Hi all,
I wanted to share my first true breakthrough experience.
The setup was actually surprisingly simple. I have a 1:1 cart and a variable voltage vaporiser -- I set it to 3.2V. I wasn't even thinking of a breakthrough. I took 2 inhalations -- 7 seconds in and 7 seconds hold. I was originally planning to go for 3, but after just 2 I realised that I was far too gone. I barely had enough presence to put my vape down, and I continued looking down at the stopwatch on my phone -- I was timing my inhalation. It's not like I didn't have anything else in the surrounding area to look at, but I was just sorta no longer in control. Soon enough, I remember that my eyes closed on their own. And what happened next... Oh, words do not exist to describe it. Colours. Geometries. Entities. There was absolutely no doubt in my mind that it was a true breakthrough. I feel like it has to be the absolute pinnacle of what any life can possibly experience, in terms of richness and beauty. I should also note that it was very different from my earlier vapourhuasca experience. It felt much more abstract. Less teaching, it was almost as though the other side simply revealed itself to me in a form of an incomprehensible and unsolvable riddle. It felt like I saw the ultimate foundation of everything in this universe. But I had no idea what to make of it. And I feel like I didn't have to. And I felt like it's okay. After what felt like an absolute eternity, I slowly began to regain sense of me existing on the other side somewhere. I remember the first thing I realised was the tension in my face -- I was smiling. I opened my eyes and everything was... almost stamped with some geometric patterns. I was shocked when I realised that only 3 minutes and 3 seconds passed since I first inhaled. I closed my eyes again and returned into the world. For some strange reason my mind wondered if I could have a bad trip like that. The moment I thought about it, I began to see what can be best described as decaying vegetation of some sort. For a brief second I was worried that the experience may be turning sour, but I leaned into it: I told myself that I must embrace this in all absolutely all shapes, I must surrender to the experience unconditionally -- there is simply no good and bad in this world, not beauty and ugliness, there is just the sheer existence of it, and that's a miracle, it will always be a miracle (note: going forward, there is something else that I could do -- I could remember that I have the control of my emotional space and I can choose to focus on love, love for whatever comes). I felt warm at that moment. By about the 6 minute mark, I was mostly back to our world. But I was shaking. I was stunned.
I heard stories of some people saying that they'd see the DMT world, appreciate it and would never want to go back. Or they wouldn't want to go back for a long time. While I feel like what I saw has left me with a jaw-dropping impression, I feel intrigued to learn more about this world. Come closer to it. Welcome it into my heart.
I was stunned by the fact that I can have a breakthrough on a vape like this. I concluded that a vape can only deliver a threshold experience at best, and I was even beginning to investigate the idea of building my own version of the machine for a breakthrough. But I didn't even have to take 3 hits to get there.
Lastly, I know I'm preaching to the converted, but... DMT... DMT is the true pinnacle. At least that's what I felt like. I felt it in my bones. This is the closest thing that exists in this world to pure magic. And this magic is more magnificent than anyone imagined.
I wanted to share my first true breakthrough experience.
The setup was actually surprisingly simple. I have a 1:1 cart and a variable voltage vaporiser -- I set it to 3.2V. I wasn't even thinking of a breakthrough. I took 2 inhalations -- 7 seconds in and 7 seconds hold. I was originally planning to go for 3, but after just 2 I realised that I was far too gone. I barely had enough presence to put my vape down, and I continued looking down at the stopwatch on my phone -- I was timing my inhalation. It's not like I didn't have anything else in the surrounding area to look at, but I was just sorta no longer in control. Soon enough, I remember that my eyes closed on their own. And what happened next... Oh, words do not exist to describe it. Colours. Geometries. Entities. There was absolutely no doubt in my mind that it was a true breakthrough. I feel like it has to be the absolute pinnacle of what any life can possibly experience, in terms of richness and beauty. I should also note that it was very different from my earlier vapourhuasca experience. It felt much more abstract. Less teaching, it was almost as though the other side simply revealed itself to me in a form of an incomprehensible and unsolvable riddle. It felt like I saw the ultimate foundation of everything in this universe. But I had no idea what to make of it. And I feel like I didn't have to. And I felt like it's okay. After what felt like an absolute eternity, I slowly began to regain sense of me existing on the other side somewhere. I remember the first thing I realised was the tension in my face -- I was smiling. I opened my eyes and everything was... almost stamped with some geometric patterns. I was shocked when I realised that only 3 minutes and 3 seconds passed since I first inhaled. I closed my eyes again and returned into the world. For some strange reason my mind wondered if I could have a bad trip like that. The moment I thought about it, I began to see what can be best described as decaying vegetation of some sort. For a brief second I was worried that the experience may be turning sour, but I leaned into it: I told myself that I must embrace this in all absolutely all shapes, I must surrender to the experience unconditionally -- there is simply no good and bad in this world, not beauty and ugliness, there is just the sheer existence of it, and that's a miracle, it will always be a miracle (note: going forward, there is something else that I could do -- I could remember that I have the control of my emotional space and I can choose to focus on love, love for whatever comes). I felt warm at that moment. By about the 6 minute mark, I was mostly back to our world. But I was shaking. I was stunned.
I heard stories of some people saying that they'd see the DMT world, appreciate it and would never want to go back. Or they wouldn't want to go back for a long time. While I feel like what I saw has left me with a jaw-dropping impression, I feel intrigued to learn more about this world. Come closer to it. Welcome it into my heart.
I was stunned by the fact that I can have a breakthrough on a vape like this. I concluded that a vape can only deliver a threshold experience at best, and I was even beginning to investigate the idea of building my own version of the machine for a breakthrough. But I didn't even have to take 3 hits to get there.
Lastly, I know I'm preaching to the converted, but... DMT... DMT is the true pinnacle. At least that's what I felt like. I felt it in my bones. This is the closest thing that exists in this world to pure magic. And this magic is more magnificent than anyone imagined.
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