I need help

[universecannon]

Re: Strassman. Yes he reports Messiah Complex with deeper doses. I have no quibble with that.

What his work doesn’t answer is, what happens if you go deeper? And deeper? What is in the depths? The mystic swims where the psychotic drowns.

You're still swimming in concepts in these states. King of the multiverse (aka god aka messiah) is a common delusion of grandeur when the ego starts being confronted with the bigger sensation/realization that you are a divine primordial extrusion of the cosmos itself. But if that's true, then it's true for everyone. I understand why it's easy to believe you've reached some unique level of depth, since any new layer is always relatively mind blowing, and sure maybe you are. But to be completely honest this sounds to me more like barely dipping the toes in and the ego crowning itself king of hyperspace.

 

[northape]

Just so you know your not on your own in thinking there is a battle of some kind happening in there !
I often return convinced I've just been in some sort of conflict with another fraction . ??
And yes I am definitely part of one faction , and I am very important and I always feel extremely protected.

So it's not just you that experiences this . I've been experiencing this for a few years . It's beyond doubt that something is happening in there. So relax , you are aware and experienced something 99.99% of humans will never do. That's enough for me .

The battle between good and evil is forever ongoing. It's ultimately an inner battle, and everyone interested should just read the Bhagavad Gita some evening
I don't know about supporting these views in this particular thread, though. I feel one needs a clear head and some distance from the experience to get the right kind of message. When you're fully invested and it starts to crawl into your life, maybe it's time to relax and regroup. That was my point from the beginning.

 

[rkba]

I'm still trying to surf out of the recursive whirlpool of one creating its own reality and therefore there is [n]one. I have not found that crown yet, I will keep looking from my Throne.

 

[together-love]

Just so you know your not on your own in thinking there is a battle of some kind happening in there !
I often return convinced I've just been in some sort of conflict with another fraction . ??
And yes I am definitely part of one faction , and I am very important and I always feel extremely protected.

So it's not just you that experiences this . I've been experiencing this for a few years . It's beyond doubt that something is happening in there. So relax , you are aware and experienced something 99.99% of humans will never do. That's enough for me .

Thank you, brettsta. While I haven’t read many others trip reports, you are the first that I’ve heard that has said do feel this “part of one faction, conflict with another faction”. The way I understood most people’s experiences was of the unity and love, which I also felt for most of my experiences. So one can imagine how alarming it felt to feel such intense conflict. Thank you for sharing. Thank you so much.

 

[together-love]

Sorry, but it sounds like you're drowning here. You have a whole life ahead of you to explore what is in the depths. You don't need any substances for that, either.

Perhaps I am. Time will tell. Thank you for your thoughtfulness and care. I appreciate it. What have you seen in the depths?

 

[northape]

What have you seen in the depths?

More of myself, I guess. It's hard to put into words, yet you know. DMT is part of life, so how can a part be deeper than the whole?
Without you, there is no interdimensional war or anything for that matter. Who are you? That's the real mystery here.

 

[blig-blug]

I'm the King of Tribe B, so be careful