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Void's Journey Into Silence

ommani said:
Amen to that… you know yourself better than anyone else does, and for what it’s worth, I think you’re good to go…
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Well, now I'm going to share something that had decided not to share.

I smoalked again today, despite telling myself not to. I didn't have a reason not to other than worry. There may be elements of my father in there as well.

So thank you for reinforcing that...

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The amount of psilocybin and psilocin in my room right now is absolutely stupid. And after last week, the Trickster in me is feeling it. Like these zapotecorum that I happen to have.

Perhaps I too will have days to persevere in doing my laundry because of some psilly-cy-business.

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Sometimes mention things to further instantiate them in our minds. We're on a ferris wheel now. Still round and round. But a different round and round.

Paradox: it requires a strong sense of self to be able to potentially lose that sense of self, ie, a strong sense of self is necessary for adequate loss of self in traversing, say, hyperspace.

I have a bit of disdain for anything and everything that has detracted and deterred me to my connection. This includes people, culture, society, and the many systems therein (especially ones that want to drone on and on about there being no self...)

There's a lot of things I humbly tried to consider... but if I trust my gut, so much is so transparent and it's a whole lotta bullshit.

Sticking to my guns, I'm learning some of confidence is a choice. Prior, I felt like I needed staunch reason. I have that, I just have to receive it.

Idk, I'm blabbering, but I've been getting in there with changa which has been great.

I'm not a pushover. I'm not going to be marginalized and taken advantage of for other's benefit. I'm not going to doubt myself because of the limitations of others.

I may seem like an asshole, comes with the unique territory. I know my character, so I'll wear those optics if need be.

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When I trust the idea that I am pretty sharp and discerning I wonder why I considered so much so deeply so vicerally to get me here. I had to learn to trust myself... I don't need to take in so much.

Granted, taking in a lot is normal with the SPS trait.

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Voidmatrix said:
Paradox: it requires a strong sense of self to be able to potentially lose that sense of self, ie, a strong sense of self is necessary for adequate loss of self in traversing, say, hyperspace.
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I fully agree with you. You need a very strong, healthy, and developed ego to get rid of it. You need to be a mature adult in order to transcend even that phase.
Voidmatrix said:
I have a bit of disdain for anything and everything that has detracted and deterred me to my connection. This includes people, culture, society, and the many systems therein (especially ones that want to drone on and on about there being no self...)
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For most people, no-self is an escape from life and its challenges. For Sri Ramana, it is all about the Self, which is wisdom and love. He never advocated for anyone to leave their family or work. Even the notion that the ego is an illusion is a philosophical view meant to turn you in the right direction for your investigation; it is in no way an escape tactic. Most of his devotees had fulfilling householder lives, and spirituality was a common thread through everything. He advised holding the view only for inner work but living a normal life outwardly. Ideally, no one would even know that you follow him or practice anything.

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northape said:
I fully agree with you. You need a very strong, healthy, and developed ego to get rid of it. You need to be a mature adult in order to transcend even that phase.

For most people, no-self is an escape from life and its challenges. For Sri Ramana, it is all about the Self, which is wisdom and love. He never advocated for anyone to leave their family or work. Even the notion that the ego is an illusion is a philosophical view meant to turn you in the right direction for your investigation; it is in no way an escape tactic. Most of his devotees had fulfilling householder lives, and spirituality was a common thread through everything. He advised holding the view only for inner work but living a normal life outwardly. Ideally, no one would even know that you follow him or practice anything.

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Yeah, I've been too deep for the exoteric for a long time, but hadn't the confidence to be able to admit and realize it.

I don't need anyone's dogma. I don't anyone's pacifier.

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Jamie01 said:
I was at a conference once and Andrew Feldman was arguing with a person in the audience about “who really know”…Feldman insisted that no one really knows because words “f$ck with your head”.
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Funny you should mention such.

Thread 'Void's Skepticism Delineation' Void's Skepticism Delineation

While i don't feel it's well written, I do feel that it is poignant.

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Voidmatrix said:
Then there's you guys. The masochist in me puts my head in the guillotine and you guys do all you can to not only take my head out of the lunette (I had to look that up), but you are also trying to dismantle the contraption altogether!
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I just want to highlight how amazing I think you all are.

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Jamie01 said:
Oh lol it was meant for that other thread you mentioned not this one..sorry I’m posting while trying to cut trees etc
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Ha! All good! We made it fit!

And I love that you're on here while working. When I harvested cannabis, I'd do the same thing. So many posts were while I was at work.

It's funny the intensity that I used to feel (and sometimes still do) to respond and interact here. It's...neurotic? 😅

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Voidmatrix said:
When I trust the idea that I am pretty sharp and discerning I wonder why I considered so much so deeply so vicerally to get me here. I had to learn to trust myself... I don't need to take in so much.
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Voidmatrix said:
Yeah, I've been too deep for the exoteric for a long time, but hadn't the confidence to be able to admit and realize it
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The amount at which I've doubted myself I owe myself forgiveness for. The ideas and stanceless stance I take has been part of me for over 15 years. I just assumed I was off... I had to be wrong... but that's just the strength of the sagacity and discernment that is unbiased in that it subjects itself to itself.

One of the growth pains is frustration.

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Voidmatrix said:
The amount at which I've doubted myself I owe myself forgiveness for. The ideas and stanceless stance I take has been part of me for over 15 years. I just assumed I was off... I had to be wrong... but that's just the strength of the sagacity and discernment that is unbiased in that it subjects itself to itself.

One of the growth pains is frustration.

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So, all this being said... I'm terrified of what DMT, harmalas, and hyperspace have to show me about myself... like the heaviness of my very first journey...

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PS I'm being a brat because I'm in a process and I'm flowing with it.
 
There’s no such thing as a stanceless stance. That’s a word salad. Your still standing around somewhere so whatever stance your taking is your stance and screw anyone who says otherwise. IMO

So own it or move on if it’s not serving you? Are you attached to outcomes?
 
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