Why DMT Scares Me

[ommani]

@Jamie01 yeah, time is a major part of it for me too. I like the sound of the sublingual harmala/low-dose mushroom and DMT combo that you described. I have lots of experience with low dose harmalas and also mushrooms, but only a bit of experience combining them. Low doses of mushrooms with low doses of harmalas has been a consistently positive experience for me, which I’d like to get back to.

Mushrooms are a bit like DMT for me, in that I’ve been mostly avoiding them. Same as with DMT, I had limited access to mushrooms (now it’s unlimited) when I was younger, and would tend to overuse them when I had any. Now that I have way more than I need, I’m like, “mushrooms, who’s got time for that, I need to clean my place and prep food for the week.”

All that is to say that I resonate with the low dose titration of mushrooms/harmalas, plus adding a bit of DMT to push it into more of a transpersonal space, but not for too long, or to an ego-shattering/reality annihilating degree. That sounds like something that I could do once a month or so, which I imagine would give a boost to my mental health, and probably make it a little easier to stay connected, engaged, and moving forward.

 

[TransistorBass]

@Jamie01 yeah, time is a major part of it for me too. I like the sound of the sublingual harmala/low-dose mushroom and DMT combo that you described. I have lots of experience with low dose harmalas and also mushrooms, but only a bit of experience combining them. Low doses of mushrooms with low doses of harmalas has been a consistently positive experience for me, which I’d like to get back to.

Mushrooms are a bit like DMT for me, in that I’ve been mostly avoiding them. Same as with DMT, I had limited access to mushrooms (now it’s unlimited) when I was younger, and would tend to overuse them when I had any. Now that I have way more than I need, I’m like, “mushrooms, who’s got time for that, I need to clean my place and prep food for the week.”

All that is to say that I resonate with the low dose titration of mushrooms/harmalas, plus adding a bit of DMT to push it into more of a transpersonal space, but not for too long, or to an ego-shattering/reality annihilating degree. That sounds like something that I could do once a month or so, which I imagine would give a boost to my mental health, and probably make it a little easier to stay connected, engaged, and moving forward.

All that sounds nice to me, I really need to try growing Mushrooms again, my first attempt was just a multi-coloured-mould-fest! I quite fancy some small lemon-TEK doses of Mushrooms, I'm not interested in the heroic dose right now but I'm more looking at the health benefits and a bit of possible neurogenesis, and a vague hope it may help a few nerve connections around my back.

I struggle with time, I'm always at odds with not wanting to take 60-90mins out of my day to have a DMT session, then in the back of my mind I know i need to get some motivation back to tackle household jobs and gardening etc.... I could make a long list of tasks, Decorating, moving a curtain rail, putting a new curtain rail up, rebuilding part of our garden wall, re-doing the silicone in the shower, re-laying stone flags on the drive and paved area in the garden, the garden is a major mess albeit its meant to be 'for nature' it really could be made more useable to be enjoyed more, maybe clear some areas and grow some food in these high cost of living times! The list goes on! I need motivation.

All that said, I've kinda given up trying because it's not always easy to get support from my wife around doing any of these tasks, and after a week of my own work I really just want to relax when I have time off to let my body recover. *Clearly this is also a Me-Problem and these matters should be discussed more with my wife*

 

[Voidmatrix]

Timing and a sense of responsibility hinder me as well, though the realization of the hindrance isn't always at the front of my mind. It makes it harder to really let go when there always seems to be so many pressing matters to take care of, all the way to the point of feeling guilt or shame out of making the time to briefly lose one's mind. For me, time and responsibility hinder time in the space and depth.

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