help with girlfriend

[LearningToFly88]

hey everyone, so its been about 7-8 months since my last mhrb stb extraction and my last times i vaped DMT xtal. DMT has helped me so much from my experiences with it. well now on to the reason im starting this post.... so my girlfriend is a 40 year old who has a decent amount of experience with psychedelics like LSD and Psilocybin. Mainly alot of experience with LSD, i have tripped with her about 10 times on 210 Ug of 98% white fluff laid at 105Ug and she can hold it together rather well. she does tend to somehow almost dose off and fall into a very deep sleep around the peak if she is not up and doing something which is really weird on 2 hits of Amazing LSD while im stuck up alone for a total of 12 hrs tripping.

so back to DMT... she is currently dealing with alot of inner personal issues about grief and not being able to let go about her mother and step fathers deaths a little over 2 years ago. we were talking about this last weekend while we were tripping on L and i brought up the thought of dmt and that it may be able to give her some insight. Now know i know it will probably lead to more questions than answers but the thought of dmt kept coming to my mind that night and its been "calling to me" again since that night. im wondering what you all think about it and her getting to experience this amazing and wonderful plant teacher. Before when i did my extractions and my trips with it she was definitely not even thinking about doing it i think because of it shattering her religious beliefs but she has changed her mind since the other night so i told her i would ask you all what you think. If we do go ahead and do an extraction it will be with ACRB as i am out of MHRB. i have never worked with ACRB but ill brush up on the techs... is there any difference between the 2? is dosage the same? and im wondering if she should work her way up to a breakthrough in a couple trips or go for the "jackpot" right away... i would like to thank you all for your time and appreciate any feedback

 

[turmeric]

On a practical level, Byron Katie and Eckhart Tolle blew my mind more than DMT.
Processing grief and facing entities at the same time is what you have in mind? Good luck with that.

 

[LearningToFly88]

she says its more of a feeling she gets... its the feeling of "them about to come home" i thought it may show her that death isnt the final frontier and she will be able to "let go" of her feelings

 

[fathomlessness]

I remember a story of a guy on here who took Ayahuasca to visit his dead wife. He said felt better after, that talking telepathically with her spirit was therapeutic. Whether it was all just a very convincing imagination in his mind is another matter though.

 

[LearningToFly88]

I remember a story of a guy on here who took Ayahuasca to visit his dead wife. He said felt better after, that talking telepathically with her spirit was therapeutic. Whether it was all just a very convincing imagination in his mind is another matter though.

thats interesting, my thoughts on her experiencing DMT will be to maybe bring some closure to seeing that they are in a better place and that we dont just disappear when we die but we are eternal. I just know what DMT done for me and i think it would benefit her whether it helps her process this problem of hers or not to be honest... To this day besides my son being born, Experiencing DMT was the single most important part and or lesson in my entire life and i am forever in debt to this amazing molecule.... Im excited to do my first ACRB extraction and to find out the differences if i can tell any that is....

 

[turmeric]

...to maybe bring some closure to seeing that they are in a better place and that we dont just disappear when we die but we are eternal.

Good point.

 

[Nathanial.Dread]

Edit - Removed

Blessings
~ND

 

[turmeric]

Others may disagree, but I feel like, in general, vaped DMT isn't great for emotional healing and stuff - it's too much, too fast, with little time for exploration or introspection.

Aya seems more like what she's looking for.

Blessings
~ND

That's another good point :d
LearningToFly88, I found my NDE deeply reassuring while going too far with spice, especially reflecting on the idea that every person I care for has to go through that very same death experience. It made me cry. It made me talk to my parents in a different way, I was paying attention to every sound. And feeling in my body. Made me discover the meaning of the word patience. I decided to kill the reactive me at all costs. And just watch the moment unfold.

 

[TGO]

To be fair, none of us can truly tell you what she should do. It should be 100% her choice, so if she feels ready and would like to have the experience, who are any of us to stand in her way? To add to what ND pointed out above, vaped DMT is intense, but very short acting in comparison to Aya, mushrooms, LSD etc etc. This gives us less time to look at ourselves introspectively which can be good or bad depending on what you are trying to do. She may find what she is looking for or she may find nothing at all, no one really knows.

Personally, I prefer mushrooms when I am trying to come to terms with something but again, that is me. If she has experience with other psychedelics, that will help, but nothing can truly prepare someone for a breakthrough dose of DMT. All of that being said, here at the Nexus, we recommend starting low and building your way up with any substance you are not experienced with. So that is a good place to start.

And as for the differences in MHRB and ACRB, you can achieve a relatively pure DMT freebase from either one. ACRB typically needs a mini A/B cleanup step to produce crystals though. Check out this tek below as it is one of the better ones for ACRB:

ACRB TEK 100g "PICS" (Newbie Friendly) - A/B - Welcome to the DMT-Nexus

Good luck with whatever you guys decide to do.

 

[turmeric]

TGO makes a good case here.

If you're looking for "a solution" you ought to make a mistake unless that decision is backed by a clear intention and comes from that "quiet place" in you/her.

Also, meditation?

 

[LearningToFly88]

About Aya, i tossed around the idea of it to her and i told her it lasts 12 hours but i just did a quick search and found out i was wrong, i found a time of 6-10 hours is that right? she was a little hesitant of the "12 hours" as was i but finding that it is shorter than that she may be more open to it as am i. the one major thing that turns me off about it is the purging, ive threw up when the 10 grams of mushrooms "turned on me" or at least thats what i thought and started throwing up tripping really hard and it wasnt fun... when you purge on aya are you tripping already? i believe i have some syrian rue or something like that around here some where.... guess i should start reading up a little on aya and fill her in. i was a little worried about the intensity of the breakthrough with her because when i first broke through i came back in tears also. its just such a beautiful and awe inspiring place....
and yes i totally agree its her choice, i just told her that i would ask some of your opinions on the subject that is all and im glad i did! i love how helpful everyone is.
thanks for the tek...
mushrooms are a great teacher also and i actually have a monotub going at the moment, i plan to induce fruiting conditions in about 4-5 days so i should be swimming in mushies again soon...and on top of that i have 500 grams of ACRB and 125 hits of some amazing LSD-25 in my head stash so i think it should be an interesting and healing winter
and are you saying set up for a bad trip to find the "solution"?

 

[turmeric]

...and are you saying set up for a bad trip to find the solution?

No, by a solution I mean: a method of solving a problem.

Armed to the teeth, ha? :d Cool monotub :thumb_up:

(Uhm, regarding bad trips... I stick to dʌɪˈazɪpam for emergencies, never really needed 'em though)

 

[LearningToFly88]

...and are you saying set up for a bad trip to find the solution?

No, by a solution I mean: a method of solving a problem.

Armed to the teeth, ha? :d Cool monotub :thumb_up:

(Uhm, regarding bad trips... I stick to dʌɪˈazɪpam for emergencies, never really needed 'em though)

haha sorry im a little medicated on some homegrown white rhino. i have heard of people giving theselves a bad trip intentionally to face their fears and such...and yes i couldnt resist the deal i got for 200 hits of this stuff, and it is some of the best and very accurately laid LSD i have done. it is white fluff laid at 105Ug. I was thinking of getting 100 hits of liquid needlepoint to give a test drive, i have never had liquid or needle point before... and thanks i havet looked at the tub since the pics, i will check it in a couple days. my last one gave me 9 oz cracker dry... i have this one and i will spawn another one in about a week so im looking at over a lb hopefully

 

[332211]

what makes you so sure she ist not going meet some soul sucking, malevolent entity? in her condition she could be scared even deeper, set and setting, my friend.

if you really have to use substances, mdma would be better suited.

 

[LearningToFly88]

what makes you so sure she ist not going meet some soul sucking, malevolent entity? in her condition she could be scared even deeper, set and setting, my friend.

if you really have to use substances, mdma would be better suited.

weell luckily if thats the case i got 2 grams of 84% purity Champagne MDMA from the netherlands so i feel which ever road she decides on it will work out in the end as it ALWAYS DOES....... now with mdma i just dont get it... this "molly/MDMA" is not like the E pills i used to get back in the early 2,000's it seems like there is something missing in it... its missing the "love" side but ramped up on the energy, and yes i have tested it with my test kits and its + for MDMA on both test and the sample turns dark purple/black very quickly and smells of anise

 

[Nathanial.Dread]

weell luckily if thats the case i got 2 grams of 84% purity Champagne MDMA from the netherlands so i feel which ever road she decides on it will work out in the end as it ALWAYS DOES....... now with mdma i just dont get it... this "molly/MDMA" is not like the E pills i used to get back in the early 2,000's it seems like there is something missing in it... its missing the "love" side but ramped up on the energy, and yes i have tested it with my test kits and its + for MDMA on both test and the sample turns dark purple/black very quickly and smells of anise

With exposure and tolerance your experience of MDMA can change - a lot of users report loosing the 'magic' as they get older. Why exactly this is is unknown but it may have nothing to do with the chemical make-up of the drugs and instead be the result of your own evolving brain structure.

That said, just because your test kit showed a purple reaction doesn't tell you anything about the purity of your drug. It tests positive for an MDxx compound, but that could mean that it's just 25% MDxx and 75% flour, or drain cleaner, or meth. Unless you have access to an analytical chemistry lab, purity and contamination are hard things to be sure of.

Blessings
~ND

 

[332211]

cool that you want to help your girlfriend check out this link, maybe helpful:

http://www.mdmaptsd.org/

so i feel which ever road she decides on it will work out in the end as it ALWAYS DOES

nope. it does not always end well. psychedelics are pretty sharp tools and you can cut yourself horrbily with them. what i am reading in the subtext of your post is "nothing can happen" and therefore i guess you are not willing to consider a negative outcome of your adventures.

anyway, just in case:

[Report(s)] A warning to my fellow psychonauts regarding hyperspace entities (wall of text alert!) - DMT - Quality experience reports - Welcome to the DMT-Nexus

 

[Godsmacker]

 

[fathomlessness]

I remember a story of a guy on here who took Ayahuasca to visit his dead wife. He said felt better after, that talking telepathically with her spirit was therapeutic. Whether it was all just a very convincing imagination in his mind is another matter though.

thats interesting, my thoughts on her experiencing DMT will be to maybe bring some closure to seeing that they are in a better place and that we dont just disappear when we die but we are eternal. I just know what DMT done for me and i think it would benefit her whether it helps her process this problem of hers or not to be honest... To this day besides my son being born, Experiencing DMT was the single most important part and or lesson in my entire life and i am forever in debt to this amazing molecule.... Im excited to do my first ACRB extraction and to find out the differences if i can tell any that is....

This might be the thread:

Is is possible to see deceased loved ones on a DMT trip? - Introduction Essay - Welcome to the DMT-Nexus

 

[LearningToFly88]

weell luckily if thats the case i got 2 grams of 84% purity Champagne MDMA from the netherlands so i feel which ever road she decides on it will work out in the end as it ALWAYS DOES....... now with mdma i just dont get it... this "molly/MDMA" is not like the E pills i used to get back in the early 2,000's it seems like there is something missing in it... its missing the "love" side but ramped up on the energy, and yes i have tested it with my test kits and its + for MDMA on both test and the sample turns dark purple/black very quickly and smells of anise

With exposure and tolerance your experience of MDMA can change - a lot of users report loosing the 'magic' as they get older. Why exactly this is is unknown but it may have nothing to do with the chemical make-up of the drugs and instead be the result of your own evolving brain structure.

That said, just because your test kit showed a purple reaction doesn't tell you anything about the purity of your drug. It tests positive for an MDxx compound, but that could mean that it's just 25% MDxx and 75% flour, or drain cleaner, or meth. Unless you have access to an analytical chemistry lab, purity and contamination are hard things to be sure of.

Blessings
~ND

you know what? this really makes sence because a coulple years ago when i was in the depth of addiction i was IV'ing MDMA damn near daily for a while, this went months after months lead to my veins blowing out but the reason i bring this up is because i bet i fucked my brain chemistry up and i also think my anxiety that i deal with now stemms from my mdma abuse. im happy to say that i haven only done mdma 2x's in the past 2.5 years with a 1.5 month break in between and i understand what your saying about the test kit but i got it from a well reviewed DN vendor and im confident its high quality Sass MDMA