Northerner
Rising Star
Hi,
A little bit of an essay here, but I really need to share this.
I'm just a guy, almost 40, professional IT person, lifelong interest in psychedelics. I've been interested in DMT for years but never really committed to it before. A good friend of mine send me a gram of 50/50 changa he made and I got it today.
So after putting the kids to bed I told my wife what I was doing and that I was going to take it easy. I then went in the lounge where there's a nice pink globe salt lamp and put on some ambient music. I laid a soft towel on the couch and then went back in the kitchen and packed a pipe, perhaps half a pipe. I then went back to the lounge and tried to prep myself mentally. Lot's of clearing thoughts, deep slow breaths, clearing my energies. Here I go.
I took the pipe in one solid hit and even before I was finished taking it in the world was starting to obliterate. Flowers turned into strobing horizontal and vertical lines throughout my vision. I only just managed to put the pipe down and lay down. Despite many years of psychedelic experience it was hard not to panic. I was thinking "What have I done to myself?". The noise that had started as a low hum was deafening and my teeth felt like they were melting and falling to pieces in my mouth. The closed eye visuals were inexpressible and my breathing was getting out of control. I started talking myself down, explaining it was just a drug and it would soon pass. I opened my eyes and everything was made out of huge blocks, not unlike an insane version of Minecraft. I looked around the room and everything was made of squares and rectangles. The blocks were becoming bigger and bigger, filling my vision and I closed my eyes again. Back to the CEV's which were much more comforting (less scary) than the OEV's. I drifted a while, then suddenly it stopped... I opened my eyes and even though my vision was crazy and morphing I was definitely coming out of it. The way I would describe the experience is terrifying, but amazing at the same time... Mostly terrifying. About 15 or 20 minutes had passed but it seemed liked just 2 or 3 minutes.
So... I went and told my wife that it was crazy AF and tried to explain a little, but decided not to. I then went and brushed my teeth and drank some water, let a little time pass. I told my wife that I was going to do it again. She said "Of course you are", she knows me very well. I knew that it would be better the second time now I knew what to expect. I packed another pipe, slightly larger, and went back to the lounge.
This time I wasn't scared. My vision started to break up again before I put the pipe down, but I persisted and took a 3rd hit to finish it. I lay back and closed my eyes. The noise seemed incredibly loud and I could hear rattling and clanging in the hum. The visuals were just amazing and morphing from shape to angle to shape. The colour purple seemed to be at the center of every formation. Then a sky pushed back out of the pressing kaleidoscope. It was the strangest sky I've ever seen. There was no up or down, I was just floating in infinity. The sky was white, red, blue and green all at the same time. Huge rectangles flying in grid patterns were coming in from both sides of me on a downwards diagonals and passing through/over each other in the middle of my vision. The rectangles were purple with white then red hearts inside them. I felt suddenly relaxed and realized the noise had stopped. Questions were being asked of me, by me?, I don't know. I don't even know what the questions were now. Everything was becoming less intense and then I heard the stereo in my lounge, I opened my eyes. I still had strong visuals but it was lessening by the second. It was over.
I tried to talk to my wife about it, but I can't seem to explain... it seems inexpressible. My mental clarity now is acute, though I think I'm going to sleep really well tonight.
I don't know if I expected entities or out of body experience or what, there is no way reading trip reports could possibly prepare me for what happened. It's only as time is passing I realise the full scope of it, most unusual. Most unusual indeed. I will definitely be looking more through this portal.
Peace and love, out.
J
A little bit of an essay here, but I really need to share this.
I'm just a guy, almost 40, professional IT person, lifelong interest in psychedelics. I've been interested in DMT for years but never really committed to it before. A good friend of mine send me a gram of 50/50 changa he made and I got it today.
So after putting the kids to bed I told my wife what I was doing and that I was going to take it easy. I then went in the lounge where there's a nice pink globe salt lamp and put on some ambient music. I laid a soft towel on the couch and then went back in the kitchen and packed a pipe, perhaps half a pipe. I then went back to the lounge and tried to prep myself mentally. Lot's of clearing thoughts, deep slow breaths, clearing my energies. Here I go.
I took the pipe in one solid hit and even before I was finished taking it in the world was starting to obliterate. Flowers turned into strobing horizontal and vertical lines throughout my vision. I only just managed to put the pipe down and lay down. Despite many years of psychedelic experience it was hard not to panic. I was thinking "What have I done to myself?". The noise that had started as a low hum was deafening and my teeth felt like they were melting and falling to pieces in my mouth. The closed eye visuals were inexpressible and my breathing was getting out of control. I started talking myself down, explaining it was just a drug and it would soon pass. I opened my eyes and everything was made out of huge blocks, not unlike an insane version of Minecraft. I looked around the room and everything was made of squares and rectangles. The blocks were becoming bigger and bigger, filling my vision and I closed my eyes again. Back to the CEV's which were much more comforting (less scary) than the OEV's. I drifted a while, then suddenly it stopped... I opened my eyes and even though my vision was crazy and morphing I was definitely coming out of it. The way I would describe the experience is terrifying, but amazing at the same time... Mostly terrifying. About 15 or 20 minutes had passed but it seemed liked just 2 or 3 minutes.
So... I went and told my wife that it was crazy AF and tried to explain a little, but decided not to. I then went and brushed my teeth and drank some water, let a little time pass. I told my wife that I was going to do it again. She said "Of course you are", she knows me very well. I knew that it would be better the second time now I knew what to expect. I packed another pipe, slightly larger, and went back to the lounge.
This time I wasn't scared. My vision started to break up again before I put the pipe down, but I persisted and took a 3rd hit to finish it. I lay back and closed my eyes. The noise seemed incredibly loud and I could hear rattling and clanging in the hum. The visuals were just amazing and morphing from shape to angle to shape. The colour purple seemed to be at the center of every formation. Then a sky pushed back out of the pressing kaleidoscope. It was the strangest sky I've ever seen. There was no up or down, I was just floating in infinity. The sky was white, red, blue and green all at the same time. Huge rectangles flying in grid patterns were coming in from both sides of me on a downwards diagonals and passing through/over each other in the middle of my vision. The rectangles were purple with white then red hearts inside them. I felt suddenly relaxed and realized the noise had stopped. Questions were being asked of me, by me?, I don't know. I don't even know what the questions were now. Everything was becoming less intense and then I heard the stereo in my lounge, I opened my eyes. I still had strong visuals but it was lessening by the second. It was over.
I tried to talk to my wife about it, but I can't seem to explain... it seems inexpressible. My mental clarity now is acute, though I think I'm going to sleep really well tonight.
I don't know if I expected entities or out of body experience or what, there is no way reading trip reports could possibly prepare me for what happened. It's only as time is passing I realise the full scope of it, most unusual. Most unusual indeed. I will definitely be looking more through this portal.
Peace and love, out.
J