will have any effect?
Something like, "I am Fit, Healthy and Pain Free"

Maybe I need a couple of new Tattoos with the words!

Maybe I can manifest my toe, back, arms, fingers back, and F****** Tinnitus to a more stable state!

I'm not unfit btw, I try as best I can to be healthy but I am broken by work on a weekly basis.