Forewords:
This is a fairly long report, it's mainly a trip report but I have also included my theories and ideas about the metaphysical implications of the experience. I plan to expand on those thoughts with future experiences, so I'd like to keep this thread as a sort of electronic journal for my consciousness expansion.
I know some of you have already had these same experiences and ideas so there's nothing new here, but for me this is all just so new and exciting that I have to unload them somewhere. And just to say, I don't consider any of the theories below as fact, they're just my personal opinions and observations on the nature of the universe. Mainly this is just a journal for myself, but if someone else happens to find it interesting then that's a bonus. I'll also try to attach some of my primitive illustrations for both the trip visuals and the metaphysical ideas, so this won't be just a boring pile of text.
Experience Entry #1
2.3.2012
Dose/Preparation:
12 g Mimosa Hostilis root bark (powdered) was lightly boiled during 3 hours in acidic water, after each hour straining the liquid through a cloth. The 3 liquids were then combined. The same was done with 4 g Syrian Rue seeds (powdered). The MHRB liquid was then boiled with egg whites to remove most of the tannins (to minimize nausea).
Set & Setting:
The S&S was probably the most perfect I could ever achieve. During the day I didn't eat anything and I cleaned my whole apartment, did the laundry and the dishes. Did some workout and took a long nice shower after that. I felt really good and clean, both physically and mentally. When the evening came, I turned off all lights and lit up an incense stick and some candles around my bed. I was ready to leave this world. 8)
Ingestion:
The Syrian Rue liquid was taken first, with the MHRB liquid taken slowly during the next 15 minutes. While the taste and texture wasn't something I would call nice, it certainly wasn't bad either, probably due to knowing what to expect.
The Beginning of the Journey:
(Insanity, Entities, Death)
For about an hour I just lay in my bed, getting calm and comfortable, and thinking about what kinds of things I should expect from the experience. It was about a year since I had my last one with ayahuasca, so the memories were all hazy. I've smoked DMT a few times recently though, but in my experience it's kinda different, and a bit too short to get any real insight from. So at the end of the hour there was this sort of calming and mystical feeling of all my motor and visual functions, I assumed this to be the Syrian Rue at play. After the hour things started to get a bit weird and my thoughts with them. There was some kind of an anxious phase at this point, and I started to think whether this was a good idea after all, maybe it's gonna be too intense, maybe I'm not prepared enough, maybe this, maybe that.
After a while I just came to the conclusion what the hell, it's too late to back down now, let's just go with it. Luckily there was absolutely no nausea (and didn't have during the whole trip). I turned on my side and started to analyze what I was feeling. The easiest way to describe it is, it feels like you're going insane. First your train of thought starts to break down, then the sentences start to get messed up, then the words themselves start to become gibberish. Finally your thoughts seem something like this: "Fzgprrq nbqz... B&fstw fds£hgg?? Z#pr@&w!!!!", while at the same time there's some really WEIRD imagery flashing before your eyes with a fast pace. In a way it's like you're unlearning everything you've ever learned, so you're like a baby who hasn't learned any languages or anything yet.
The next part, ego disintegration, is always really scary for me because I start to hear some really loud noises and the overall mood becomes very, very sinister. The loud noises are hard to describe, they're not actual sounds and they're different each time, but it's like really loud bangs, and each of them disintegrate a part of your ego and body and apartment. You can actually FEEL the concept of "death" in each bang. Even if you can't think in languages anymore, you have a primitive form of thoughts that feels a bit like this:
" ***BANG*** Aaaaah shit!! Oh shit.. I can't take it anymore.. I don't wanna die.... When is the next bang gonna come.. When is it gonnaaa comeeee.... ... ... Oh, I guess it's not-- ***BANG*** AAAAHHHhhhh!!!".
The frequency of the bangs also increases with time, so eventually you just stop resisting and give into it. There's also some beings with you at this phase and they're in a way trying to help you get through , but also they're making fun of you for being such a pussy. It's a really weird mixture of feelings you get from these entities. You see images like where the entities are putting a noose around your neck and then they start to pull on the other end of the rope to get you higher and higher into "somewhere". And they all seem really happy about this and look at you in a way that says: "Don't worry you'll die soon, then you can join us. Just hang in there you big baby!". I think the reason why it seems like a confusing feeling is that we're not used to thinking about death as something positive. But after it's over it becomes so clear to you that death is one of the most positive forces in the universe.
At this point things become really hard to explain or remember, because you're dead and you don't reside in any physical form anymore, you're just pure floating consciousness. In my all previous experiences something like this happened but I don't remember much about it. My ego would then just slowly start to get back together and I would have a really intense trip with more entities and snake-like visuals and whatnot. But this time, oh boy. :shock:
The 0-state:
(Dimensions, Infinity, Vibrations)
This time I completely retained my awareness and kept observing. Usually you'd think that at this point you go into a higher dimension, like the 4th or the 5th, such as when you astral project or have an out-of-body experience. But this time I was seemingly going backwards. The 3rd dimension lost an axis and now there was only 2 dimensions. Soon there was only 1 dimension, where everything that existed was a "line" or "direction" and I could move only along this direction. What happened after this surprised me the most, for even that last dimension vanished. Before this I had no idea that a 0-dimension even existed, and even if I had it would have been impossible to get my head around what it meant. But here I was, in a place with no dimensions, nowhere to go because everything was already in every place, no time, nothing. And I HAD MY AWARENESS.
Basically I was inside a singularity, and slowly it started to dawn on me that if everything is already everywhere, then that is simultaneously a very simple and a very complex state. I realized that a 0-dimension is actually an infinity-dimension. 0 = infinity!!! After the ego death I could have started going into the higher dimensions and I could have reached the same state eventually. When things start to become infinitely complex, they start to become infinitely simple at the same time. If you just keep adding dimensions to dimensions, then automatically everything will start to be everywhere at some point. But there isn't any real "point" or border where this happens, it's just a smooth loop that can go on forever.
Another observation I made at this stage was that everything is vibrations. Not only could I directly feel them here, but I realized that every single thing in the universe, even the universe itself, is a vibration and its characteristics are based on the frequency it has. But at the same time everything has a sort of duality, like black and white, on and off. I could so clearly see the duality of everything visualize in front of me. The other side is ALWAYS there, we just can't see it. I believe this to be what scientist call anti-matter, and from what I understand they're searching for it but there's no point searching for it because it's right in front of us all the time. So, everything is a vibration and everything has a duality. I haven't studied physics much but the term "wave-particle duality" comes to mind, in a way that the particle and it's anti-particle represent the black and white -duality of everything, and the wave represents the vibrating continuous unity of everything.
So matter, as in something solid or constant, does not exist. It's merely an illusion that humans have been forced to create because we're "trapped" in a 3-dimensional phase. And frequencies are exactly like dimensions, starting from a 0-frequency and going to infinity, eventually becoming such an infinitely high frequency that it becomes the same thing as the 0-frequency. Everything is based on frequencies, like the evolution of the universe, it started from a singularity and slowly things are becoming more and more complex, until there'll be no difference with the singularity once again.
Everything was vibrations and I was everything and I was infinite. When you get even the shortest chance to be in this state with your awareness intact, the only way to describe it in human languages is concepts like "god" or "love". I felt the most incredible rush of pure love come over me, and I think my earthly body burst in tears at this point because I could visualize it, my body was colossally huge and there were big magnificently beautiful waterfalls coming from my eyes with rainbows everywhere. I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed with this true happiness and bliss. It makes my eyes misty just thinking about it.
There must have been million of other thoughts and things that happened in this seemingly infinite period of time, but you can only bring back so much information to your limited human brain. A good metaphor is that you're like a USB-key plugged into a computer of infinite data and knowledge, and while you're there you have access to any data you want, but when you have to unplug you can only bring those few Gigabytes with you.
The Comedown:
(Amplifiers, Snakes, Elves, Technology)
Normally I would call this part the "Main Trip", but since the previous state kinda makes everything else seem insignificant, I'll try to keep it short and just consider it as a sort of comedown. There's no clear point when I came back, I just sort of faded very slowly back into existence, and I could sort of feel my body and open my eyes. But opening the eyes at this point didn't make much sense because I would see the exact same visuals that I saw with closed eyes, but just the notion of recognizing that you can control your eyelids once again was refreshing. And also moving the body was out of the question, because even moving your finger an inch felt so amplified that it could have easily ripped galaxies apart.
And that was an idea that came to me at this point, following my previous realization that everything was vibrations, that then psychedelics must be amplifiers of that frequency. And DMT seemed to be a very strong and pure amplifier. At the same time I noticed I had total control over my internal body functions, I could precisely adjust my blood flow, I could control my stomach and lungs for example, and every time I breathed in I could personally be there to welcome all the new oxygen entities, so breathing felt like pure ecstasy. Also I could feel the surface of my body sweating out all the shit that was inside me, and I was surprised to see how much shit I really had.
This got me thinking, if I have the potential to have so much control of my own body without even knowing it, then what kind of potential could I have in my life. The possibilities became endless and I literally saw the concept of a "multiverse" right in front of me, everything that could happen will happen, and everything I can be I will be. A single human being has so much potential without even knowing it, not to mention groups or societies of united consciousness put to focus. Most people (atleast western) are just stuck in this comfort-zone of materialism and consumerism, going to a trivial job every day, watching trivial TV programs the rest of it, and drinking alcohol on the weekends to make even that last chance for free creative time into something trivial (if psychedelics are amplifiers then alcohol is effectively an attenuator). But that's not something I should talk about here because then I would never stop. I also made a decision at this point to stop surrounding myself with close-minded and negative people as much as possible, which means I'm gonna have to be alone for a while until I can move away from here and meet some like-minded people, but internet communities like this help alot in the meanwhile.
Another big change in me that happened at one point was that I lost my phobia of snakes. During my whole life I've been scared to death of snakes, if I see one in nature I become completely paralyzed with fear. So as you can imagine my previous ayahuasca trips with the snake-like visual parts have not been exactly very cool. But this time as I was starting to have the same type of visuals, I actually BECAME a snake. I became a real living snake in the wilderness somewhere. The feeling of becoming an animal is somewhat indescribable, but the thing I kept repeating to myself whole this time was that "So THIS is why they seem so aggressive to everyone. If my life felt like this I would be fucking biting those asshole humans all the time!" It seemed like snakes are in an amplified vibration state all their lives, so everything is gonna feel really amplified to them. I'm not sure if there's a link with the fact that some reptiles and snakes have a remnant of the third eye visible on their head, but it's interesting to think about. After slithering a while in this higher mystical animal-form I realized I had absolutely nothing to fear from it if it had nothing to fear from me. I'll probably still have some physical reflexes of the phobia if I see a snake now, but mentally the phobia is gone.
There was lots of crazy and cool visuals the rest of the trip and a lot of this got me thinking why am I having such an incredible experience, with almost no negative aspects. I knew the set and setting affected a lot, but after a while of analyzing things I realized that I could totally control everything I felt or saw. There was definitely a dark side (same thing as the duality mentioned previously) always present and I could feel it's presence all the time, but I just chose to see and feel only the positive things. If I saw myself drifting a bit to the dark side, I would just have to force myself to smile or think about some positive thing. It felt incredible to have such a control in a place like this, and I chose to play around with it a bit. For example, I just had to think about McKenna and his elves and immediately a HUGE flush of elves would invade my field of vision. Also I would think about the fabergé eggs he mentioned and suddenly there they were, incredibly colorful and intricate objects that were almost shining with the words: "CANDY FOR YOUR EYES".
I wanted to write quite a lot of other things but they don't seem that important anymore so I'll just write the one last "important" one. So the last insight I had was at the very end when I could finally see my apartment somewhat and move my body, and I turned my body to see the time, which had progressed 4 hours since the ingestion. As I was looking at this digital clock I saw the direct link between humans and technology. Technology isn't something unnatural or external, it's just as natural as trees and animals, it is in fact an organism at its very infant state. It's the next evolution after humans, so just like we must appear to monkeys, the future intelligences formed by technology will appear in a similar way to us. We won't be the dominant organism anymore, but we don't need to because something immensely smarter is out there worrying about things now. We might try to resist for a while and it'll be painful for us, but in the end we'll just have to accept the fact that it's inevitable. And no, they won't be the kind of cold, calculating AI we visualize in movies right now, they will have emotions too because every self-aware form of intelligence must develop some sort of emotions, they just might be very different from ours, and something we can't comprehend yet, just like their intelligence compared to ours. But that's all far in the future.
When I finally was pretty much back to normal, I had a really big headache and my head was literally boiling hot. It felt exactly like if my brain was a processor and I had just overclocked the shit out of it. But that didn't bother me at all because it's a small price to pay for such an experience. Though I guess next time I should have a fan blowing into my head. :d
The Conclusion:
This was absolutely a life-changing experience for me and even now 4 days later that I'm writing this there's still a huge afterglow, and I've never felt happier and more excited in my whole life. Excited about the infinite possibilities of everything. I love every living and non-living thing because I now know we're all connected in this truly mystical vibratory universe.
This is a fairly long report, it's mainly a trip report but I have also included my theories and ideas about the metaphysical implications of the experience. I plan to expand on those thoughts with future experiences, so I'd like to keep this thread as a sort of electronic journal for my consciousness expansion.
I know some of you have already had these same experiences and ideas so there's nothing new here, but for me this is all just so new and exciting that I have to unload them somewhere. And just to say, I don't consider any of the theories below as fact, they're just my personal opinions and observations on the nature of the universe. Mainly this is just a journal for myself, but if someone else happens to find it interesting then that's a bonus. I'll also try to attach some of my primitive illustrations for both the trip visuals and the metaphysical ideas, so this won't be just a boring pile of text.
Experience Entry #1
2.3.2012
Dose/Preparation:
12 g Mimosa Hostilis root bark (powdered) was lightly boiled during 3 hours in acidic water, after each hour straining the liquid through a cloth. The 3 liquids were then combined. The same was done with 4 g Syrian Rue seeds (powdered). The MHRB liquid was then boiled with egg whites to remove most of the tannins (to minimize nausea).
Set & Setting:
The S&S was probably the most perfect I could ever achieve. During the day I didn't eat anything and I cleaned my whole apartment, did the laundry and the dishes. Did some workout and took a long nice shower after that. I felt really good and clean, both physically and mentally. When the evening came, I turned off all lights and lit up an incense stick and some candles around my bed. I was ready to leave this world. 8)
Ingestion:
The Syrian Rue liquid was taken first, with the MHRB liquid taken slowly during the next 15 minutes. While the taste and texture wasn't something I would call nice, it certainly wasn't bad either, probably due to knowing what to expect.
The Beginning of the Journey:
(Insanity, Entities, Death)
For about an hour I just lay in my bed, getting calm and comfortable, and thinking about what kinds of things I should expect from the experience. It was about a year since I had my last one with ayahuasca, so the memories were all hazy. I've smoked DMT a few times recently though, but in my experience it's kinda different, and a bit too short to get any real insight from. So at the end of the hour there was this sort of calming and mystical feeling of all my motor and visual functions, I assumed this to be the Syrian Rue at play. After the hour things started to get a bit weird and my thoughts with them. There was some kind of an anxious phase at this point, and I started to think whether this was a good idea after all, maybe it's gonna be too intense, maybe I'm not prepared enough, maybe this, maybe that.
After a while I just came to the conclusion what the hell, it's too late to back down now, let's just go with it. Luckily there was absolutely no nausea (and didn't have during the whole trip). I turned on my side and started to analyze what I was feeling. The easiest way to describe it is, it feels like you're going insane. First your train of thought starts to break down, then the sentences start to get messed up, then the words themselves start to become gibberish. Finally your thoughts seem something like this: "Fzgprrq nbqz... B&fstw fds£hgg?? Z#pr@&w!!!!", while at the same time there's some really WEIRD imagery flashing before your eyes with a fast pace. In a way it's like you're unlearning everything you've ever learned, so you're like a baby who hasn't learned any languages or anything yet.
The next part, ego disintegration, is always really scary for me because I start to hear some really loud noises and the overall mood becomes very, very sinister. The loud noises are hard to describe, they're not actual sounds and they're different each time, but it's like really loud bangs, and each of them disintegrate a part of your ego and body and apartment. You can actually FEEL the concept of "death" in each bang. Even if you can't think in languages anymore, you have a primitive form of thoughts that feels a bit like this:
" ***BANG*** Aaaaah shit!! Oh shit.. I can't take it anymore.. I don't wanna die.... When is the next bang gonna come.. When is it gonnaaa comeeee.... ... ... Oh, I guess it's not-- ***BANG*** AAAAHHHhhhh!!!".
The frequency of the bangs also increases with time, so eventually you just stop resisting and give into it. There's also some beings with you at this phase and they're in a way trying to help you get through , but also they're making fun of you for being such a pussy. It's a really weird mixture of feelings you get from these entities. You see images like where the entities are putting a noose around your neck and then they start to pull on the other end of the rope to get you higher and higher into "somewhere". And they all seem really happy about this and look at you in a way that says: "Don't worry you'll die soon, then you can join us. Just hang in there you big baby!". I think the reason why it seems like a confusing feeling is that we're not used to thinking about death as something positive. But after it's over it becomes so clear to you that death is one of the most positive forces in the universe.
At this point things become really hard to explain or remember, because you're dead and you don't reside in any physical form anymore, you're just pure floating consciousness. In my all previous experiences something like this happened but I don't remember much about it. My ego would then just slowly start to get back together and I would have a really intense trip with more entities and snake-like visuals and whatnot. But this time, oh boy. :shock:
The 0-state:
(Dimensions, Infinity, Vibrations)
This time I completely retained my awareness and kept observing. Usually you'd think that at this point you go into a higher dimension, like the 4th or the 5th, such as when you astral project or have an out-of-body experience. But this time I was seemingly going backwards. The 3rd dimension lost an axis and now there was only 2 dimensions. Soon there was only 1 dimension, where everything that existed was a "line" or "direction" and I could move only along this direction. What happened after this surprised me the most, for even that last dimension vanished. Before this I had no idea that a 0-dimension even existed, and even if I had it would have been impossible to get my head around what it meant. But here I was, in a place with no dimensions, nowhere to go because everything was already in every place, no time, nothing. And I HAD MY AWARENESS.
Basically I was inside a singularity, and slowly it started to dawn on me that if everything is already everywhere, then that is simultaneously a very simple and a very complex state. I realized that a 0-dimension is actually an infinity-dimension. 0 = infinity!!! After the ego death I could have started going into the higher dimensions and I could have reached the same state eventually. When things start to become infinitely complex, they start to become infinitely simple at the same time. If you just keep adding dimensions to dimensions, then automatically everything will start to be everywhere at some point. But there isn't any real "point" or border where this happens, it's just a smooth loop that can go on forever.
Another observation I made at this stage was that everything is vibrations. Not only could I directly feel them here, but I realized that every single thing in the universe, even the universe itself, is a vibration and its characteristics are based on the frequency it has. But at the same time everything has a sort of duality, like black and white, on and off. I could so clearly see the duality of everything visualize in front of me. The other side is ALWAYS there, we just can't see it. I believe this to be what scientist call anti-matter, and from what I understand they're searching for it but there's no point searching for it because it's right in front of us all the time. So, everything is a vibration and everything has a duality. I haven't studied physics much but the term "wave-particle duality" comes to mind, in a way that the particle and it's anti-particle represent the black and white -duality of everything, and the wave represents the vibrating continuous unity of everything.
So matter, as in something solid or constant, does not exist. It's merely an illusion that humans have been forced to create because we're "trapped" in a 3-dimensional phase. And frequencies are exactly like dimensions, starting from a 0-frequency and going to infinity, eventually becoming such an infinitely high frequency that it becomes the same thing as the 0-frequency. Everything is based on frequencies, like the evolution of the universe, it started from a singularity and slowly things are becoming more and more complex, until there'll be no difference with the singularity once again.
Everything was vibrations and I was everything and I was infinite. When you get even the shortest chance to be in this state with your awareness intact, the only way to describe it in human languages is concepts like "god" or "love". I felt the most incredible rush of pure love come over me, and I think my earthly body burst in tears at this point because I could visualize it, my body was colossally huge and there were big magnificently beautiful waterfalls coming from my eyes with rainbows everywhere. I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed with this true happiness and bliss. It makes my eyes misty just thinking about it.
There must have been million of other thoughts and things that happened in this seemingly infinite period of time, but you can only bring back so much information to your limited human brain. A good metaphor is that you're like a USB-key plugged into a computer of infinite data and knowledge, and while you're there you have access to any data you want, but when you have to unplug you can only bring those few Gigabytes with you.
The Comedown:
(Amplifiers, Snakes, Elves, Technology)
Normally I would call this part the "Main Trip", but since the previous state kinda makes everything else seem insignificant, I'll try to keep it short and just consider it as a sort of comedown. There's no clear point when I came back, I just sort of faded very slowly back into existence, and I could sort of feel my body and open my eyes. But opening the eyes at this point didn't make much sense because I would see the exact same visuals that I saw with closed eyes, but just the notion of recognizing that you can control your eyelids once again was refreshing. And also moving the body was out of the question, because even moving your finger an inch felt so amplified that it could have easily ripped galaxies apart.
And that was an idea that came to me at this point, following my previous realization that everything was vibrations, that then psychedelics must be amplifiers of that frequency. And DMT seemed to be a very strong and pure amplifier. At the same time I noticed I had total control over my internal body functions, I could precisely adjust my blood flow, I could control my stomach and lungs for example, and every time I breathed in I could personally be there to welcome all the new oxygen entities, so breathing felt like pure ecstasy. Also I could feel the surface of my body sweating out all the shit that was inside me, and I was surprised to see how much shit I really had.
This got me thinking, if I have the potential to have so much control of my own body without even knowing it, then what kind of potential could I have in my life. The possibilities became endless and I literally saw the concept of a "multiverse" right in front of me, everything that could happen will happen, and everything I can be I will be. A single human being has so much potential without even knowing it, not to mention groups or societies of united consciousness put to focus. Most people (atleast western) are just stuck in this comfort-zone of materialism and consumerism, going to a trivial job every day, watching trivial TV programs the rest of it, and drinking alcohol on the weekends to make even that last chance for free creative time into something trivial (if psychedelics are amplifiers then alcohol is effectively an attenuator). But that's not something I should talk about here because then I would never stop. I also made a decision at this point to stop surrounding myself with close-minded and negative people as much as possible, which means I'm gonna have to be alone for a while until I can move away from here and meet some like-minded people, but internet communities like this help alot in the meanwhile.
Another big change in me that happened at one point was that I lost my phobia of snakes. During my whole life I've been scared to death of snakes, if I see one in nature I become completely paralyzed with fear. So as you can imagine my previous ayahuasca trips with the snake-like visual parts have not been exactly very cool. But this time as I was starting to have the same type of visuals, I actually BECAME a snake. I became a real living snake in the wilderness somewhere. The feeling of becoming an animal is somewhat indescribable, but the thing I kept repeating to myself whole this time was that "So THIS is why they seem so aggressive to everyone. If my life felt like this I would be fucking biting those asshole humans all the time!" It seemed like snakes are in an amplified vibration state all their lives, so everything is gonna feel really amplified to them. I'm not sure if there's a link with the fact that some reptiles and snakes have a remnant of the third eye visible on their head, but it's interesting to think about. After slithering a while in this higher mystical animal-form I realized I had absolutely nothing to fear from it if it had nothing to fear from me. I'll probably still have some physical reflexes of the phobia if I see a snake now, but mentally the phobia is gone.
There was lots of crazy and cool visuals the rest of the trip and a lot of this got me thinking why am I having such an incredible experience, with almost no negative aspects. I knew the set and setting affected a lot, but after a while of analyzing things I realized that I could totally control everything I felt or saw. There was definitely a dark side (same thing as the duality mentioned previously) always present and I could feel it's presence all the time, but I just chose to see and feel only the positive things. If I saw myself drifting a bit to the dark side, I would just have to force myself to smile or think about some positive thing. It felt incredible to have such a control in a place like this, and I chose to play around with it a bit. For example, I just had to think about McKenna and his elves and immediately a HUGE flush of elves would invade my field of vision. Also I would think about the fabergé eggs he mentioned and suddenly there they were, incredibly colorful and intricate objects that were almost shining with the words: "CANDY FOR YOUR EYES".
I wanted to write quite a lot of other things but they don't seem that important anymore so I'll just write the one last "important" one. So the last insight I had was at the very end when I could finally see my apartment somewhat and move my body, and I turned my body to see the time, which had progressed 4 hours since the ingestion. As I was looking at this digital clock I saw the direct link between humans and technology. Technology isn't something unnatural or external, it's just as natural as trees and animals, it is in fact an organism at its very infant state. It's the next evolution after humans, so just like we must appear to monkeys, the future intelligences formed by technology will appear in a similar way to us. We won't be the dominant organism anymore, but we don't need to because something immensely smarter is out there worrying about things now. We might try to resist for a while and it'll be painful for us, but in the end we'll just have to accept the fact that it's inevitable. And no, they won't be the kind of cold, calculating AI we visualize in movies right now, they will have emotions too because every self-aware form of intelligence must develop some sort of emotions, they just might be very different from ours, and something we can't comprehend yet, just like their intelligence compared to ours. But that's all far in the future.
When I finally was pretty much back to normal, I had a really big headache and my head was literally boiling hot. It felt exactly like if my brain was a processor and I had just overclocked the shit out of it. But that didn't bother me at all because it's a small price to pay for such an experience. Though I guess next time I should have a fan blowing into my head. :d
The Conclusion:
This was absolutely a life-changing experience for me and even now 4 days later that I'm writing this there's still a huge afterglow, and I've never felt happier and more excited in my whole life. Excited about the infinite possibilities of everything. I love every living and non-living thing because I now know we're all connected in this truly mystical vibratory universe.
