Mainly the first 55 seconds ;-)
Maybe you should consult Monkey
I'm an addict to suffering and actions and thoughts that perpetuate it. I'm trying to quit, but cold turkey is not possible and it's always so tempting. Pretending I'm a victim is seductive, but I'm at most a victim of myself. Hopefully the wheel of depending origination will roll slower and slower as I give it impulse less often.
Ape 2 ape hug!