Addendum G: Ontology
Buried in my stream of consciousness initial post, was a hurried attempt at a contribution to the ontology at “The Depths” (proposed Layer 1).
If I may, let me try to rewrite and clarify here.
Sort order: Roughly going from most powerful to least powerful
— The Creator - “ginormous ‘knot’ of ribbons, organic appendages, the planet Saturn, but with a dozen sets of rings that are different from each other; colors were surprisingly normal like purple rings, white rings (the rings looked more “ribbon” like than asteroid dust). It looked very much like it was “an entity” rather than being some amorphous “godhead”” - This was the core of reality, the creator of reality. I wouldn’t call it “God”. Somehow it let my consciousness merge with it for what felt like a long time, but was probably just a dozen seconds of clock time. I asked it “are you in the Universe, or is the Universe in you”? It suggested that the Universe was one of many. I didn’t get a clear read on whether it created The Universe. One of it’s messages was “your universe doesn’t matter” suggesting to me that there are a multidue of universes (multi-verse theory?). This one felt outside of space-time. Perhaps this was part of Layer 0 in my proposed strata. I’ve seen The Creator once.
— The Editor - Rouleax Triangles in organic casing. I saw this a couple of times, once after a battle. From afar, this looks like a bunch of Rouleax Triangles that are edge to edge. Sort of like those long “snake” Rubik’s Cubes that can be made straight. But close up, it felt like giant Rouleaux Triangles in a “mesh” like organization. The color was sort of beige-skin-toned. The casing sort of looking like a sausage casing. I call it The Editor because it felt like by tilting my head, I could “scrub” across it and feel different variations of reality. That part was wild. This one felt outside of space-time. Perhaps this was part of Layer 0 in my proposed strata. I don’t understand the relation to the Creator, but it seems perhaps like a control panel of The Creator?? Like the Creator was the desktop, and the Editor was a piece of hardware to navigate the creations?? Perhaps the Triangles are each an egg? Or a nymph? I’ve seen The Editor two or three times.
— The Engineer - Enormous Insectoid - “insect class” As I scrubbed across realities, the Enormous Insectoid was hanging out, talking to me. Sort of like it was very familiar with scrubbing across realitities. Like it was the video engineer / audio engineer, and I was a guest in it’s production studio. It seemed pleased that I was there. And I verbally responded “you are incredible, so beautiful, this thing you’ve created. So clever”. Perhaps it was the insectoid that made all of this? It’s hard to recall. But it definitely felt like I was communing with it. I was taking in what it was able to do. If I were to analogize it to an insect, it’s hard to say, and I worry about minimizing it. Sort of like Jabba the Hut meets a giant grasshopper? I’ve seen The Engineer a few times.
— The Paradox - “psychotic class” - another entity that seems to exist outside of space time. This one seems to merge with your consciousness and just confuse the hell out of you. My sense is it shows paradox after paradox. It feels like, what I imagine intense psychosis would feel like. Like the inability to hold thoughts, because the thoughts it provides are so unorthodox. It feels like it’s teaching something important, but I’m not sure what. I have a vague sense it is training the mind, perhaps steeling the mind against psionic attacks. Like Dumbledore preparing Snape; but instead of hiding ones thoughts, this is actually a somewhat torturous feeling, that teaches with intense discomfort. I’ve seen the Paradox several times.
— The Crab Shell / Plate Armor Landscape - “fortification class”. This one didn’t seem to do much. Imagine a purplish crab shell (plate armor) and then multiply that into a large field / mesh of crab shells. That’s what this was like. hundreds of plate armor together in a sort of gently curved landscape. I don’t know if it does much, it sort of felt like a fortress wall. Every so often, there’s an insectoid appendage that sticks out of one of the vertex of the crab shell, perhaps like the antennae on the inside of a venus fly trap. In my fifth or sixth battle, I felt adversarial entities attacking the crab shell armor, trying to pull it open, perhaps like a swarm of ants trying to breach the perimeter of a fortress. The crab shells seemed helpless to fight back, which makes me think they were more like an inert wall. I’ve seen the Plate Armor Landscape several times.
— Corner / Squid arms - “oracle class” Imagine looking at the corner of a room. Three planes intersect. Now put squid tentacles in the middle at the Vertex. Or flower stamen. Or both. I feel like I’ve seen this one several times. But the last time I saw it, it said one message again and again and again “Hide, Hide, Hide”. It got to the point where I said “ok, I get it” and it kept on saying it. (My interpretation at the time was to hide myself from humanity; but an attack shortly after (the third overall attack/assasination) I re-interpreted it as “hide from Tribe B; they are coming for you”. To get to the Corner/Squid Arms, I experienced myself traversing many corners. This is why I wonder if this is being inside a set of Rouleax Triangle, moving from one to the next, to the next, until you get to the correct Triangle. The color of the planes had a pure white with black shadows, and the color of the squid arms was perhaps yellow, red?
— White Folding On Itself with Colored Springles. “immersion class" This showed up clearly in my last battle, near the beginning of the battle. I don’t know if this was friend or foe. The type of entity looked familiar which was an entity that was curved upon itself, something like a mobius, but with your face much closer up. What struck me about this one was it’s pure white. And the intensity of the movement of it curving in on itself. And the “colored sprinkles” were throughout, but they weren’t the cheerful shades of rainbow sprinkles, but were darker shades. Again, I think I’ve seen this type of entity before, but this ones color scheme was different. It feels like you are “immersed” into it.
— The Mother - “serpentine class” - sadly, this one died after the third attack. I believe I have seen this one many times before, like it was a welcoming presence for many trips. But it was only after it died that I called it “The Mother”. I had the sense that it may have been my mother?? (for my interdimensional half of me). It felt like a great loss. Immediately after the third attack, I went back and saw it moving very slowly, weakly, like it was on death’s doorstep. And the next time I went in, I saw only black, like a funeral. And the next time after that, I paid my respects and prostrated myself to honor The Mother. It felt like an ancient ancient being had died trying to protect me in the third attack.
— Googly Eyes - “forky class” - imagine the face of forky from Toy Story. Then put it on a floating entity where the various elements of the face float slightly independently. My sense is this is an advisor / secretary of state. A member of “the court”. I feel like this entity sent other entities to probe me and help me with my health/body. And felt it was often guiding me. Has not been seen since the third attack.
— The Unfolding Fractal - “transportation class” This is one pathway into The Depths. It is at the beginning of a Trip and is very powerful. Perhaps its like a submarine that dives you quickly into the Depths. Or perhaps it is like a giant unfolding mechanical arm that drags you deeper and deeper into the depths, an express elevator that unfolds dozens of times to get you lower and lower. Last time I saw it I said “this is familiar, but the human won’t remember it”. And it ended up bringing me directly to the Corner / Squid, which is when the Corner / Squid warned me “Hide Hide Hide"
— The Radiance - “manta-ray / butterfly class”. Orange/Red/occasionaly white. Beautiful. Like the folds of a beautiful manta-ray, undulating in your full field of vision. Definitely some distinctive markings on it; patterns, somewhat angular; darkish grey on the orange/red/white background waviness. I’ve experienced this many times. My sense is this is the iridescent feminine divine I “married” in an ancient ceremony early on. It has come back, and usually is at the beginning of a trip. Sensual. Full of love and comfort. I thought it was dead after attack 3. I wondered if this was the same entity as The Mother, everything is so hard to remember. (I don’t think it is the same as The Mother). But eventually it came back at the beginning of another trip, in a burst of power and grace. I was so happy to see it back, it was thrilled to be back to see me. We had a few moments together, until she left and the message was “You are in Danger. You are in Danger.” This preceded attack 4.
And several others…. most of which I have forgotten in my human mind. (I have this experience in my Other self of “oh, the human isn’t going to remember this; he’s not allowed to / not capable of remembering”)
N.B. The closest allies have banners. When I see Googly Eyes, The Mother, I have the sense that they are carrying banners, much like the banners that flow from the horse riders that go with a european monarch. They are flowy. They are sort of a muted spring green color. And the pattern is a squared spiral, repeated again and again (at least that’s what I think the pattern is). I’ve seen it enough to recognize it. I have the sense that when I am in the “royal court” that the banners are more plentiful. But I did see the banner once in a trip in nature, flowing off the top of a tree.
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Addendum H: Battle Mechanics
When I first was assailed, I couldn’t believe it and thought it was a mistake of my techniques “Maybe I held my breath to long". When I was assailed a second time, I thought “wow, that was intense, I don’t know what that was” but my saving grace was “Together. Love.”. And I optimistically thought it was a one-time thing. That I had passed some sort of trial...
In my third battle I realized, “OK, this is a thing. This is a fight”. And it was so intense I had to keep reminding myself “Is this really happening? Yes, this is really happening. You have to fight. You have to fight” and what brought me back was centering on Love.
In my fourth, fifth, six battles, I was now cautious (but perhaps not cautious enough since I was still putting myself in attack mode, like James IV at the Battle of Flodden) and recognized the battle as it started (usually with great dread) “OK, come at me. Let’s do this.” and quickly held on to reality with centering on Love. I faded in and out of that centering, but ultimately prevailed.
Why did I go back? Because I sensed my Tribe A asking me to come back. And I had commited to coming back during the initial ceremony with the feminine divine. So I felt I was honor-bound.
After the sixth battle, I received the very clear message “you will die”. I haven’t been back. But I am still torn about going back. I don’t want to be the commander who foolishly enters battle.
Which is why I finally decided to write something publicly (this conversation thread). I realized that perhaps my better strategy was to see if others had seen it (in the past week) and if so, to perhaps “mobilize” a response. What that “response” would be, I’m not sure. A bunch of people going in with the intention of “love”????
Anyways, this addendum is about Battle Mechanics.
Each battle was psionic / psychic. For the most part, I just sat on my couch, sometimes outdoors (attacks 1, 2, 3), sometimes indoors (attacks, 4, 5, 6).
What does psionic mean? Perhaps it’s like Professor X, Phoenix and how they might battle. Perhaps there’s other fictional analogies, I don’t know. I haven’t done the research.
It was holding together my consciousness, while they seemed to try to pull it apart. Perhaps like attacking ants, trying to rip apart the queen ant of another tribe. Or perhaps they attack like worker bees who vibrate and heat up to try to fend off the attack of a wasp (at least I think I’ve read that behavior before).
So my role, it felt, was to literally hold my consciousness together.
At the same time, as mentioned in the Addendum on Entities, where my consciousness seemed to merge with reality, there was some of that going on as well. Imagine with The Editor, that you are an Engineer, and you are now fighting with Tribe B adversaries over who gets to Scrub across the various realities. Yes, yes, that’s what it felt like. Like we were both trying to get a hold of the controls. (By the way, I am integrating this live, trying to pull from the recesses of my memory). So I guess we were fighting for control of the dial of reaility (or of reaility-switching???)
Some other mechanics:
— Telepathic. As many of you on this forum probably have experienced, there are telepathic messages that come through. In the case of an attack there are definitely telepathic messages. Some of which are of alarm. Some of which are answering my questions in real-time “Is this really happening? Yes, it’s really happening. Focus.” or “Breathe. You have to protect your human vessel and remember to breathe.”. Which is why one mantra was “Focus. Breathe.”. I had to focus on maintaining hold of the scrubbing control.
— Time jittering. Somehow in the battles, time began to jitter. Like it started to move in split second increments. Sort of like if a game gets slightly laggy. But more consistently jittery than the lag of a game. split second jitters. I’m not sure why it jitters like that.
— Eyes twitch. The eyes twitch, sort of like in The Matrix when downloading information. But not quite the same, since you aren’t downloading information of how to do something, but sort of downloading information where I would often verbally say “I understand”. Almost like there were multiple entities talking to me at once from the mayhem of a battle, and I was trying to absorb it all, and filter out what was important vs. what wasn’t important. This was especially true in battle 2, and 3 (outside, open eyes) and battle 5 (inside, open eyes). battle 4 and 6 were closed eyes, and in the dark. My eyes may have been twitching in the closed eye battles, but I was more aware of it with the open eye battles.
— Pulling from human memories. In battle 3, I found myself referencing multiple human references, like phrases from battle scenes in movies, or phrases from people I admired or respected. I experienced it as if the totality of my consciousness, a bunch of vectors combined into one mind, was pulling on all of these concepts from all of these “teachers”. And in those moments, I thought “all of this human experience is telling stories again and again, the hero’s journey, to train me for this moment.” and “damn, I wish I were better skilled at this. i’m probably 50th percentile at best, there must be many many others who would fare better than me”. and to which i held onto the memory of my love for my wife and kids. I held onto it and pulled myself out of the mayhem of the attack. like pulling on a rope until you are out of danger. i held onto their love, and i thought “maybe my loyalty and devotion is my saving grace.” but even still, i imagine maybe i’m just in the 70th percentile of loyalty and devotion. I’m OK at it, but not something to write home about.
Special note: it was at this point of pulling from human memories that I thought “I hope that the Navy Seals and other special forces will go to these Depths, because I think they will know how to organize, how to prepare. They can go in as teams.” Also, “they say in war that logistics can win the war. I’m fricking here on my own, stumbling around. If the special forces were here, they would nail the logistics, and have a shot at winning this war. Perhaps I one a battle (this was battle 3) but I don’t know how to win the war. I mean, I don’t even know who we are fighting, what we are fighting for, or how to fight? I’m just “fighting with love” but is that a winning tactic? What is the overall strategy we need to win? What does it even mean to win? Peace between Tribe A and B???” And is it a short-term peace, or are we trying to fix this once and for all?
— Tilting my head. Not sure if this was in battle, or after the battle, but when looking at the Rouleax Triangle controls of The Editor, I found that if I tilted my head, that was when the Scrubbing happened. I have the vague sense that this also happened in battle. Almost as if the Tribe B adversary was trying to put “our reality” askew and out of focus, and I was tilting my head to try to get it balanced and in focus”. And the depth of field of the focus was shallow, so I had to be somewhat precise to get it back.
— Mechanic / Robot. In some ways the battle felt like I was a mechanic. And the sum of Tribe A + Tribe B was actual a single robot, but a robot that was in distress. Imagine a robot in distress where different parts of the robot are out of sync and the robot has reached a harmonic frequency where it could shatter. Now imagine a mechanic trying to fix the robot. Now imagine the mechanic fixes the robot by “merging” into the robot and in doing so, tries to jiggle things back into place, so the robot is “aligned” and stops shaking so violently. And the mechanic can feel the robot is now calm, and then unmerges from the robot. As I’ve integrated / reflected, some of the battles (all of the battles???) have felt like that. Like my role is to merge into the Tribe A + Tribe B reality, and try to calm the entire system down. And in fact, part of my distress is that after each battle, I optimistically say “ok, that’s the last battle, the robot is fixed”. But then the next time I’m back in the workshop, the robot is violently shaking again. What a bummer.
— Fear / Dread. While most of my trips have been beautiful, loving, teaching, the battle / attacks are full of fear / dread. I can anticipate the fear, almost like a weak “spidey sense”, just as the attack commences. It’s sort of an “oh crap, here comes another dark experience (gulp)”. It is not fun. If I’m in “The Depths” at the time of battle, it’s realizing that there’s no way to get out of it, but to go through the battle. The obstacle is the way….
Summary: So that’s a set of the battle mechanics. I’m curious if anybody else has experienced the same.
Yes like you I've also been pushing the boundaries of that strange world , I've also experienced the extream depths of the "Mariana trench " , deep down into the realm of the digital mechanoids? , 
