On a warm evening in August, I decided to give it another try to get a breakthrough to hyperspace. Tried many times to get this done without success. Tried many ways and this time I used a self-made "machine".
I load my pipe with 40mg of the beautiful white crystal and after 3 deep inhales take the thick white vapors. I lie down and unfortunately only get slight sightings of alien-like shapes and figures. After about 5 minutes I get up slightly frustrated.
After some recovery and some light meditation and breathing techniques I decided to give it another chance. Now I somehow skipped to weigh my crystals and threw an unknown amount into my pipe. Sat down and let it melt quietly into the steel wool.
Quietly after some deep breaths I took my first hit.
Now I noticed immediately after the first sip that it was different from all the times before. After 20 seconds of holding the first white vapor I took a 2nd big hit and very soon everything around me started to change very quickly.
I felt completely calm and knew from experience that this is quite normal.
Time and perception disappeared like snow in the sun, so I had no idea how long I had been holding my breath.
Still, I knew I had to take that last hit as well, so I emptied my lungs and took a big gulp of air first. I took the pipe to my mouth again, but I just didn't see a pipe or a lighter. I just had these in my hands, but it was more like I was sucking on my arms. Despite all the craziness, I still managed to get a big 3rd hit and put everything away safely. And then, suddenly, everything was gone. I had no idea if I lay down or whatever.
In my experience, I arrived at a huge wall and was met by an identity. He stopped me hard and stood in front of me. He laughed a little and suddenly came very close to me.
And then it happened. He turned everything inside out, everything that I am was turned inside out. I was surprised what happened and looked at him. He laughed again and made me feel like saying "pay attention now". Suddenly, he let all my senses be stimulated 1 by 1. First my sight and saw with 1 eye my PC screen. And then my taste 1 by 1. Sweet, salty, bitter, sour.
Then it was my hearing's turn. Spongle was playing in the background and I could hear it on the left and then on the right. Then I got all the skin stimuli 1 by 1. Pain. cold, hot. I was very surprised what happened and looked at him again. This time he laughed even harder.
And that's when it got really frightening. He took me to the wall and pulled me half in. I panic a bit because of this and try to keep breathing.
This is because breathing always helps me when I feel some form of panic during a psychedelic experience. Only now I found out that I couldn't breathe.
In fact, I had no idea how to breathe. This made me panic even more and I looked at the identity with fear. I felt like I didn't need oxygen here, but I was terrified if my body would still breathe in the other reality.
Again he came very close to me and turned my whole way of breathing inside out. He laughed even harder and said "trust me" over and over again. I noticed that I was going to force it and noticed that with a lot of effort I could find my breath again in severe panic.
I also knew that this is not the right way in this environment and that I should let myself go.
I was so shocked by this that I wanted to get out. But that didn't work because I was still stuck in the wall. I realized I had to let myself go. I thought I was going to die if I didn't come out of the wall and I was very worried about my body if it would still breathe.
But still, I just let myself go and the identity nodded at me and gave me a wink. All of a sudden I opened my eyes again and I was half back in my real body, and I could still breathe.
I was so happy to be back and to be able to breathe. I had no idea how long I had been away, but it felt like an eternity for me. Time is not a factor in the DMT world.
I am still overwhelmed by what happened then and wonder if other people have experienced this too. Have anyone ever had the feeling that they can't breathe? Is it something normal when you're in the DMT realm? Or should I have just let myself go more and not worried about my breathing?
I load my pipe with 40mg of the beautiful white crystal and after 3 deep inhales take the thick white vapors. I lie down and unfortunately only get slight sightings of alien-like shapes and figures. After about 5 minutes I get up slightly frustrated.
After some recovery and some light meditation and breathing techniques I decided to give it another chance. Now I somehow skipped to weigh my crystals and threw an unknown amount into my pipe. Sat down and let it melt quietly into the steel wool.
Quietly after some deep breaths I took my first hit.
Now I noticed immediately after the first sip that it was different from all the times before. After 20 seconds of holding the first white vapor I took a 2nd big hit and very soon everything around me started to change very quickly.
I felt completely calm and knew from experience that this is quite normal.
Time and perception disappeared like snow in the sun, so I had no idea how long I had been holding my breath.
Still, I knew I had to take that last hit as well, so I emptied my lungs and took a big gulp of air first. I took the pipe to my mouth again, but I just didn't see a pipe or a lighter. I just had these in my hands, but it was more like I was sucking on my arms. Despite all the craziness, I still managed to get a big 3rd hit and put everything away safely. And then, suddenly, everything was gone. I had no idea if I lay down or whatever.
In my experience, I arrived at a huge wall and was met by an identity. He stopped me hard and stood in front of me. He laughed a little and suddenly came very close to me.
And then it happened. He turned everything inside out, everything that I am was turned inside out. I was surprised what happened and looked at him. He laughed again and made me feel like saying "pay attention now". Suddenly, he let all my senses be stimulated 1 by 1. First my sight and saw with 1 eye my PC screen. And then my taste 1 by 1. Sweet, salty, bitter, sour.
Then it was my hearing's turn. Spongle was playing in the background and I could hear it on the left and then on the right. Then I got all the skin stimuli 1 by 1. Pain. cold, hot. I was very surprised what happened and looked at him again. This time he laughed even harder.
And that's when it got really frightening. He took me to the wall and pulled me half in. I panic a bit because of this and try to keep breathing.
This is because breathing always helps me when I feel some form of panic during a psychedelic experience. Only now I found out that I couldn't breathe.
In fact, I had no idea how to breathe. This made me panic even more and I looked at the identity with fear. I felt like I didn't need oxygen here, but I was terrified if my body would still breathe in the other reality.
Again he came very close to me and turned my whole way of breathing inside out. He laughed even harder and said "trust me" over and over again. I noticed that I was going to force it and noticed that with a lot of effort I could find my breath again in severe panic.
I also knew that this is not the right way in this environment and that I should let myself go.
I was so shocked by this that I wanted to get out. But that didn't work because I was still stuck in the wall. I realized I had to let myself go. I thought I was going to die if I didn't come out of the wall and I was very worried about my body if it would still breathe.
But still, I just let myself go and the identity nodded at me and gave me a wink. All of a sudden I opened my eyes again and I was half back in my real body, and I could still breathe.
I was so happy to be back and to be able to breathe. I had no idea how long I had been away, but it felt like an eternity for me. Time is not a factor in the DMT world.
I am still overwhelmed by what happened then and wonder if other people have experienced this too. Have anyone ever had the feeling that they can't breathe? Is it something normal when you're in the DMT realm? Or should I have just let myself go more and not worried about my breathing?
'I am you.. and you are me!' 
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