once more i know what needs to be done i know what should be done... but i cant help remembering the imagined utopia.. the seemingly perfectness of it all.. i still have my mind wrapped around my 'life' my 'future' my 'plans'... somewhere along the way the bottom fell out, she pushed an shoved ... cold and indifferent.. i left i felt i had to, she wanted it just couldnt do it.. even though i know it was right and had to be done, i regret it.. every moment of every day.. i try to live my life i try to forget her but every moment there is something to remind me.. every moment shes in my thoughts.. to realize how after all this time apart shes moved on and im still fucked up.. not that i want her to be upset she deserves to be happy.. i just wish it were with me.. i feel i cant move on .. and i seem to know that ill never forget her.. and i feel ill never stop loving her.. its a bullshit situation.. i just feel as though iv been cheated *shrug* back to work...